Saturday, April 30, 2005
i've come to realised tt whenever i blog,it's no longer what i do for the day,or when i have gone. but i blog,when i'm frustrated..when i've something in my mind...or when i just need to pen down my tots. it's like...not very good to complain and bitch bout others to someone else,sounds alot like backstabbing,gossiping and stuff.so i'll rather i vent it here...den anywhere else.
rightz....what am i so pek check with now?at this point of time?well..let's just say...tt for Sonicfest,knowing tt everyone is busy with their own schedules,i decided tt i'll organise 2 days for pracs. u know wat's so pek chek bout it? noone takes the initiative to ask bout dates,or even to let me know if they're coming.makes me wonder if they really wanna give their best for God.
Some can even last min on sat itself den tell me got meeting.Dun u know when ur meetings are?issit so fun giving last minute notifications?and some even have the cheek to say "wat time's practice?" walau!wat's the email for?i've already stated very clearly in the email liao lor.tt's the attitude of ypmers. pampered,spoilt,and can't be bothered. i really feel like crying now man. at least i know tt 2 gals,when asked, they will inform me earlier tt they'll come on sundays. isn't tt sweet?at least i know who'll be there.argh!!and 2,haven even replied.wat's their problem?so old already,issit so difficult to just sms a yes or no reply?
i'm so sick..so sick of organising stuff,so sick of having to repeat myself and so sick of just being responsible.why can't i just be laid back and not be bothered by anything?
Jojojoanna
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Sunday, April 24, 2005 Jojojoanna
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leave me alone..or LONELINESS??
Jojojoanna
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leave me alone..or LONELINESS??
Jojojoanna
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leave me alone..or LONELINESS??
Jojojoanna
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Sunday, April 10, 2005 Jojojoanna
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like jas...always tot she was my closest fren....buti guess to her,our relationship is that of frens,dance partners,dance mates. (FULL STOP,end or r/s)...have i suddenly become too sensitive?
it seems like the pple who bothers asking me out..ain't the gals..but the guys..they're the ones...tt's so much easier to talk to,they make u feel like u're frens...and they nv forget to ask u along whenever they're going out or so.but gals...are selfish...dun understand why.
seems like jas is just making use of me.hanging out with my frens cos she got no other frens to hang out with after service,and she wun even bother telling ya where everyone is when u'll be late.is this the kinda fren tt i deserve? den now...she got grace to eat with,and occasionally mel,she'll just go off liddat lor.wun even say bye.gee....so i realised..yup..the pple tt she truly consider as good frens..is not me..it's mel and grace.ah well...lesson learnt.nv treat anyone too good,because the kindness is nv appreciated. all i ask is for appreciation.not...reciprocation.it sucks!the feeling sucks!and the wall ard me..is building up again..my heart is hardening once again..
denise,thks for being there for me!appreciate it loads! Shu, thanks for the hug! just wat i needed!
like jas...always tot she was my closest fren....buti guess to her,our relationship is that of frens,dance partners,dance mates. (FULL STOP,end or r/s)...have i suddenly become too sensitive?
it seems like the pple who bothers asking me out..ain't the gals..but the guys..they're the ones...tt's so much easier to talk to,they make u feel like u're frens...and they nv forget to ask u along whenever they're going out or so.but gals...are selfish...dun understand why.
seems like jas is just making use of me.hanging out with my frens cos she got no other frens to hang out with after service,and she wun even bother telling ya where everyone is when u'll be late.is this the kinda fren tt i deserve? den now...she got grace to eat with,and occasionally mel,she'll just go off liddat lor.wun even say bye.gee....so i realised..yup..the pple tt she truly consider as good frens..is not me..it's mel and grace.ah well...lesson learnt.nv treat anyone too good,because the kindness is nv appreciated. all i ask is for appreciation.not...reciprocation.it sucks!the feeling sucks!and the wall ard me..is building up again..my heart is hardening once again..
denise,thks for being there for me!appreciate it loads! Shu, thanks for the hug! just wat i needed!
like jas...always tot she was my closest fren....buti guess to her,our relationship is that of frens,dance partners,dance mates. (FULL STOP,end or r/s)...have i suddenly become too sensitive?
it seems like the pple who bothers asking me out..ain't the gals..but the guys..they're the ones...tt's so much easier to talk to,they make u feel like u're frens...and they nv forget to ask u along whenever they're going out or so.but gals...are selfish...dun understand why.
seems like jas is just making use of me.hanging out with my frens cos she got no other frens to hang out with after service,and she wun even bother telling ya where everyone is when u'll be late.is this the kinda fren tt i deserve? den now...she got grace to eat with,and occasionally mel,she'll just go off liddat lor.wun even say bye.gee....so i realised..yup..the pple tt she truly consider as good frens..is not me..it's mel and grace.ah well...lesson learnt.nv treat anyone too good,because the kindness is nv appreciated. all i ask is for appreciation.not...reciprocation.it sucks!the feeling sucks!and the wall ard me..is building up again..my heart is hardening once again..
denise,thks for being there for me!appreciate it loads! Shu, thanks for the hug! just wat i needed!
like jas...always tot she was my closest fren....buti guess to her,our relationship is that of frens,dance partners,dance mates. (FULL STOP,end or r/s)...have i suddenly become too sensitive?
it seems like the pple who bothers asking me out..ain't the gals..but the guys..they're the ones...tt's so much easier to talk to,they make u feel like u're frens...and they nv forget to ask u along whenever they're going out or so.but gals...are selfish...dun understand why.
seems like jas is just making use of me.hanging out with my frens cos she got no other frens to hang out with after service,and she wun even bother telling ya where everyone is when u'll be late.is this the kinda fren tt i deserve? den now...she got grace to eat with,and occasionally mel,she'll just go off liddat lor.wun even say bye.gee....so i realised..yup..the pple tt she truly consider as good frens..is not me..it's mel and grace.ah well...lesson learnt.nv treat anyone too good,because the kindness is nv appreciated. all i ask is for appreciation.not...reciprocation.it sucks!the feeling sucks!and the wall ard me..is building up again..my heart is hardening once again..
denise,thks for being there for me!appreciate it loads! Shu, thanks for the hug! just wat i needed!
sigh...sometimes..it's just nice having childlike thinking,to be like a child,blur,ignorant yet happy and contented with wat they have.sometimes..it's so much better not knowing anyone,and not getting hurt in the process. Frens...i guess i shld say...comes and goes....they nv stay..they nv care if u're gone or not ard.u're simply forgotten.
SATURDAY
felt damn sian when i saw the number of pple from my grp going for the outing.esp tt the leader,last min cannot go.but ah well..3 of us only.den can't be bothered le.hmm....den went blading with grp Benjamin and Timothy.hahaha...because it was only my 2nd time going,i was quite lousy.slow and scared.fell quite a number of times..but now,i can go over humps albeit still wary and scared whenever i come across any.nvm..in time to come,i'll be more bold.
SUNDAY
arm was aching from tt blading.must be wondering,why the arm and not the thigh eh?cos i fell more den i blade.hahaha...hmm...think sunday...was quite fun....i also dunno why leh...but just tot it was fun.hahaha...
MONDAY
tt's just yesterday..wat happened ah??eh...actually..i cannot really remember...oh!!!!went to chinatown,had an ex meg meeting there...den went to look at those latest viet prdts,didn't buy much tho..cos we're having a makeover sale.heh.....so....nv buy le.
TODAY
had another super long ex meg meeting.but it was productive and yes!we're gonna have a new range of clothes and a total makeover.keep checking my blog for further updates k?heh...hmmm...
yup...and i'm going to town..during office hours for market research.how fun can working be eh?
heh...den went for hip hop class in the evening,steps today looks cheem but it is actually quite easy and i find tt time in class flies faster today.really love dancing.it's gonna be my life!i'm gonna keep dancing!!!until..i cannot dance anymore.heh..
THURSDAY EVENTS
hmmm...went to ncc...God really spoke to me after the low period...and all tt 'condemnation'.i'm glad i went to NCC.yup....after watching tv tt night,too tired to blog.slept straight after the show.heh..
yeah..went jitterbugs too.look at em lindy hop.cool man!!!really different impression.heh.
FRIDAy EVENTs
had prata haha...for breakfast..ooh...yum yum..den went to the office to work a while,before going to city plaza to 'stock up' and work was extremely fun today!!haha...cos we went to far east,city link..suntec..for 'market research'.was cool.kinda like a ladies day out.heh...yeah yeah..den had meeting with matt followed by prayer mtg.cool.felt it wa good.and...after prayer meeting came supper.hahahaha....yeahs!!our usual..ooh!!and i ate.but thankfully,i lost another 500g this week!!yay!!which means..in 2 weeks,i've lost a kg.and back to my kinda normal wt!woohoo!!
let's see..not bad,was quite punctual for work yesterday,though we had like a 2hour lunch.wah!!!i ate alot of sinful stuff yesterday. here goes--- 10am, an apple and a vitagen, 11.30 2/3 of a chicken pie, 1/4 banana cake, 1pm++ 10 sticks of satay,ketupat,egg onion prata, paper prata(all shared among 3 pple)..den...3+4 pm liddat...ate a lil sesame paste,peanut paste and almond paste which tasted darn horrible.9+10 onwards,had some dunno wat chicken,very nice..and grapes too.oh man!!sounds so sinful!!!argh!!!KK....NVM...GOING JOGGING LATER.
hmmm...okie...after work,went for hip hop class. the steps were easier and pretty fun!!jas and jas's fren..i think..they were still confused.just like grace and i were when we started out.haha...but i really perspired alot yesterday,my face was super red.cool!yay!!i'm glad i worked out.heh...
now..feeling a lil pissed with quite a number of stuff..so much on my mind- the ypm beach outing(which i'm SOOO not looking forward to),sonicfest(pple who only know how to talk and criticise and not suggest better songs--hey u!i've realy had enuff of u k)...ya...these 2....haiz...dunno la..am i starting to become like a perfectionist?
woo..i suddenly seem to have an influx of new found frens..new found good frens.God Sent!!woohoo!!let's name..a few..melody foo,grace por --> SHOPPING KAKis(dunno how to spell)jasmine(this one quite long le..and gowing steadier den ever),estella(very mature for her age...gets along with everyone..heh..),grace tye(my dance companion, blading coach,listener..when we talk bout stuff,and shopping too!)ZHI ZHI!!haha(Since when..did i start to share my probs with u huh huh huh?)k la..zhi zhi's sociable,humourous and patient--->GALS OUT THERE..he's very AVAILABLE!!so must grab the opportunity to know him k kk??heh.....hmm..who else??there's matt(my only prayer ministryer..member? listener to almost everything i say-probs,crap,bitch,gosip..everything la!!) gab(co-worker in BARNABAS,drama coach - the one who opened many doors for me to act.thk u!!love acting!drama's cool!)...vanessa(haha..bitching partner,fren,crapping..gossipping,and just being there when i need ya!),mmm...pearlyn(cookie making partner,listener,sister...cute fren!heh)..denise!!(someone..i got to know..only like a few few months back...yet she understands me...and gives me great advices on going after guys-although i still got no guts to go after him..hehe...and always listens to me talk bout guys and stuff..and of cos!!shopping kaki!!and...a fren i can simply go to anytime.very supportive fren!love ya dear!!)...maryann!!!(the one who's always encouraging me..everytime i feel stressed,can't seem to study and dun understand stuff in the TB..she's there to help me.she's a NERD..ooh..a NUN and..a SAINT!!haha)...okie..if i ever miss out on anyone..i'll....edit my post..heh..there's also aunty lynda..who nv fails to ask me out for lunch and always treats me in the end,always sharing with me and listening to me.a great great fren!!
wah!!dunno why i suddenly..just feel like giving a tribute to all my frens!haha...yes..and i've loads of good frens..pple abroad--->pamela,yu jia and ruth chan...get along buddies --->calvin low,isaac low,eugene tan,my cousin moses...er..er...siew ho,josh kim,jon phan,melvyn ho,taiwei,estee tang,amandia teh(my SHiFU,tudi!!haha),Pple in B&R - STUDENT,zhang pei, TEACHER,gillian ther and CANTEEN AUNTIE,sharon(her mum nv fails to cook red wine chicken for me!heh)i know i know..i missed out alot alot of u.i'm sorry ok!!i'll continue editing this post.haha..ooh..also got MR LAM!crap ah..he..and there's doreen,grace ho,peter,pamela see, melissa tham,melissa ho,jesslyn eio,jon teo,ka mun(this couple,super nice to me),aaron tay,agnes, he lu so on and so forth.if i missed ya out..tag me tag me!!okok??i didn't miss ya out on purpose.just tt..gotta understand la..i've too many frens le!!wahaah!!
okok...ya..ya..where was i??ya..after lunch,went for dance prac.today was quite fun leh..dunno why..beginning to enjoy every dance prac..like there's more sense of unity now.very happy.those aunties..can really make us luff.hahaha...they really very cute ah...break the tension.yeah...after dance..went to meet up with the guys for dinner.went subway..and once again,when there's eugene and moses...there'll always be luffter...and...entertainment.haha..so fun!!den matt had to send all of us home.thks matt!nice of ya!!alright..i think..tt's wat mainly happened.cool!thk God for frens!i love ya all!!!
went sharon's place today...supposed to go to the gym..den swim one..but tt teacher gillian ah...didn't bring sports shoes..so we ended up..tanning..before swimming.it was still good tho.time was just nice..had fun tanning..although still very fair.hhaha..den..after we swam..haiz...sharon's mum..cooked red wine chicken(FATTENING!!!!) yes it was..but...since her mum cooked,better to eat eh?anyway..jogging again tom.yay!!okok..yeah..after our swimming and tanning..and lunch...we went to tampines interchange..to window shop.haha..yeah..tt was just the beginning...for joanna of cos!haha..but we were all super tired..i slept in the bus all the way back home.and i went to work...*gAsP*..at 5pm.hahaha...supposed to be there..latest 3..or 330 one...well..guess i simply followed wat my bosses do..but they say..tt they'll try coming early tom.haha..let's see man!!we're all...speculating..if it's another of their talk only..NO ACTION.
yeah..i went to work..till..haha..6.30pm...den went off to meet grace por..and jas..for shopping..session 2!!woohoo!quite fun also..i bought..a pair of shoes...and..er..er.....2 spaghetti tops- 1 white..and the other hot pink from forever 21..quite cheap leh...den...another racer back top..from some push cart..sad to say..i too fat..cannot fit into it.but i'm gonna keep it.i believe..i'm gonna lose wt..in no time. *cRoSSiNg FiNgers*...rightz...tt's all..for today!!thank u for reading!!heh..gotta chat over the phone now!!!*yaWnZ*
okie..now..to talk abt guy A...i seriously dunno wat he's thinking la...one min...msg me online,talk to me over the phone..and now..for the past 2 days...stopped talking to me.haha...i really dunno wat he's thinking..when i message him online today..he didn't reply lor..so..wat is he exactly thinking?i dunno man...argh!!!so like my ex..ah well..watever..i dun really care la....knowing..who my target is..heh..
well..wat made my evening better?hip hop lessons @ jitterbugs, together with Grace. it's super good!so fun!!really had fun.today's steps were more difficult,nevertheless fun..and wat made our evening special,we decided to get this 3 quarts from FOX..heh..we bought the same colour!!and we're gonna wear it this sat..top not confirmed tho.but it's gonna be fun!!yay!!my new found good fren ----->>>GRACE!!hehe..so happy...and yeah..we're gonna roller blade together also.she's been a great motivation..cos of her,i'm so determined to lose wt..haha...and of cos..our dance instructor too.super tall and slim..and nice.heh...okie..i think..i'm gonna turn in now.
yesterday...went to watch Miss Conggeniality@bugis with jas...funny show..very interesting.made me luff(so the show's a success!hahaha)..yup.it's good to watch a movie on monday..cos there aren't many pple.*sNort* *sNort*..heh...
well...didn't go to work yesterday..haiz..losing my momentum to work liao...God,give me motivation!!..at night...he messaged me online again..den say...talk over the phone..so he called me...haiz..this time...he said loads of stuff..like why did he have to be attracted to me...why am i so special...why must God play a joke on him..bla bla bla....alot of stuff la..cannot really remember le...den in the end,he say he's gonna give himself 1 more year..which means..he's not gonna let go of me...haha..i dunno wat to say...i'm...more or less..letting go of him le...wat shld i do?
oh...today...i felt really down...like alot of problems..and i just didn't know..who i could share it with..so i tot..why not go jogging....and...wah!!!jogging is good!!!it's a stress reliever...and i jogged w/o forcing myself...i jogged more...w/o hesitation..and i didn't find it long before i reach my destination.heh..so maybe everyday..i shld have alot of probs..liddat..jogging will be so much easier le..den..i can lose more wt..faster!!haha...
did break free today...hahaha...when i trip over the platform,my candle flipped also.so..it got extinguished even before it was supposed to.hahaha...but many said..tt we did a great job...well..i hope,they aren't just saying it for the sake of saying it.seriously hope..tt they were ministered by it.kk....later someone say i write too much again.so..i'll end here...
today...was kinda disappointed with my frens...quite pissed off also la...haiz..but saw the good side of jasmine again...it's been good and i had fun during service..hehehehe.....happy..happy...very happy today...kk..better go bathe now...