Simply Gorgeous

Sunday, July 31, 2005

just came back from Manhatten Fish bla bla bla....wah!!!super super fun...laughed the whole night..until even the waiters tried not to luff.haha....luffed till tears rolled down my eyes...woah!!i'm so excited.the nxt one..8aug!!charlie and the choc fac..and most prob..stayover!!!so fun so fun!!can finally play 7-up!!...haha..oh man..thinking of wat happened just now in the restuarant..really super funny ah..hahaha....okok....yes...night's over....thank u caleb and serene,for driving my bro,me and matt home.saved me so much time!!

yes..will be leaving my hse at 3.45..and guess wat???wohohohoh...i've not packed my bag...amazing eh??heh..well..think shld not have much to pack also la...so...can't be bothered.hehehe...okie...u pple..dun miss me k??i'll try and buy stuff back..but no gurantees...cos i didn't change any money..hahaha..using whatever my dad lent first.see ya guys soon!!!

well...cal...Blessed birthday!!we sang 4 times for ya today!!hahaha...i'm glad u enjoyed urself!! *GrIns*

Jojojoanna is just simply gorgeous 10:37 PM

Saturday, July 30, 2005

SONICFESTIVAL'05

yeah....it's over.i can't believe...the most awaited event of the year...is finally over...yes..3days...went for 2nights....
i felt as if...i just went for a camp...and wished..it nv ended.today was good.i had fun...noon till night....

our dance went pretty well.really really thank God.although we practiced lesser den last yr,this yr..we were more focused,more calm..and i dunno..closer?yeah...i really miss the dance.let's hope we can dance it sometime again.many thanks to those who went to support us..and those who tried to make it...but ended up late.we appreciate tt u've tried to reach on time...but thks to the stupid jam...ah well...we understand.thks for coming.

worship jam...woah...seriously taught me alot alot.when it was abt to begin,crystal was up there,i suddenly just wanted to back out..i suddenly became so scared..like i was some sorta 3yr old kid who just didn't wanna do it.but i told myself..no,i've said i'll do it and i'm gonna finish it till the end.I'm so glad i did it.when i was up there,i really wasn't thinking of the steps anymore..i wasn't conscious of how i looked..i wasn't comparin myself to anyone..i was totally focused on God..worshipping in spirit(really,just concentrating on his goodness)..and i nv knew..there were so many steps...tt i cld do.no..they weren't hip hop..they were all so contemp.i wanna do it again!it just felt so good...now..tt's wat i call dance in worship.and i think we were all radiant after it.seriously.when i looked at the pic i took with kel and crys.God,thk u!!thk u for guiding me!i miss worship jam already!!

Saw hosea,rayvin..ahhh...didn't see joel!!so sad..but tt's alright..hosea said our dance was good.heh..thk God!!he's so encouraging.like u can nv hear any unedifying stuff out of his mouth.yes!!i miss phileo already!!but i know...there's definitely more to come...and no..i'm not idolising em.they're just pple we can really learn from.humble,cool and pple after God's heart.

okie..i'll load up the pics when mandia's passed me hers.it's cool!yes..i miss everything.had so much fun today!!F4..has once again..played ard with camera.haha..can't wait to see how we all looked man!!woohoo!!..

alright...i've gotta go wash my laundry now.see ya guys tom!!

Jojojoanna is just simply gorgeous 11:22 PM

Thursday, July 28, 2005

focus...focus...

as sonicfest draws nearer....my heart sinks deeper.yes..no doubt...our rehearsal was screwed.we all knew our steps...but why did we still screwed up our one and only opportunity up on the stage??i really regretted.shld have gotten everyone to do the steps without the music first.i shldn't just go thru the positions.we were under attack.there was no doubt abt it.all of us were nervous...we were anxious..and tt caused us all to screw up.felt really really discouraged.as a leader,i think i did a really bad job.i cld have done more.i shld have drawn closer to God..i shld have trusted Him more.i shld have been more firm.i'm sorry Lord,i failed..once again.we shld have started praying every time we had our practice.but i was just not firm enuff to get everyone to pray.I guess it's just nv easy leading pple tt are ur frens.and many a times...i just feel tt it's my inadequate dance background tt has caused pple not to respect me,caused me to have low self esteem when it comes to dance..and caused me to not have the confidence to lead.i was utterly disappointed with myself.Seeing the way the other leaders encouraging,spurring their members on..what have i done?all i did was look at the negative side.was my expectations too high?i guess..i became the leader by accident.because noone appointed me.i just became the liason between my grp and the committee.Thanks to jesher..someone i just got to know,who happened to talk to me bout soonicfest...who encouraged me.why worry bout the mess?God loves messess!!the messier,the better!!only den...can we see the glory of God..only den will we draw strength from him,only den will we trust Him..it's only den..dat our attitudes are made right with God.

hey jesher!thanks man!i still can't stop thanking u!!Many questions are left unanswered now.but i'm gonna trust in the Lord.

was actually a lil pissed just now...because everyone was just so moody.another attack!yup..so i just decided to ignore the moodiness and maintain my cheerfulness.Just gotta be strong at this point of time.sigh..i wish i cld have done more for the grp.well..i guess i'm still learning.every event is a stepping stone.

Got my mp3 player today!yippie!!!too bad..it's not pink!!

Jojojoanna is just simply gorgeous 12:55 AM

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

tuesday..

work was good!!i'm on time..meeting my deadlines earlier den expected!!which means...i get to go home earlier.yay!!so proud of myself.woohoo!!!it's the run thrus tom...i'm excited!!haha..can see phileo again!!oh man..wat's wrong with us huh huh huh???but great to see old frens too.time flies...SonicFest is here once again..woah..super overwhelmed..super nervous.

supposed to get my Mp3 player today one..sigh...but cldn't get it..cos the staff who cld offer discount not ard...so can only get it tom or thursday.am so happy and proud of a daddy like mine!haha...it's like...he's gonna pay for it first..and i can pay him back when i get the money.one thing i learnt from my parents..or one thing my parents taught me..is tt if i wanna get something,they wun spoil us but instead,we'll have to fork out the money to get it.they taught me not to be materialistic...and i'm glad tt i need not feel guilty if i ever spend on anything expensive..afterall..i'm paying for it.so it kinda eases the guilt.like going shopping..i feel happier shopping w/o my mum.cos i'll feel so bad seeing her spend the money on me(i guess tt's what happens when u start working)..haha..and i just spent 128 on my new pair of specs.die man!!going HK and shenzhen sommore.sure spend sommore money one.woohoo..let's see how i'm gonna survive.

saw u online...suddenly realised how much i really miss ya..and how much i enjoyed talking to ya on the phone..will u ever call me again??or even say a hi when u see me online??or are u gonna forever just leave me alone??sigh...hope to hear from u soon!!and i miss ya!!i do!!*hUgz*

Jojojoanna is just simply gorgeous 1:08 AM

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

Busy Weekend..

weekends...are as usual..busy.
yup.sat's dance prac was better...but i felt tt alot more effprt cld have been put in.ah well..i seriously hope we dun screw up on wed and esp sat man!!hohohoh...so much still unsure.i hope everyone's practising hard at home.i am. *GRiNs*
yeah..after tt..it was ypm svc..den TLC...had fun!!luffing...fellowshipping once again with my good frens..am always happy whenever we have gatherings.den went for dinner with the Benjamites..they seem to have become my 3rd cell grp!!hahaha....with melissa ho ard..i nv seem to be down...or not luffing and all.hehe...hey roommate!!i didn't know..u cld be so encouraging...such a fren!we make a great team!!hehe..and i've to say a BIG THANK YOU!!for ur letter and choc.the letter was a really great encouragement..thks for ya honesty!!it's glad to know pple are inspired by my strength.i'm really encouraged..it's always nice to hear i've made an impact in their lives..and spurring em on unknowingly.and the choc's good!haha..

alright..let's move on to sunday...went to fel's birthday chalet!!!i was initially dreading it.scared dunno anyone...den scared they think i put on wt(tt's like..my greatest fear man!!)....but thankfully..i felt so comfortable..i stayed longer den expected.and ended up having to take a cab home..mama...fel..ur bday's expensive man!!haha..
going for the chalet..suddenly just made me feel.....like getting attached.(okie...i'm not desperate here ok)..seeing fel and marshul(i dunno how to spell ya name..sorry!)so loving..(btw..they've the same bday..born in the same yr too).and seeing tammi with his cute gym instructor bf(yes!fel & i both agreed tt he's cute..haha)..and seeing all their frens coming with their other half..just made me feel like...well..yes..getting all lovey dovey...awwww...but i know..tt i shld trust in the Lord.and somehow,i'm really afraid of commitments.it just scares the shit out of me.haha.."jo,how can u get married at 22 den?"..yeah..i know...well..Trust in the Lord..and he'll make ya paths straight.in the mean time,i'll just enjoy the privileages of a single,enjoying the numerous attn tt i still can get from guys(muahahah)..and go on dating(it's fun!)..and knowing more frens.*GrInz*..and i'll give my full attn to serving the Lord,my biz..and my cell grp..sigh..i've a feeling alot of responsibilities are gonna be on me...plus...there's so much follow up to do.sigh..feel tt we've lost alot of members.but God blessed us with 3more.so i'm not gonna wait till the ldr gives instructions.am mtg evelyn on thurs..and i'm gonna discuss my commitments and responsibilities with her and how i feel towards the grp.i'm not there as a member,i'm there becos i dun wanna see the younger ones stray away.alright..i'm praying things will go well..Barnabas will be blessed!

so many times...i felt like giving up serving in the YPM min..but so many times,God just keep drawing me back.so many times..i just feel like changing church..but He always seem to have something for me to do there.i'm fated to stick to COS..or maybe..i dun have the heart to leave?after all,i grew up here.*wiNks*

just received sms from kellyn and crystal..wah..i tot no need to dance for dancejam already.man!!now it's still on.i'm feeling very nervous,self esteem is back..just hope to maintain and keep tummy flat till sat.God,help me to focus on u.i'm doing it cos i wanna worship u.Get my attitude right o Lord.

alright alright..shall stop typing here.Hk trip..maybe be postponed to a later date in Aug.will see how mtg goes tom.but it's still on!!*WhEe*..can't wait!!

Jojojoanna is just simply gorgeous 1:04 AM

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

AtTaCked!!!!!

yeahs...devil's good.knows exactly where to attack me.and he sure knows how to get me all discouraged and depressed.but thank God...when i needed someone to be there for me,Melissa Ho...she was online...after sharing with her,i just felt a lil better.Thanks Mel,for sacrificing a lil of ya sleep just to listen to me!!appreciate it!!!...and after speaking to sean bout loads and loads of rubbish..and bout bgr..i went to sleep..w/o those burdens.haha..it was fun..talking to sean.yeah...we've still to continue our topic eh??haha...

hmm...band concert..well..we all concluded tt the sec schs had no substance.JCs were better....esp SAJC!!woohoo!!!they rawk since yeah dunno wat man!!!i was so engrossed in their com pc..i didn't realise..it ended.tt's how power they are.their sound is very rounded..very sharp...superb!!'ve always enjoyed sa's concerts...an ardent fan of theirs since aaron started inviting me to thier concerts..and i must commend..tt they're getting better every yr.kudos to a wonderful conductor--DAVID Gloz...(however u spell it)..yesterday's concert..just made me nostalgic-those days when i was performing with my sch band,the SHSS spirit,the family,luffter...everyone was just so united,laughed together,helped one another..just super encouraging.sigh...i wish i had taken band seriously..ah well...band rawks!!SAJC--continue to improve!!i'm always cheering u guys on..altho i'm not frm SA.they're the coolest jc man!!woohoo!!love their shorts!!wahahahah...

hmm...loving my work more and more each day.gonna be the sales supervisor overseeing my store when it opens in Aug!!yay!!ahha..and i'm the one tt's gonna be planning those HK trips..and store layout and all.work's been more productive each day,we're all working hard towards the opening...and we celebrated Perry's bday today!!hehe..had oishi!pizza...wonderful..super unique and we were the 1st customers who dined there.haha...hmm...den in the evening..supposed to go spotlight alone..but Peter & Grace,ever so spontaneous went with me!yay...thank u God..for sending me company.i'm so glad for it.not 1 companion..but 3!+1 (kamun joined us for awhile)haha..while at spotlight,J.R called..so i spoke to him..woah..almost cldn't recognise his voice..he sounds...so different!!haha..was great catching up with him..still going to church.am glad to hear tt.gee...philippines...haha..hmm...HK!!here i come!!alright..gonna check out ticket and accomadtion prices now!!muahahaha...

Jojojoanna is just simply gorgeous 11:51 PM

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

broken

broken.depressed.disappointed.bitter.angry.insecure.lonely.regrets.resentment.
i need to see a counsellor soon.or better...a Christian who's been thru exactly the same as i've been thru.tt wld help alot!God,send me one soon!!i need SOS FAST!!!!

Jojojoanna is just simply gorgeous 11:58 PM

Monday, July 18, 2005

i'm excited,overwhelmed,broke,anxious,nervous...dunno wat to expect.

yeah!!why am i feeling liddat??let me tell u why...because i've so many presents to buy!!!!!!!woah....suddenly so many bdays,and birthday parties.woohoo!!

tt explains why i'm excited..and broke.haha....jas!!i already know what to get for u!!hehehe.....and my good fren_FELICIA LAI!!is celebrating her bday this sunday!!i definitely wun say no..cos i wanna keep this friendshiop..why am i anxious??scared??nervous??cos the others i haven been keeping in touch with em..so i scared i feel very left out..and well..seem to be having low self esteem now.all of dem...slim and chio one lor!!nvm....i shldn't be affected..
yupyup...den just received an invitation from my junior!!wah!!!so long nv see her le..and she's invited me to her bday party...at a country club sommore..and again...i've lost touch with every single one of em..so scared i feel left out..aiya..maybe i shld take the opportunity to make more new frens.hehe....can la...joanna...be FRIENDLY ok??

woo..wat else??oh..crystal called just now..and say wat..they actually submitted my name for dance jam for sonicfest.but i guess i'm still trying to get over this self esteem thingy..not confident of myself..so told em i may feel paiseh...so..i suggested jasmine's name.hehe...feel super honoured tt i was asked.but just can't do it...jas....call me back soon k??i need to get back to crystal.maybe i'll do with u??dunno why..i always feel more confident when jas is with me..hehe...yay!!jas just called back while i typed this.hahaha...cool!we're gonna do it together.if they allow us to not go for briefing this friday.wahaha...so excited..scary..but Lord,i'm doing this for u!!!help me to feel confident!!

okie...wat's nxt??hmm...calvin's bday..wah..another present to buy.hiak hiak hiak...

okie...yay..tom going band concert.so exciting..at esplanade..and pay so cheap sommore...

ooh..and why am i gonna be even more broke??cos my company's going HK...so..wah..confirm shop like dunno wat one...but wat's so exciting??being able to travel to HK!!!and..company's gonna pay for our makeover..tt is we do it ourselves..so tt we can try out the concept we have for the retail shop.wanna know more??come ask me!!hehe....ooh..

and i just received my hp bill...thank God.didn't exceed 100..even tho i was in philippines....it's gonna stay this way until i dunno when man.i confirm call em very often here one.hehe.....okie!!gonna watch tv now!!

Jojojoanna is just simply gorgeous 9:01 PM

oops!i forgot!!

yeah!!jas and i went for our manicure and pedicure yesterday.the ladies serving us were really friendly and nice!!!ahha...yay!!now my toenails are so in shape...i'm loving it!!gonna go back to em nxt month!hehee...
ooh...and we just coincidentally chose each other's fav colours for our nails..JAS:PINK, JO:Purple.haha..oops oops!!so cool!!Check out Jas's nails man!!one too pale,the other too bright!!hahaha...jas...first time going for mani and pedi??hehe

Jojojoanna is just simply gorgeous 10:32 AM

wat shld i title this...???

hmm...yeah..dunno wat to title this..haha..

this weekend was pretty much good and bad.bad because i've suddenly become very sensitive,i snap at pple,lost my cool,got pissed PLENTY of times...cried myself to sleep on Friday night...gee...issit PMS?or am i facing too much stress and pressure?I'll only know..once PMS is over.hahaha...ah well..

Mission Convention wasn't exactly tt good.The speaker's message didn't really speak to me..nor most pple.haiz..the 1st night was good lor.it was interesting.after tt...............................wat happened?????

hmm..Shu likes her present!!yay!!i'm so happy!!!Eugene picked the right prdts..while i chose the appropriate gift.hahahaha....

okie...my weekend was pretty much hectic..sat was spent going for SONICFEST prayer mtg(as compared to the 1st i went,this was very rush,and not much prayed for,Because they were rushing to baybeats)...den came back,supposed to have dance prac..haha..but we were late..so ah well..we talked abt the sequence.Den it was service...den...met Uncle James and he treated Jas and I dinner.wat a blessing!!he's like so generous.can grow fat if u eat with him everyday man.haha..ooh..and he asked us if we cld dance for the crusade at Malacca in August.of Cos,if my work permits,if Jas can make it,i'll be more den happy to be able to once again serve God thru this area of ministry.but the other thing is..going with Uncle James wld mean he'll pay everything for us.So paiseh..yeah..it's a blessing..but it's 2 blessed...until stressed.haha...well..will pray bout it.haha..if i go,it'll simply mean going for mission trips weekly since May.yay!!cool.

Jojojoanna is just simply gorgeous 10:16 AM

Friday, July 15, 2005

wish it was still yesterday...

if only tomorrow nv come.1hr!!!!if finances permitted..we'll be chatting for more den tt.i'm happy.i'm excited.i understand u more now. God's showing and revealing alot of stuff.He's even opend the doors for me to join the missions subcommittee.i'm excited at what's he's been doing in my life and looking forward to the more to come!!!Wow...shaed so much with my frens...jasmine!!!!!i can't wait to see u again!!!!hehehe..mel and grace..i guess it's time i update u two again..remember Guy A and B??well....heh...alot have happened.nw there's more...more to say and update!!can't wait till we get together again!!woohoo!!!

yes!yesterday was spent cycling...hehe...and well..after tt uncle james treated us to lunch and den we went to help him and we chatted and den he brought me,matt and mel tham to collect some stuff den brought us to have some nice prawn noodles..it was a relaxing and fun day for me.this week has been rather productive.

went pam's house to use the gym and swim...great time for me to catch up with her..den i went to visit my excolleague ..heh..she gave me 2 cross back sportsbra!!yay!!add to my collection of sportsbra!!woohoo..and i bought a trck pants.yay!!the kind tt i was looking for!!yay..alright..gotta go for praye mtg and mission convention now!!can't wait to see the video clip.yippie@!

Jojojoanna is just simply gorgeous 5:42 PM

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

it's been great!!

yes..things are going so well..so fun...so.....exciting!!

spoke to the filipinos over the phone for abt an hr plus...boy..was i in for another surprise!!oh man..wat am i to do??haiya...heck la...yupyup.was so fun talking to em.ahha..all taking turns talking to me...den some talk not enuff so talk to me again.hahaha....heard so many stuff...my heart goes out to them agaiin.i hope i can make a difference in their lives.great frens i've got there.whee!!love ya babies!!

today was a super busy,fun but tiring day...hmm..met up with crystal for lunch,learnt so much from her..shared so much with her too...it was simply cool..just lunching and fellowshiping.woo..after lunch...it was shopping with mel tham..we went far east and den went bugis street!!shiok man!!yeah..jo bought stuff again..like 3 tops and a skirt.and earrings and a bracelet!!yeah!!!!so fun!!and we were tired..really tired after tt..haha...and after our shopping,we actually went to meet the guys for dinner.and we had to walk to the place.like for 10-15mins??haha..thank God i was wearing flats.dinner was cool.12 of us...heh...and we ate ALOT..everyone was super full..eating all those 'appetisers' was just enuff to fill our stomachs.hahah...but it was worth it la.didn't cost much..hmm..wah..think i spent bout 70-80 today..woohoo!!den tom..going for manicure and pedicure..and cycling!!yay!!the money's worth all the bonding.i'm glad.thank u God,u're my jehovah jireh,my provider.Love u!

Jojojoanna is just simply gorgeous 11:41 PM

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

wiser me.stronger me.cheerful me!

God's been good to me.opening many doors for me.Job opportunities just come looking for me w/o even having me to go looking for me.Internship opportunities are all around me.He's been blessing me.i nv have to worry bout not having any job..and even before i quit a job,another job offer comes up.of cos i still hafta ask ard when i was looking for a PT job.but looking for a fulltime job is so much easier.I've nv had to go thru any interviews(thank God for tt)...but if ever i have to go thru one,i know my Big Great Daddy!!is always with me.Will prob be joining a company as an intern soon!!and it's a MNC co.so i'm excited..and i'll definitely not give up such good opportunity!!

CS meeting went well today.we shld be taking over soon.gonna be busy..but judging at the rate things are going,i can say...i've lost all positivity i'm having now.ah well..i'm enjoying every single moment.
This week's filled with activities.it's almost packed.Blading and waffles tom,lunch with crystal and dinner with my clique on wed,cycling and 'ooh'(the bitchy thing tt mel taught me!!haha)..yes..we're gonna be tai tais on thursday!!and friday's prayer meeting!can't wait to pray with the rest of the ypmers!tt unity.

and i'm proud to say..i'm so not affected by wat happened already!i've moved on.Thank u God.although i shld be loving pple,forgiving em..well..forgive..definitely..but to restore the friendship?no thks!it didn't happen only now.this friendship has caused me so much sadness eons back.i dun wanna get hurt again.NO WAY!No thanks!but i'll let ya know..u're forgiven!if tt's wat u'll be happier to hear.i've frens who cares..frens who're honest..and frens..i luff with!!can't wait for all the upcoming activities!!and once again..

i wanna say a BIG Thank You..to those who showed concern to me today.i'm overwhelmed.i'm touched.thanks!!

Jojojoanna is just simply gorgeous 1:40 AM

Monday, July 11, 2005

Monday - A Brand New Start

Yup!it's monday..and i'm gonna leave all the unhappiness behind me.gave everything to God last night,cried it out...and i know,i'm a stronger Joanna today,a gal who trusts the Lord and loves Him more today.For those of u who managed to read my black posts and came to show ur concern,i wanna say a BIG THANK YOU!!i really appreciate tt there're pple who're there to ask bout me.Always pple asking if i'm alright.thanks!i know i'm not alone.

well....Yesterday was fun.Dance prac was GOOD!i guess we had fun in the midst of seriousness and we know our commitments.can't wait for Celebration Sunday!!!!ooh..and SF'06.hahaha..already discussed my plans with some pple le.It's cool!!i'm looking forward to it haha..when SF'05 isn't even over yet.yay!!!!i gotta start sourcing for songs too.and the pple i discussed with are all for it.yay!!Goes to show we learn with every fall we take. God, thanks for picking me up everytime i fall!

after dance,went to sean's place.quite fun la.although when i went the guys were watching movie,Jas and I went to sean's room and used his com.haha...i think we all had fun just chilling out there.after the movie,while waiting for more pple to come,wat was nxt on the itenary??LINDY HOP>most of my clique's ALL TIME FAVOURITE.haha...not bad not bad.all improving and one by one learning.wahahah....but i'm stubborn.shan't learn.They really can dance well man.Even SHU!!WHO just learnt and we purposely make her practice by dancing with every guy there.hahahaha...we had heaps of fun.yeah!!dinner was good too.alright..

Programmes for this week: Cycling
Shopping
Mani and Pedicure
Movie - Fantastic 4 and Charlie and the Chocolate Factory!!
Dance
SonicFest'05 Prayer Mtg
Lunch with Crystal

Great.Everythin seems great.Fun!!tt's what i'm gonna have!!for now,i've to prepare to meet the CSmanagement.have a great week!!

Jojojoanna is just simply gorgeous 10:30 AM

Saturday, July 09, 2005

CelEbration RouNd 1!!

3 rounds of celebration, 1 down, 2 more to go.

Reason for celebration: 1kg lost!!yiPPie!!exercise and diet works together!!! 2more kg to go!! Joanna Jia you jia you!!!

Jojojoanna is just simply gorgeous 1:24 PM

Friday, July 08, 2005

TGIF!!!

it's friday already!!am i or am i not excited??hmmm...part of me is dreading tonight...cos aunty lucy,agnes,jas and i are gonna meet to come up with the steps for the 3 hillsongs songs we're to dance for CS.haha...so why shld i dread???oh mama...cos i haven had very nice steps.. "shi bai shi bai"...so abit pressured la..and i dun have any modern dance or jazzs background one lor...neither am i good with dance...ah well....i'll just show em whatever steps i have.heh...and let em do the rest.
i realised something,i'm better with formation,positions and all..rather den coming up with steps.right right??agree agree??gee...i dunno.i'll find out soon.

okie..is this song nice??heh..faith calija sand this song on the day ben got married...i heard it the night before and i fell in love with it.altho my bro says tt the lyrics is quite typical of a filipino..haha...cos if u hear properly,it's like "Falling out falling in"..we normally say "falling in falling out"..er..right??okie...anyway..i promise tt from today onwards,i'm gonna stop talking bout Philippines.okie?give me a month..life wld be back to normal.heh...i hope. *crossing fingers*

Past few days..have been feeling quite S****y...been attacked...yes!spiritual attacks,but God...i'm not gonna let go.i'm trying to pray and pray and pray.watever happens,praying and going back to Godjust takes away everything - it teaches u not to lose focus. yup.i guess i felt like this cos of sunday...but i guess i'm not the only one in such a situation.mine's considered okie.so everything's passed.it's gonna be a brand new week and i'm so looking forward to it.

yeah..monday gonna meet the CS management..so scary..once everything is approved,i'm gonna be a full time sales promoter...sigh...but first few weekends will be taken.NVM.which means..more money to shop!!yippie!!!and more money to contribute to my treadmill fund!(Yes!joanna's seriously considering buying a treadmill!!)i'm had so much fun with my step up machine tt i'm gonna go get a treadmill.everytime i feel guilty or feel fat,i'll go on the machine.i think it's helping alot.i dunno.this is only day 3.but i'm glad to be exercise at anytime o fthe day.yay!!gone are days i feel guilty.alright..whoever's reading this...hmm..shld be from church,i'll see ya all soon!! *huGz*

Jojojoanna is just simply gorgeous 11:50 AM

it's new!!!

yay!!!it took me like a few hours before i found something...well..can like la..and it's not pink!!woohoo!!okie...i'm in this 'love love' kinda mood.haha..been thinking alot abt him...even dreaming bout him...

gee...i feel like...some small lil gal..so undecisive..him or him???how can i be like this??why issit always the case?like..u're afraid to choose the guy courting u for fear tt when u say yes,the guy u like starts to court u.

oh mama!!i wish i nv had to go thru such stuff man.haha..but it's cool...given choices.heh....these few nights..i've been falling asleep like early in the morning..the moment i lie on my bed,i start to think of the filipinos..i dunno why i actually miss em so much...but i really can't stop thinking of em.i hope this gets over soon man!!argh!!!

right...it's like super late now..i hope my song can play!!!shall blog more when i['m in the office!!

Step machine's cool!!been keeping me fit!!hehe...shall tell ya all more tom!!Nitez!!!

Jojojoanna is just simply gorgeous 1:29 AM

Thursday, July 07, 2005

well..another week is gonna pass by soon.yippie!!can't wait to see my frens on sat and sun...hmm...hopefully i can make it in time for the movies with them!! Fantastic 4!!woohoo!!!seems like a rather interesting show...now...did the incredibles copy F4 or did F4 copy the incredibles??if u didn't notice..they've similar characters.heh..

ooh..on tuesday..i went cycling with j and mel.so fun!!!so fun!!den i bought myself a step up machine.woohoo!!quite cheap leh..only 128..and God provided me with extra cash!!so thank God.can survive another month!!nxt week...SHopping!!!!!yiPpie!!!wat wld i do w/o shopping man!!heh..gonna go marina square and suntec with grace and melt.yeah!!marina square's so hip and cool now!!(gee..free advertising)

last sunday...was rather pissed off with some stuff....disappointed with pple...didn't wanan go for the SF prayer alone and was actually dreading it.BUT..God's good!he sent me 2 ANGELS - Jia En and Pearlyn. we had such great fun, we got to know pple, i managed to share some stuff and prob to em and they prayed for me and the dance grp. and after tt,all 3 of us went to the airport to see Matt off wiith the others who were already there.You know wat's so encouraging? the fact tt the 2 of them aren't even dance memebers,nor participating in the festival, were asked to go last min and they didn't even come up with some crap excuse. Now, tt's wat i call the heart of worship. and i know tt if jas wasn't in Aust, she wld have come along with me - she's someone i know i can count on,someone i can trust!heaps! love ya jas!!!can't wait to share more stuff with ya!!

and wat's the most disappointing thing??to have dance members who were informed of the prayer mtg like a week ago...last min giving me all sorts of 'oh i can't make it cos i'm going here and there..and oh i gotta do this do tt..."..and they didn't even bother to reply an SMS.like hello!issit tt difficult to just say i cannot go...now i understand what crystal and kellyn go thru.i think they're worse den me.i'll be more helpful!!i promise!!

and once again..Jia En, Pearlyn, thank you for accompanying me!!i really appreciate ur company, it also allwoed me to get to know u 2 better.haha..Pearlyn,more jellybeans??heh...and dun be afraid to pray ok??God sees the heart.it's not how well u pray but how sincere u are about it.and the more we pray, the better we get!! cheers!!!

to mel,grace, jas and gil, WELCOME BACK!!!!!*hUgz*

Jojojoanna is just simply gorgeous 1:20 PM

Monday, July 04, 2005

a call for mission??

i went for the mission trip with one expectation...or rather..a question..or..i dunno wat u call it. but when i was preparing for the mission trip i told myself..okie..this trip will determine if i have a call for mission..or if i was willing to give up such a comfy lifestyle to settle down somewhere not as comfortable..

but i came back..with the question half answered.God has given me some directions...am i still hesistant?or am i just waiting for more confirmation?i dunno man.1yr sounds like a good gauge for the many decisions i've to make..and in these 1yr,i'm gonna just trust in the Lord.

it was mission sunday...and i didn't know it.but i was like..okie..let's see wat the Lord has for me.hmm..barnabas and paul..i seem to have both.i feel,i'm more of a barnabas den a pauL?or maybe..many have said to me tt i'm good at encouraging?okie....i've nv been so enthu bout missions before...i've nv missed philippines so much till i cried a couple of times...and this is the first time,i'm excited abt mission convention!Just wanna hear wat the Lord has for me.it's gonna add to my deciding factor.

many who go for missions wld say...if it's just staying there a few days,it's adaptable..but for life??woah!no way..lifestyles are to different.if u ask me?i actually like it.cos it's simple,relaxing,not at all hectic.and the pple there aren't materialistic!the focus is simply on God..everything is just trusting God,living by faith.woah!like the attitude esp of those in the limelight.nv taking credits for any compliments they receive.unlike some pple here...whom i can feel a BIG change..like performing for a wrong reason.it's disgusting!argh!!

i miss philippines!!i miss philippines!!!1yr...i'll go back..and marry a filipino!!woohoo!!wahahah....

Jojojoanna is just simply gorgeous 1:03 PM

Friday, July 01, 2005

almost a week..

it's been almost a week since i came back from philippines.but so much of wat happened there still lingers...i really really miss em.it's gonna prob take me a month before i get back to the Singapore lifestyle..

oh..did i tell u??i actually did my washing there...and i washed my clothes MANUALLY!!!!woohoo!!!not washing machine hor!!!and it's so fun...tt is something i learnt and cherished tt i still do it here.i'll wash my clothes like almost everyday..so it does not pile up and when i wash,i'll remember the fun times washing,with all of em laughing at us-city kids..haha...cultural shock.but i guess by still handwashing my clothes here,i'll be reminded of wat i learnt in the mission trip..as well as remember em..their friendliness,the friendships...the place...the lifestlye..everything!!!

ever since the trip,i think God has been working in my life.it's very different from the mission trips tt i've been.that zeal is still there.i've been very disciplined and i've learnt to thank God in every circumstance.good and bad.i've learnt not to complain too.in other words,i'm no longer a spoilt brat who demands things to go my way.yup.learning to be humble and be thankful in every circumstance.learning to worship him and trust in His will in every aspect of my life - dance,prayer,everything la!!

this week...had loads of attacks.but i'm proud to be able to say i've been victorious!been thanking God everytime something discouraging attacks my mind.yay!!!all glory to God!!and i've been so stressed up with the choreographing tt every night before i sleep,the dances are in my mind..when i wake up,the dances are haunting me.haven't been able to sleep well.but i've been praying tt let the dances be God's and not mine..and i've been praying hard for inspirations.our God is a good God!!he's been showerin me with loads of inspirations tt i know it's not my will but his.so even in dance,i can proudly say tt God is my choreographer!!not me..but Him!!and the steps just keep coming.thank u Lord.Let ur will be done.not mine!!

alright.shan't type anymore.1 week since i left Cabugao..1 week since i last heard from him...gee....joanna joanna.get a Grip!! Prov 3:5.yes!trust god.am trusting.things are going smoothly.wanna ask me bout my love life??i shan't tell u everything!!tsk tsk..hehe..

Jojojoanna is just simply gorgeous 11:40 PM

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