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NEW BLOG!!

2006-05-23T16:59:00.000Z

I've changed to a new blog!!!!! new blog address....new....everything!!!!see ya at my new blog!!! ;)

Uncertainties...

2006-05-19T18:33:00.000Z

somethings still remains the same...i guess..no matter how hard i try...things will nv be the same again..but it's okie.i know i've done my best..did all tt i cld do...i'll move on.Thank u Lord,for those wonderful memories.I've grown up. :)

i haven been updating abt my biz..let's just say..it's been having mood swings...and i'm getting frustrated.i pray...i wun leave God...i pray..i wun grumble...i pray...i wun be disappointed in God...and i pray...tt it'll end soon.

yup..i'm thinking of getting a job...so at least i have some income to spend...but yet..i do not wanna make a hasty decision..so..i'm praying and seeking God for the right decisions.studying is definitely out of the Question.It sucks being a POOR student.i'm NV gonna go thru tt again.haha...so...shld i find a job..i'm thinking of becoming a real estate agent..wat say u?haha..
or...i'll try and find something in relation to wat i've studied.

oh well...God's in total control.everything works out good for those who Love him.I pray..i'll press on!

KL MISSION TRIP!!

2006-05-18T15:47:00.000Z

yes!i'm going KL sertapak for a mission trip nxt friday till sunday...wow...busy week nxt week!i'm looking forward to everything!!haha

decor team...are u ready to help me??

met up with the mission trip members...well...there's only 4 of us now.i pray tt the Lord will bring in another female..if not,i dunno if i'll be allowed to go.It's been so happening for everyone involved.and God seems to be teaching us Faith.we're all going thru situations which challenges our Faith.It's amazing..but i believe tt we'll all pull thru and i really thank God for his Faithfulness!

Pls pray for patience for me ok??there's a certain team member tt brags and talks too much.haha..it gets on my nerve.so i pray tt it'll not break the unity and tt i can just accept this person for who he/she is.I pray tt we'll be able to bless the pple.wish u guys cld join us..well...there's always another time yeah? I'm looking forward to tt...and the nxt event after the Mission trip!EXXCITING!!

have u said ur prayer?

2006-05-13T15:32:00.000Z

Dear Lord,
Thank you for my weekends.
Although weekends or weekdays it makes no difference,
i still thank you for it nevertheless.
Sales hasn't been good this whole week and it is getting very frustrating
At times,i just feel like giving up o Lord.
I pray tt u continue to STRENGTHEN me,
Help me to Press On
Continue to TRUST in You,
And to remain cheerful despite the circumstances.

Lord,i thank you for my wonderful frens also..
I thank you for giving frens who're so forgiving,understanding and caring.
Bless the pple who love me
Who've been so patient with me
Who've been so encouraging
Who've been visiting my shop
Who've been praying for me
Who've been treating me
Who've been my fren
I just pray tt u bless em 2times as much as you bless me.
Thk u for all these frens,words just can't express how much i love em all.
So lord,i pray tt u watch over em too!

I thk you for all tt u've done for me,
Help me not to take your blessings for granted.
Protect me from the evil ones when i'm in my shop
and continue to Pull me up.

In Jesus Name,
AMEN!!

Have u said a prayer to God today???i just can't tell u how much better i feel now.after a depressing week.

and i'm so glad tt my unresolved conflicts with 3 of my dearest frens...has more or less...been resolved!!Thank you God for Love...Ur love tt has been the foundation of tt friendship!well...my frens...i just wanted u to know,tt no matter how far,how distant we all are...u're deeply remembered,always in my thoughts and prayers and i love u all LOADS!!!

Sick..

2006-05-10T07:12:00.000Z

one week ago..my com fell sick and die...

4days ago,i fell sick!!argh!!and i'm still sick..the most irritating part is i'm like abit sick...yet not too sick not to get out of bed...so wat happened?i went to work the past 3 days,and slept there when there weren't customers....with my neighbours looking after my stall.den today,i decided it was enuff days fqalling sick..so i took the day off and got my neighbour to open the shop for me.thank God for wonderful neighbours.gave me some chance to take a good rest.cos the 'kong qi' there also not very good.wat with pple constantly smoking...plus i've a super sensitive nose...
it's like mandia being able to smell durian from a far distance,i can smell cigarette from far.it's irritating...so here i am,home,resting.i sure do hope this flu gets lost.i wanna enjoy my late nights again!!haha..the many dvds waiting for me...they're calling out to me..can u hear??haha..

It's almost over!!!

2006-05-04T17:10:00.000Z

it's been 2 testing weeks.while many went thru uni exams,mid yr exams...i had my own set of exams to pass too.God's exams!

cld i pass the test of faith?did i pass the test of peseverance?did i pass the test of patience??well...if i were to grade myself...i'll give myself a JUST PASSED!haha...yeah..i dun think i excelled and i failed to pass with flying colours..but our Father is a GRACIOUS daddy who'll nv leave us nor forsake us.

It has been a tryin 2 weeks...my gd frens wld have noticed the change in my attitude...when they see me or talk to me..i cld nv smile or be the usualy bubbly self tt i usually am.

so wat exactly happened?well...i had only 2 weeks to earn enuff sales before i had to pay for my rent on 1st may(supposed date)...the 1st week..went okie....but the last week was terrible..i cld barely cover watever i need and i was always 'psychoing' myself to trust God,always bluffing myself tt God will provide,trust him..pray...but in my heart,i had doubts and these doubts,i told God too.it was pissing,frustrating and irritating when God just didn't seem to care,when he just didn't seem to be listening to my cries and worries.i was very discouraged to the point where i just wanted to give up.besides this,i had so much other problems 'attcking' me..friendships,church commitments,self condemnation,gossips and just cldn't seem to turn to anyone to confide in...many a times,i just wanted to vent it on pple,i needed to vent my frustration somewhere..but i cldn't...i had to control most of it..but i finally broke down on a certain friday and just kept crying..these were liquid prayers. God sent my buddy to suddenly sms me and i just found it so comforting to be able to really share with someone how i felt exactly.made me so much better.but tt wasn't the point.i still had my rent to settle.

on sunday...i was even more depressed because it was the last day of the month.how much did i have in my bank account?400++.hahahaha...and how much is my rent??1000+++..wohohohoh...HOW????HOW???how???well...it was tt sunday tt i suddenly just asked doreen if she was free to go supper with me tt night after my work.knowing i had problems,she gladly said she was and brought me to different hk cafes to eat.besides enjoying good food,i just told her wat was going on and how frustraing everything seems to be.she den shared some stuff abt her past experiences and how God pulled her thru and how she survived and stuff.and tt fellowship was indeed fruitful because

the very nxt day,i committed everything to God.i realised tt i was striving and in my heart,i hadn't committed my shop totally to Him.when i was spending time with God,in his presence,in my vision.i cld see my lil hand presenting my shop(in the form of wat we always do for projects,3d landscapes..u get wat i mean yeah?)to him.yup...it's as if i was handing in my project.(see!even tho i'm not studying,i've projects and assignments to hand up to) .

Tt very day....my sales was pretty good.it was a figure i hadn't seen in months.the whole week,i had quite good sales even tho it was quiet and stuff.Knowing wat makes it a better testimony??I cld really testify God's work because tt weekend,i had horrible sales,but everyone ard me had better sales.but on those days when my sales was good,everyone had very BAD sales...even on a public hol...yup..everyone 'suffered' except me..and they cld see it.Hence,i took this opportunity to testify of God's goodness.didn't think twice bout sharing this with anyone.

SO...did i managed to pay rent?well...Landlord came to collect rental today.haha....it's miraculous how i managed to raise the money.from the sales i had these 4days,it wldn't even be enuff to cover rent.i actually signed up for this free lance part time thingy...where money's good...yupyup..but it's unstable.i dunno when i can get it...but he gave me 2 assignments in just 2 days!!!so..when landlord came,i actually owed him 200..but he said it was impossible to owe him 200..so i tot..okie..owe him 100 1st cos the most i cld do was to take the float and payy off 1st.but when i counted my float,i only had 70dollars.darn!!i really dun have 30dollars with me.so i prayed very very hard.it was coming to 8pm...at 5pm,i still hadn't closed any sales....i was beginning to doubt,worry and strive.started praying and told myself not to strive.haha...after awhile..at bout 6++ or 7,God didn't just give me 30 exactly,i had 43!!!woohoo!!!so...i managed to pay and owe my landlord 100...so i'm still short of 100 right??i prayed tt i can try and close sales today to cover tt 100 so i can use tom's sales to cover staff's salary...it seemed impossible as it was coming to 9.30..den suddenly,3 office ladies walked into my shop,they saw the berms,i served em cheerfully and they went ahead to try the pants.they tried,and within minutes,2 of em asked me to wrap 2 berms for em without even bargaining for a discount!!amazing eh??but i'm not one who's so into money tt even w/o bargaining,i'll still give em the discount.so i had another 70 coming into my pocket!!praise God!!at the end of the day,i actually had like 87dollars in my pocket!!i'm now short of 13dollars before i can clear my rent and another 150++ for my staff!God works in amazing ways eh??

i actually cut short alot for this testimony.if u want,ask me more.haha..i'll be more den happy and excited to tell u everything!!it's been a tough week!!i pray tt when u face difficulties,DUN LET GO!!

Thank You!!

2006-05-01T17:01:00.000Z

Thank u mel..for dopping by ytd with plums...it was nice....and ur presence made the evening pass faster. took so much off my mind too.thks for the fellowship!even today,at funnival.it was nice going ard with ya to get food!yum yum!heh...i had everything...for lunch and dinner..saved me alot of money!haha..

thank you doreen!!for makin the night after work more enjoyable.dessert tasted so much better with the fellowship tt came with it.haha...and it was fun travelling in the middle of the night to eat hong kong stuff not just to 1 place.haha...yes!we'll go 'secret garden' one day to chill!looking forward to tt!thk u!!for sharing so much with me,and for listening to so much of my stuff and all.it made me see things in a different perspective and helped me to continue to Trust God.thk u for sharing ur experience as well!!after we met up,work was a breeze today!!praise God!

yup....God sent 2 angels to bless and encourage me in a day.Tho i'm still feeling a lil down,still a lil emotional,still feeling numb to certain stuff,i start to see things in a different perspective.

oh..did i mention tt i dreamt of God a few nights back??woah!!it was an amazing dream!!his presence cld be so greatly felt even in my sleep.ask me if u wanna know the dream k?cos it's difficult to type the whole experience in here.But wat i wanna say is...God shows love to us in many many many many many many different ways.many of u,by now i'm sure have known how God has blessed me in different ways over the months ever since i started my biz...this time,he showed me his love thru my dream!!one part just really really hit on me. and tt is..the closer we draw to God,the more we treat him like our Father,the more he remembers us.it's like relationships be it with family,friends or ur other half or ur colleagues or anyone.the more u hang out and spend time with em,the closer the bond is with em too.So,tt was how it felt in my dream!..wah!!the thought of it..just makes me feel like a lil princess all over again!haha

well..yup..tt's all tt i'll type.i wun say i'm good and everything has passed..i'm still recovering,still trying to press on,still persevering,still trying to forgive and forget...but i'm getting better.

Many thanks to those who've been reading my blog and encouraging me,consoling me and sending ur regards. Much appreciated and i know i'm not alone.Thank you for the effort in tagging,in asking bout me in msn and everything u guys cld do!!thk u!!!i love all of u loads!!and can't wait to see all of u again soon! Hugz!!!

2006-04-25T16:13:00.000Z

haha...after posting tt blog abt how life is fragile...and all tt reflections....God opened alot alot alot of doors for me!!i was spreading the gospel to 2 pple via msn....and 1 almost got saved!!the other??well..she's a catholic...not sure if she'll convert...but praise God..for open doors!i'm excited for more to come!!!..

If u wanna know how my shop's been doing...well...still not good...but so much bonding with my neighbours!!i'm having so much fun...luffing and talking and pigging and dieting with em!!haha..it's hilarious...
oh..and they make a fool of themselves all the time...it's been fun....so i thank God for sending funny and helpful neighbours...not competitive at all..super helpful!!

Thank God...he's teaching me perseverance...he's teaching me integrity....he's teaching me to give thanks in all situations whether good or bad...even the 'break up' with frens....it doesn't mean anything to me now...altho whenever i pass by familiar places....the memories do flood back..and i'll just smile.it's nice while it lasted.haha..now i know how pple feel when they go thru a break up with their other halves.tt definitely wun happen to me!!heh...

i realised..it's been so long since i last thank God for something eh??i'm sorry guys..u had to read such nasty posts...i'm human afterall...and i think it's stupid if i blog abt where i went....wat i did for the day...like who cares eh??go out with frens...dun need to tell the whole world..(no offense if tt's the way u blog...but tt's personally how i feel for my OWN blog..)

Mel,thanks for taking the initiative to call me.truly treasure this friendship...u're a model and walking example of wat a BEST FREN is...nv had 1....till i met u.thank u for ur love...and ur honesty...for being my confidante...i'm glad tt no matter how busy we are,u took the initiative to call me...it's been so long since someone last called me to ask how i've been.thanks dear!love ya lots!!and once again...i can't wait for ABC to come!!fun ness!!hmm...maybe we shld look forward to may 29....and the wacky stuff tt we're gonna do and wear 1st eh??heh... *wink* *wink*

Uncertainties...

2006-04-23T17:14:00.000Z

Have u ever wondered....if u were to find out u've contracted a terminal disease when u wake up...wat wld u do??how will u feel?

wat if u were to die anytime now??wat will ur regrets be??

was reading the papers just now(i haven really been reading for quite some time)....and i happened to flip to the obituary section..and there i saw a note tt a mum wrote for her daughter who passed away 4yrs ago...if she was still alive,she wld have been 24...she died at the age of 20.and den i read abt the joan chan story.so sad...

wat if i were to die today??wld i leave this place happy?wld my parents be able to take it??wat wld be the one thing tt will keep em worried?

i know for sure tt if i were to die now,i wld have left behind a huge debt for my parents to clear.haha..and i definitely dun want em to be clearing up my mess.
wat's the other regret if i were to die?? tt is...i've not brought many pple to christ.
brought some cousins to Christ...but only 2 are still attending church regularly...and the only accomplishing person i really brought to Christ...was when i was 10,11yrs ago..one of my best frens,Felicia,went to church with me.a few yrs down the road...her whole family's saved...and a few yrs more..i hear of all them actively serving the Lord.1 saved,all saved.Praise God.but when was the last time i truly brought someone to Christ??wat bout u?i pray tt with my shop,i'll be bold and bring pple to know more abt Christ.i'm starting to plant seeds...whereby i dun tell em exactly bout Jesus...but i start by praying and telling lil stuff like "oh..i pray.." and sharing the many testimonies where God has blessed me..and even abt Helu and his demon possessed testimonies.i start lil..and when i get to know em better...i pray tt i'll be bold and share the good news with em.God's been opening doors.Praise God.

But wat if i were to die tom??it'll be too late eh??wat bout u?have u been evangelizing??Well...i thought this is a good reflecting qns..wat if u were to die tom...have u done enuff??any regrets?

2006-04-21T17:13:00.000Z

i'm sorry if these past few posts dun sound nice...

not having a good time now...seems like my stress level is increasing...and i'm just so tired to carry on..with a lot of stuff..pressing on..hanging there...no..it's not just abt my shop...

i dun understand why i get so affected when pple dun wanna go.i get so discouraged when pple stop going...i get pissed at em for going for the wrong reason..i hate it when pple go only when they have nothing to do. it may not be a priority...but we go..beacause we wanna see something happen.we go..because we have a heart tt hungry to make an impact...but it's none of my business...so why shld i even get affected?

yes..this is something tt has been affecting me...shan't name where the place is..or wat going stuff...because i do not want to directly say the pple involved.so..i wld say..this post is me just venting it all out.

the nxt prob actually caused me to cry.was so upset over this matter...someone didn't go...to go out with other pple...i've been so honest with these pple telling em how i felt and how i missed em...but i was disappointed when i heard they went out together and they didn't even bother asking me...assumptions...assuming tt i was at work...assuming i had other commitments...but if u truly treated me like someone u truly missed and welcomed back...u wld...have bothered to just ask..even if it's a 'i'm sorry..i can't make it'....why did i still hold on to the hope tt we can bring back to good ol times...it seems...tt i'm the only who cares...because i'm the one who's out and it doesn't matter... it felt like a break up...even tho no guys are involved..haha..i've nv treasured my female frens so much before...but it sure hurts when u start to cherish pple and yet...u get 'rejected'...after trying to hard to trust pple again...the wall crumbled..but is rebuilt within months...ouch!
but well...since the break up..is wat they want...i'll always cherish the good times...smile at the times we luffed...the times we quarrelled...the times when we hung out...the surprises tt is always so well planned for u all...and i'll move on...move on with my life...focus on my biz...and cherish those who cherish me now..i'll keep the good memories..and throw away the bad...

den..i was greatly upsetted me was someone i treated so dear lying to me.for goodness sake..so old...did u still have to lie?u're not accountable to me..it's okie to be honest...i was so upset...so disappointed...yup..not gonna hold on to this...

i remember when we were in primary schs,as lil gals we'll write a poem tt goes "Fridnship is like a china bowl, Once broken,it cannot be made whole. Even if it is put back together, the lines are still in view"..

how true...i just tot of tt as i was crying...it just hurts so much knowing tt i'm still left out..and left behind.yup..told myself not to get affected because i know i have frens out there who asks me out,and who'll say stuff like "u're not going??den i'll be alone again!!" or.."why aren't u gonna be there???i'm gonna miss u!!"....it's nice to know tt pple miss u and cherish ur presence...and even nicer to know tt the lil actions and encouragements have made an impact in their lives...

i'm glad tt there are pple who've been honest with me,and who dares to speak their mind.i truly cherish such frens and i respect em for being honest and encouraging pple when they've done something influential.they've made me realise wat a fren i can be and i'm not 'condemned'. thank u for loving me! I look forward to the fun we're gonna have in ABC...and my beloved frens....keep may 28 or 29 free ya??we'll discuss this further!!!

estella...eeling and melissa...i may need u guys to help me with the organising!!hahah...whee!!

2006-04-19T17:25:00.000Z

have u guys been refreshing my page..but alas...no new post??heh...i'm sorry!

ever since i came back from china...i've had so much stuff to do.came up with a new concept well...structure for my shop so tt i can keep track of the stuff tt my staff sells.it's been tiring but satisfying.i've been slping at 3am almost everyday and getting up at 9.so my eye rings are getting darker.but praise God!i've not been feeling tired...and i managed to just fall asleep the moment i lie on my bed.

yesterday(tuesday),i was feeling rather discouraged after talking to my neighbour bout the area.it got me thinking alot,and made me really worried bout alot of things.i felt helpless...i dunno where and how i'm gonna go abt doing stuff....even while doing my work,this problem was etched in my mind.i knew right there and then,tt i needed to go to God in prayer..but i was really too tired last night to say the usual long prayers i usually do...so i just lied on my bed,resting...in His presence...and i cld feel him 'sayanging' me the way our parents do while we were young. ie Father sitting down,while daughter puts her head on his thighs and he'll stroke the daughter's hair.tt's how i felt.i felt like a young gal all over again.and it felt so good.Knowing tt God loves me and i'm his daughter.and i just layed there on my bed with this in mind..until i fell asleep for awhile..haha...den got up,read the bible,said a lil short prayer and went to sleep.

I did it in the morning again...resting in His presence.everytime i think of a Father up there who's always there for me,i feel really loved. really...really loved..it's as if i dun care if the world cares for me..and it didn't matter if my frens left me..it didn't matter if pple were gossipping or talking bad bout me. to know tt the Father loves me just makes me feel like a true blue PRINCeSS...maybe tt's wat causes me to look and act childish many a time...cos..well..why be serious all the time eh?haha....

in ur times of discouragement,try resting in God's presence yeah?no words needed.he understands....especially when all u need is a Hug.He's the only one who can give u tt kinda hug.dun look for it in a guy or a gal...yupyup...

oh..and know wat??i've been watching korean dramas!!ooh...they're addictive!!haha...but so nice!!BUT!!!i dun watch em without trying to learn something from it.haha..there's always something tt i'll turn it around until i learn something biblical from it.thaks doreen!cos of the many jogging dates where u tell us what u can learn just by looking at something and stuff.i learn from u to see things in a christian perspective.it's fun!cos then...can we give thanks in everything...every circumstance.even the conflict with my bestest fren.i'm glad...she's not the only one who exists.and if she choose to treat me the way she treats me...i know...i'm loved by many many others!heh...

how have u guys been?tell me k?i wanna know!!

2006-04-19T17:17:00.000Z

u were like the fren i treasured most...but did u give me tt kinda friendship in return?nope...so who's to blame?i do not vent anger in my blog..but i know..this is the only way to get it across to u..since we nv talk bout this at all.it's indirect..but i'm sure u get it.u were like my confidante...the one i treasured..but u treated the other 2 so much more different...did u ever treasure me as one of ur closest?doubt so eh?so...i dare say..i nv vent my anger or say anything in a fit of the moment.i nv do tt.the pple who read my blog regularly can vouch eh?i think before i write...and when i do vent it out..i solve it biblically.i write my heartfelt feelings here.i'm not naming u.but i'm sure u'll get it.if u dun...well..wat can i say?

wld still love to treasure this special friendship...but since u were the 1 who didn't in the 1st place,why den did i keep trying?u're not the only one who got hurt...so...think whether u treated me like a friend 1st.

haha..and no...i'm not talking bout some guy...such bgr nv bothers me...this is abt a fren i truly cherished..one i really trusted...but treated me..like..a fren....and well..things haven't been going well..i do wish it'll be like good ol times again..but i doubt it'll happen.she's changed so much..ever since she started working.what's wrong with her??...so materialistic now...so worldly...so proud..so rude now..so influenced by a specific person i shan't named who've been a really bad influence to my good frens.sigh..sad.but wat to do?they're still young and growing up.

Just like most of u who reads my blog.hahaha....u're all still growing up too.but it's okie!!u'll grow out of it..just like i did!!i love u all readers!!

Missed me??

2006-04-15T14:57:00.000Z

i'm back from my 'shopping trip'!!it wasn't exactly a pleasant trip...many stuff tt happened just made me dread staying in that place one day more.it was torturous and i've decided tt the nxt time i go back,i'll rather spend a bit more money and stay in a hotel...

well..nevertheless,being the youngest,i was treated like a SMALL kid...i hated it!because...altho it's nice to have so many pple looking out for u, it just makes u SOO pampered, there isn't any space for growing up. I really thank God for my parents who brought me up in a way i cld think for myself.was so glad agnes ,chin kok and richard arrived like on thursday...so it made my nxt few days much better.at least i had company of frens i can speak English with and be who i am...

Now i realise how my frens really mean alot to me....no matter how i talk or act..i know tt they're not judging me..and i can truly be the person i am.haha..

well..still..i thank God...because..it was supposed to be raining when i went there...but the days when i had to go buy my stuff...theweather was good.not hot..not rainy...perfect weather...after everything was bought..the nxt day it was a lil rainy..and my last few days,it was super cold.it's as if the winter season was back.amazing! God provided the BEST weather for the different days!i'm tired..still got so many load to unpack..this month,my total baggage is....70kg!!wow!!pray hard hard ok???tt this batch will bring in the sales i need to profit!yay!!

and to all who's tag,thank u for tagging!!cos at least i know u're reading my posts and i know..u've read it!love ya all!

2006-04-07T15:17:00.000Z

i had fun today!!!supper's always good when there's games and fellowship!haha...yup..

besides havin fun during supper, i really thank God tt he has sustained me thus far. Last night,i was busy preparing wat i was gonna share today till like 4am.had to wake up today at 8am to jog...so i was deciding whether to sleep or stay up and watch vcds instead.well...i slept..and was SUPER uber tired.guess who i saw??Mandia!!!!know why i'm so happy??Cos i just blogged ytd tt i missed u..and there i see..u at east coast!hehe...so..i'm very glad!it's so God Sent!

Praise God..thank u Ee foo and Shu, for letting me know tt the sharing was good. This yr,thru the biz and reading more christian books,i've learnt to rely on the Lord's strength rather den mine.I've learnt to take up roles in church not for self glorification but God glorified!altho i'm not as confident as i was before in the past, God is still using me and it's thru His strength tt i cld come up with wat i wanted to share today.Praise God!I'm glad i managed to say everything out altho i was really nervous.haha...

yay!yup!prayer mtg was good!Praise God!!

2006-04-06T17:30:00.000Z

i've a feeling....it's disappointment BIG time this yr....(not telling u wat)...ah well..used to it anyway....

do u ever feel ..sometimes..the pple u treat as really good frens...dun treat u tt way?it kinda hurts eh?i've learnt it the hard way..many many many times...but God gave me a very FORGIVING heart..ahha..and altho i seem to have forgiven...it still hurts inside...

and the pple u nv really treated as good frens...treat u more den tt...and i've learnt to cherish em...one example...heh...ESTEE TANG!i remember how we were always well..the 2 with firm decisions..and sadly,our decisions were too firm..tt they always collided...and both of us...haha..were always on 'not so good' terms.but look at us now??woohoo!!u know..it's been fun telling u so so so so so so so much!!i really enjoy the times we spent with each other alone...there's just so much tt i cld talk to u bout and time just seems to fly without us realising it eh?i miss the KALA chicken chop!!hahaha...visit me soon soon ok??i'm so CRAVING for it!but i dun wanna buy it without u!!hehe...yes!i really seriously enjoy telling u every single bits and pcs of information and my heartfelt feelings with u.u're trustable!i know!heh...let's meet up soon again!!whee!!i love ya loads loads loads!!!

Melissa hohohohohoho....one who's 3 yrs younger? u're God sent!really!thru ABC'05 and the thailand trip together,God has indeed brought us closer eh?u're nice..patient...and bestest bestest fren!!u're someone who can 'withstand' my temper and still love me for the way i am.thk u!cos without this love,i dunno wat i'll do without u!haha..thk u for always listening to me talk...and i'm glad to hear u tell me many many stuff too!!it's been so fun!!i can't wait for ABC'06!!i love ya loads loads loads!!
the diet dunno what biscuits are so nice!!!man...it's super tasty u know!!everytime i eat it..i remember the LOVE given with it!!oh no!!i dun want the biscuit to finish!!but i can't help it!!!it's too LOVELY!!hehe...i'm glad u like the handmade notebook..we'll have to decorate it together soon yeah??

my shi fu/tudi!!!where have u been to??i'm sorry....i nv made any effort to meet up with u and always blaming it on my work.i'll meet u up soon ok???i miss u!!i miss the times when both of us will just look at each other and start luffing..i miss those times when estee dun understand wat're we're luffing abt..haha...and i miss those times when u'll support me in doing stupid stuff, looking silly and luffing it off!!...know wat's may 29 for ?it's a night for history to repeat itself!so i dun care!!tt night...is for me!!ok??and i really miss taking pics together.those were the days eh??and we're gonna bring it back!!i miss u alot!!thk u for taking time down to visit me.i promise u,when sch's started.it's my turn,to take time off to have lunch with u ok?

Estee,i'll take the time to meet up with u too!i promise!!

PWG IGNITED and reUNITED!!haha

as for the many many many frens out there....well..there's just too much i can say for each and every single one of u.however,today's blog...actually shldn't be abt my frens...but i just can't help but write to em because i really missed em.not saying tt i dun miss u guys..but u see...well..it's a long story.but they're most loved!heh...and they're the few who really treat me as good frens...when i once..didn't treat em as good frens.i've learnt to cherish the ones who shld be cherished!thks lovelies!!i love ya all...

now...back to my 1st line...yeah...it always gets to me..i dunno why...and i always have to do something to help me not get disappointed.altho i know it's gonna be disappointing again..i'll prob just cry it off...get on with life...and start thanking God for things tt didn't make me disappointed.haha...yup....thk u God.i really dun wanan expect much.but i guess...the greatest gifts..cannot be bought with money.if only they knew...

New Song!!

2006-04-03T18:41:00.000Z

well..hope u guys like this song too. It's called Heart Cries Holy by Big Daddy Weave. Someone sent this song to me actually very long ago..at least a yr...but didn't really pay attn to it until today,while playing the older songs in my playlist. and i felt so encouraged by the lyrics of this song.

May ur heart feel this way too!bless ya all!!

Do not worry..

2006-03-30T16:09:00.000Z

God's been teaching me another kind of faith man!!many of u wld know my shop hasn't been doing tt well...and this week is already the last week of march...

well...he didn't provide me with enuff finances to cover costs...but He still loves me and he still provides.

I told myself tt i'm gonna go to work by faith this week and not worry bout how i'm gonna actually survive not buying food for dinner or any meals becos i just can't afford to spend more money this week.so i said..it's okie if i dun eat..man shall not live by bread alone...but i also remembered the verse in Matthew talking bout how we shldn't worry bout tom or wat we shall eat or wear..because the Lord provides even for the birds in the air...wat's more us?

so i said...it's okie..even if sales is bad this week.i'll still thank the Lord.know wat? on Monday,Melissa hohoho...
dropped by at super right timing...when i just arrived...and she actually bought me a stick of apples!(i was actually craving for fruits!haha)...and i asked myself "so is this all tt the Lord has provided?wow!he sent someone to give me apples" i was actually very happy and satisfied with the apple already....But....He didn't just provide me with the apples.(it was in His eyes,just appetiser/starters)..later in the evening,my mum's best fren,dropped by with sushi and a packet of cranberry juice!! He didn't just provide me with any food..but he provided me with the best!!sushi and cranberry juice were one of my favourite food!!for sometime,i've been craving for sushi le...just found it too ex to eat..and hence..i didn't.so...i was super touched!!God loved me enuff to provide me with not just any food..but the BEST!!tt wasn't all..

on tuesday...had lunch with aaron...was abt to leave the house when i saw ee foo at the lift lobby...since his buddy wasn't in town,i tot it'll be nice to invite him to join us too.my intentions was just to invite him to join us so tt he'll have company for lunch.little did i expect tt he'll treat us both.Thank u ee foo!!for ur generosity!!i felt bad tho..ask u for lunch..den u treat!but u dunno how much tt meant to me!thk u!yeah..so it was another fruitful meal...and den at night,i decided not to eat since i had no appetite anyway...lil did i expect tt sean wld drop by to visit...and he didn't visit empty handed!he bought 'tang yuan' for me!!whee!!another favourite food of mine!The Lord provided me with great food in 2 days!wat else did i have to worry bout???so..let's all not worry AT ALL ok??God provides!!he's our Jehovah Jireh!!

Food.....Memories!!

2006-03-25T14:36:00.000Z

these few weeks,i was actually affected by a few frens whom i've realised just ain't worth the friendship..yes..God says to love..and i'm trying to.But i do hope..that these frens..wld really grow up...

and because of em...i realised,how much i missed my 3 GOODIEST frens---->Mandia, Jas and Estee!!! and i'm so so glad...God showed himself to me during praise and worship today.I've been blessed. and i really thank God for the friendship...now u guys know how i feel too eh?felt good being able to share with u guys after P&W!*muaks* to this friendship!more outings to come eh??heh...and photo taking!!whee!mandia..loads to tell u den!!hehe..thank you my dearest!!for being there for me..ALL the TIME!

Melissa hohohoho...u too!for taking the effort to drop by the shop,and always sharing the secrets with me.i'm glad i can confide in u too!!it's nice...having frens whom i can trust..and ain't BIMBOTIC!!love ya all!!

alright...den i suddenly thought of food...and the various foods associated with different frens who've left me very deep impressions of the food,hence,make me crave for em!haha...here goes..

MEL FOO --> Chicken balls and beard papa and gardenia bread!!haha..(i miss ur room!!and days spent eating together..no more dieting!!)
MANDIA --> CooKies from bugis cafe!!! (we're supposed to go on diet...remember??oops!) Wat else have we not been pigging out on??ooh..miss luffing!!haha
ESTEE TANG --> More Kala chicken chop???hehe..so nICE RIGHT????
JASMINE LEONG --> Peanut Ice kachang...Bakerzin's WARM CHOCOLATE CAKE!!ah!!...it's melting!!quick!let's go eat it soon!!haha
MELISSA HOHOHO ---> Dim Sum??ooh..Har Kow's calling out to me!!haha
MELVYN HO ----> I want TOM YAM!!yum yum yum!!
SEAN CHAN ---> Pacific Coffee Club!!haha..cos u were luffing when i was being..crude while waiting for nice comfy seats.remember?? and...let's go SUBWAY!!!yum yum!!right??right??
GABRIEL --->Ice cream gallery sometime?? (standard's dropped tho)
ANDREA ---> Organic Cafe's yoghurt! (dun u just miss it???)
PEARLYN ----> Cookies!!Cookies!! and MORE COOKIES!! (when are we gonna bake more again??)
SHARON CHENG ---> Red Wine Mee Sua (i miss ur mama's cooking!!haha)
DOREEN ---> Cheesecake!!!and porridge at Crystal Jade!!(it's cos of matt!!haha...see u..only suggest cheesecake..and well..u enjoy crystal jade too!heh)
MATT ----> dunno wat sweet potato near my shop!!(it makes u happy right??haha..so when i see tt..i can just imagine tt look u had when u 1st tasted it!haha)
DOYLE & SIEW HO ---> Gelare Waffles (Blade on tues..waffles after again??haha)
AARON ---->lunchtime khaki..haha..so..practically..can be any food..more likely Yoshinoya la..haha....always suggesting tt.
JESSLYN EIO!! ---->Swensen's ice cream!! (i still remember us hanging out there once on a weekday...when the ice cream was on promotion.remember??)
CHRIS ----> Rochor Beancurd...(one of the places we keep going back..for supper..haha)
JON & KA MUN ---> Sarpino's pizza and many many nice places (u guys 1st introduced sarpino's to me!heh)
J Phan ----> u're not forgotten!but the very last time,it was BCM..now..maybe it'll be the dried...food tt u gave me other den my christmas gift.thk u!!ur gift was very timely.tell u more on msn!!u're such a blessing!!come back soon ok??there's so much i wanna tell u!!see ya on msn 1st den!!
ISAAC LOW and CALVIN LOW ---> Simply Thai!tt was the place where i had lunch with u 2 for the 1st time i think..and got to know u guys better.it was cool!let's hang out someday again when u're all free!!
Victor, Cooper and Calvin ---->Breko cafe..the day u guys gave me a pleasant surprise...hahaha...and chilled out there..cool!come again another day k!!
JOHN LAM ----> Long John's..cos it's ur name.AH hahahah
JOSHUA KIM ----> Burger King...tt's the place u always seem to violently object to in the past.haha..
HE LU ----> the night coffeeshops in siglap..they all seem to be places u recommended and i dunno wat they're called.haha

thk u frens!!u've made me remember u...thru the associations with the different/various foods.haha...these food will only taste better...eaten with u guys!haha.. have i left out anyone who's left me a deep impression with other food?well...if i've forgotten..i'm sorry!i'll have to eat it more often with u den!!Thks for being part of my life!!!

When i Hate it..

2006-03-23T15:46:00.000Z

i hate it when my privacy gets intruded..
i hate it when things dun go my way..
i hate it when u're pressing on but nothing seems to improve..
i hate it when u trust God,have faith...yet he dun seem to be doing anything..doubt starts to creep in..
i hate it when i'm frustrated and just need to vent it out somewhere..
i hate it when God doesn't seem to be answering my prayers..
i hate it when my phone calls dun get answered especially when it's urgent.
i hate it when after so long,i just feel like giving it all up...letting my faith go..
i hate it..when i hate it..

yeah..ever been in situations like mine??well..i'm sure everyone has had times like this...and i'm feeling it today...
SO...HOW DO WE DEAL WITH IT WHEN IT HAPPENS??

i hate it when my privacy gets intruded..
we just gotta learn to share,and be accomodating..imagine when we get married,ur privacy is no longer just u,urself and u..it's abt u and ur other half...so..learn to share..

i hate it when things dun go my way..
yes..we're all God's princes and princess...but if everything always go our way,we'll all be spoilt little brats who wun appreciate what we worked hard for..agree?and we wun learn to be independent..so...thank God when things dun go ur way..tt's when u learn...give and take..

i hate it when u're pressing on but nothing seems to improve..
i once read a story...bout how God told this guy to keep pushing the rock with all his might...den satan came and polluted his mind "u've been pushing for so long...but nothing seems to have moved"
well..it's not up to us to move the mountain.all God asked was for the guy to push the rock with all his might.So..we do the pushing..God does the moving.We just gotta push with all our might.

i hate it when i trust God,have faith...yet he dun seem to be doing anything..doubt starts to creep in..
Patience....he's teaching me patience...and it's times like this..can our Faith greatly increase.Nothing's easy...it just pushes us to a HIGHER level.

i hate it when i'm frustrated and just need to vent it out somewhere..
"come to me all u who are weary and heavy laden,and i will give u rest"..God's burden is light and he wants to carry it for us.weary and heavy laden doesn't just mean tired,burdened and stress.it can mean frustrated..or anything negative too!

i hate it when God doesn't seem to be answering my prayers..
who says He isn't answering?he's just waiting for the right time..and for u to P.U.S.H-->Pray Until Something Happens...Press on!!

i hate it when my phone calls dun get answered especially when it's urgent.
tt's life...tt's all i can say..haha

i hate it when after so long,i just feel like giving it all up...letting my faith go..
well...den think of it this way..imagine ur christian life as one who's mountain climbin..say Mount Everest..ur aim..is to reach the top..halfway,u feel tired, and no longert hopeful and excited bout reaching the top.u wanna give up climbing the rest of the journey..and go all the way down.LET IT GO...dun u find tt it'll be a waste den?u're halfway there...and u just let go of it all..imagine having to start all over again...u'll hvae to go thru what u went thru halfway...so..Perseverance..will bring great rewards..Persevere..and u'll see the top of the mountain!!

i hate it..when i hate it..
well...den be like me...blog it all out...with a solution..i feel so much better now.and i know tt God's still with me...He still loves me..and it helps me to press on!!i hope..this has encouraged u too!! Press on!!one day,we'll all see the top of the mountain!!

how cld i have forgotten!!

2006-03-22T07:50:00.000Z

yes...i forgot..i took 2 pics with melf on sunday!!haha...so..presenting to u..the 4 lovely ladies...

oops!plus tai wei!!

2006-03-20T04:08:00.000Z

how did ur weekend go??mine was FABULOUS!!it's always fun...when i get to see my great,funny and nice friends every weeekend!!can't wait for the nxt to come!!woohoo!!

went blading on saturday..i fell like 3 times...down SLOPES!haha..so i've bruises and cuts everywhere.it was worth it tho.it has taught me to be more bold..and steadier too!thru learning how to blade,i've gotten to know my frens better...and indeed,everyone has grown up.they're so patient with me,sacrifice the distance for my sake and they'll keep looking out for me..to make sure i'm okie. thanks guys!one day.i'll be as good as all of u are!!haha..fall a few more times.just a few more.heh..

before spring cleaning, we were bored with nothing to do.guess wat we eneded up doing??PICTIONARY!!!hahaha...it was very fun..from 2 grps of 5,it was 1 grp of 4,and the other 7!..hence the bigger grp was constantly winning.heh...Spring Cleaning was made enjoyable and entertaining on sunday..what with pple like jacinth(dunno how to spell his name..haha) helping us...and with aaron trying to spray water on me,estella and ee ling while we were cleaning the toilet.thereafter,matt treated us to swensen's.and most of us got high on eating ice cream.Victor got high the most!haha...there,we had great fellowship and luffter...albeit we were all tired.haha..and some of us den accompanied victor to the food fair.we were all full from eating the ice cream,so looking at the food..was like window shopping.nevertheless,we had fun.it was a smaller grp this time..and the guys were the ones buying food..but nice enuff to share with us.

Sundays shld be like this!!filled with activities,fun and luffter!!!I love my frens!!who're always there to cheer me up!!thk u!for being my frens.i love u guys loads!!

Emo...

2006-03-17T16:34:00.000Z

i've been feeling emo these few days....wat's wrong with me??
been VERY VERY sensitive to everything ard me...pissed at anything..irritated with my frens...and at times...feeling...well...:) i'm still high...i'm still happy..when i see frens like

ESTELLA LOW!! JASMINE LEONG!!!and MISS CHONG EE LING!!haha...with estella and ee ling,i know i'm bound to have loads of crap and luffter together..with Jasmine,i know she's the BESTEST fren anyone cld have.Thks for being there for me all da time..and always have to end up hearing those updates abt this particular erhem...and thks for being the one i know i can trust with stuff i cannot tell to anyone and yet i need to get it out!!

I'm so glad...this friendship has BLOSSOMED!and i'm encouraged to have u joining me,coming for prayer mtg every week!! Estella too!! Ee Ling...I'M waiTING to see u coming more!!heheheh....it'll be fun.i'm sure!the laughter i envision!!woohoo!!come quick quick!

yeah..u 3 have been such blessing!i know i can count on all of u when i'm up..or when i'm down.i had fun with ee ling too..nv got this close till ignite eh??i'm glad i cld share so much stuff with u too!!hehe..luffing at...oh so funny pple..hehe..u get wat i mean eh?heh

estella's turn!heh...thks estella for always being so ON together!!and also for the times ur ears were borrowed.the gal i know who's always so free to go for outings and stuff!i can count on u to be there!!(where were u during IGNITE huh??hahaha)

sorry..this post ended up like some friendship dedicated.all in all..i love all of u!!

Shi Fu/Tu Di...I miss taking pics with u!!come to my shop one day k??and we'll have loads of fun entertainin ourselves with photo taking!!haha...

Estee Tang!!the one who bitches with me..ahha..sorry..i've turned over a new leaf.i nv bitch le.heh...but still..we shave so much to talk abt!catch up soon with u one day too!!

Mel Foo and Grace Por!!i miss ur hall!!i'm gonna go there and stay again soon soon!!woohoo!!maybe i shld just buy and leave a mattress there!!haha..Thanks for hosting me!!u have very friendly NEIGHBOURS too!!heh...love ya all!!!

So..even tho i feel emo..i thank God for my frens who stood by me...wa s patient with me..when i snapped,and show em black face.Love ya all!!muaks muaks muaks!!!

Ignite Conference!!

2006-03-14T16:08:00.000Z

i just came back from IGNITE!!woo!!it's good.yes!!3 days of spiritual nourishment.i've been blessed! Thru these 3 days, God has revealed alot of stuff to me,taught me things i've nv imagine myself to go thru...it made my 'famine' period alot easier to go thru.

i'm reading a book "What happens when women walk in faith!"Amazing..everything just tied in. and in one part it just states tt God puts u thru a famine period so tt ur faith will INCREASE!amazing eh?wat timing!yeah...and it's after i let go of this main worry did this book made alot of sense..for my shop..and my life.

Let me share this part with u guys.cos most of u will definitely relate to this. Have u ever...or were u ever worried tt u'll be left on the shelf seein how ur frens are getting attached 1 by 1..and here u are...being 'chased' by non believers and having to reject them even if there was some chemistry?it gets..frustrating,pissin and doubts and temptations do set in.

I was rather worried abt this becous most of u wld have known..i've always wanted to get married at 22,but i'll be turning 21 in a few months time!!i'm still single with no potential partners going after me..haha..and tt kinda cos me to become even more 'gan chiong'...i rem,God asked one of my youth leaders before if she was willing to remain single for God.and she did.she's still single.I asked myself tt for quite some time le...and before sunday,i was like "no way..God...pls dun ever ask me if i'll ever remain single for u.i wanna get married one..i can't stand the thought of staying single"...but it has been a worry and it's a wall tt has set in between me and God.i wasn't willing to let Go and let Him.hence,a few times,i feel,tt i was just trying to take control of my life.God revealed this worry to me..during ignite on sunday...and as i was praying and worshipping,i asked myself if i wld be willing to let go..guess wat? YES!i was!!and i was smiling as i was saying the prayer and declaring and giving it all up to God. Trust Him, He has his PERFECT TIMING for everything!

I dunno who's reading this,but let me tell u tt when u commit ur life to God.DUN ever try to take control of it! Let God's will,NOT URS to be done!Trust in Him!and u'll have many testimonies to come!!God bless!! :)

Out of Town

2006-03-12T09:03:00.000Z

my parents are out of town!!!when i was younger,i wld have rejoiced upon hearing this pc of news,but as i was walking back to church..i actually miss em...yeah...and they're gone just a few hrs ago only...sheesh....

do u ever wish ur parents were out of town? tt meant COMPLETE FREEDOM eh?yeah..i used to rejoice over tt because when they were ard,wherever u go u've to ask for permission...bla bla bla...and as teenagers,u just wanted to hang out with ur frens...now tt i've grown older,i've learnt to understand why my parents do this and tt.if sometimes u're mad at em,and u have questions no one can answer u,ask God..else...u can always look for me ya??been there,DONE tt!haha..

yeah...my parents have been my 'pillar of support' ever since biz started,the ones i'm VERY sure are always praying for my sales and all. Thank God for the biz which brought me closer to em...and the new car too.brought us all closer.It's true..the older u get,the closer u get with ur parents too.u begin to understand their actions,understand how hard they work to bring the 'bread' home..it's not easy.and u start to see ur parents showing their love in ways u nv cld see.Not all parents show their love in the forms of hugz,and gifts and stuff.my parents do not show their love this way.instead,they show it in ways we nv expect and sometimes we really do not see it.They give their love,silently.It's so unconditional...like God's love for us.

so yes!i miss my parents...hahaha....and i pray tt they wld reach KL safe and sound..and come back safe and sound too.Pray for em ya?cos my dad had to drive up himself as there weren't enuff transport.and he's the only one who can drive up.mum and johnmiah..haha..can't drive.yup...i do hope u guys can understand ur parents better too.Not one parent will hate their child..really.God loves u!!so do i!!

Pictures of the Car..as Promised!haha

2006-03-11T03:59:00.000Z

yeah!!alright...here's some pictures of the car!!whee!!!it's royal purple..so in the afternoon,it looks purplish...at night..it looks black!

do i look like i've lost wt??muahahahha

front view..heh.. me in the car...after a good tan!nice nice??

okie la..i realised..got nothing much bout the car to take...no kick.nxt time..we all take pictures IN the car yeah??ah..liddat more FUN!!whee!!

welcome to the family!!

2006-03-09T16:37:00.000Z

yes!!the car arrived today!!whee!!!will take pics and post it out!!haha..our whole fam's like so excited bout it.it's royal purple...honda fit..quite nice..and spacious.i love my family car!!it's now..part of us!!haha

alright alright...nuff said bout the car..today was a wonderful day!!yeah..i've been turning up early for work *pats joanna* "good gal!!" and it's like as if God knows how sales wld go (of cos..HE IS GOD!!duh!) and yes...my 2nd floor shop didn't do well today...i wa very worried..but he sent 4 pple to visit me and take things off my mind.haha...thk u ee foo..for dropping by...didn't expect tt u wld drop by...den..matt,mel and mel..haha...for dropping by...1 before taking dinner,the other 2 after dinner.it wa such a cool 'gathering'..right??heh..anyway..praise God for watever sales i get.yup..i've learnt to give thanks.it's seriously easier giving thanks for everything instead of worrying and getting discouraged when nothing can be done le...so Thank u God!! for the new car!!hehe...

Try giving thanks ya?it helps! :)

weekend..

2006-03-07T15:23:00.000Z

so...how did ur weekend went?mine was quite..fun....a lil tiring on sunday...but relaxing..yeah..

planned sean's bday surprise rather last min...i was tired too..and wanted to go home and sleep...asking him to go shopping was abit of a .."but i dun like shoppin!"..so 'shopping' was rather boring..and we just ended up...well..walking..he almost went home!!ahah...

rightz..so..we went carl's jr where i was given discount.thank u..my dear fren..for the surprise discount.appreciate it. :) yeah....dinner was alright..we didn't really fellowship...wat with the long table..haha...but i'm glad...there was still somewhat of a surprise.yeah!

alright..i went blading today!!yay!!now i'm really excited bout blading...since i can go up and down slopes.just gotta learn how to BRAKE!!haha...was fun..thanks for being so patient with me u guys!!i appreciate it!and yes!i did have fun.u guys taught me..how to appreciate blading thru ur patience!thk u!

Praise God for great frens who have so much patience..with someone who's so afraid of falling yet still wanna blade. i like all my frens!! Hugz to all of u!!

Wedding..

2006-03-04T16:43:00.000Z

i just came back from a wedding (ceremony in the afternoon, dinner at night)...well...wldn't really say it was splendid or wonderfully planned.but a job well done,rather memorable and the whole wedding...and dinner..was somewhat different.hahaha

for the dinner,the table i was assigned to be seated..had only 4 of us!!gosh!!and there were no guys..so the poor us,ladies had to try and eat as much as we cld...i think the other 2 ladies...whom i figure...were just a few yrs older...was very entertained by me..and my fren..who happens to have the same name as me!! :D...and her dad's a pastor too!haha....at the end of it,we were just busy entertaining ourselves by taking pics..haha..here's some pics!!

cheers...with sprite!it tasted very nice..dunno why..i drank alot!haha

jo suggested sticking our tongues out...

a supposedly side profile..haha..of us!

hugz!!!oops!joanna's(me!!)arms are too short..can't see my arm ard joanna's.haha

not smiling...heh...

okie!!tt's all for now!!more to be uploaded soon!jo..i'm so glad u were there...taking pics really kept us soooo entertained!i had alot of fun!!haha...let's take more pics soon!!and hopefully "oh maryann maryann" and yang ming can join us too!!yippie!!!

i'm back!

2006-03-03T15:58:00.000Z

yes!! u guys miss me right??i know..i've not updated for so long.i'm sorry!hehe...this whole week..i was almost away for the whole week.

had the NUS bazaar to tend to...and i thank God for frens who stay in the NUS hall...it's kinda fun...albeit i didn't join their activities because after awhole day at work,i just wanted to be alone...felt quite anti social.haha...but hall life is like camp everyday.i'm glad i get to experience a lil of it.somethin i know i'll nv go thru all my life.Mel,thanks for hosting me!!haha..STOP SKIPPING LECTURES!!heh..grace..thanks for hosting my stuff..and well..starting the bazaar a day before!!hehe..it was fun i'm sure!!whee!!

Praise God.He's been faithful.God's been working not only in my life..but the lives of many pple, Friday Prayer Mtg and many many stuff!yup...without the bazaar,i wldn't have been able to cover costs for the month of Feb.it's scary i tell u.Prayer Mtg has seen a rapid increase in attendance..and i tell u,God's working.Definitely not man made!There's a Breakthru!!praise God for tt!alright..i think it's time i go to bed!

Hey!to all u who just got ur a level results...watever u got,whether good or bad,happy or disappointed,SMILE,it's not easy giving thanks! i know...i went thru times when i'm disappointed too.But God's faithful in everything!we can't see his purpose now,but we will as we continue to trust in Him. no point crying or getting disappointed over it now...u can't change ur results.so..why not,just give thanks yeah?Look at me..i'm not a graduate...and yes..my shop may not be making big bucks now..but i can tell u...my story's gonna get bigger and my testimony is gonna pile up till i can write a book! i see my future all in God's hands!and i tell u..i'm gonna prove tt i dun need a CERT to be successful! (not trying to discourage u pple to stop studying..but do study hard WHILE u still get to!!) God Bless all of u!! :)

God's Presence!

2006-02-25T13:58:00.000Z

yes!Friday Prayer mtg was SUPERB! God's presence was GREATLY felt!it was wonderful..instead of the usual few who turned up,(usually,abt 5-6?) we had 14 pple!! Praise God!!really didn't expect so many!

Praise God!we're really working towards the vision. His presence was really woohoo!!u shld have felt it urself. Everyone was refreshed! I was blessed. I'm so glad i made the decision not to open my shop because it was worth every second,every min of my time.Sitting at his feet...worth more den the little i earn in the shop. Praise God!

God's my hehovah jireh too..things tt i've been praying,are slowly being answered. He's revealin so much to me.okie.i'm tired.shall blog more soon.

2006-02-22T16:25:00.000Z

i've been under very bad 'attacks' this week.it's tiring,mentally.and it's draining me.but the word and prayer is so powerful! i emergerd a victor!Praise God.still under some attacks now,of which i shan't mention wat..as it's gonna hurt many pple..and affect many..and set the minds of everyone to think.so.... it'll be blogged..somewhere else. :)

Mum suddenly came over to pray for me before i left for work today.it's a 1st after 5months++,it just reminded me of the times my parents prayed for my bro and i before our exams when we were in primary sch..haha...dunno why she had this 'gan dong' but it sure helped alot.because when i reached bugis,i was like "today's gonna be a bad day...no wonder she prayed for me..so tt i'll have peace"....but..wah!!3++ my neighbour helped me to sell something le.woohoo!sales was better den tuesday.not bad,for a wednesday.Praise God!Prayer works!but it works even better only with Faith,and a Thankful heart!

Valentine's Day...Friendship day!!

2006-02-15T17:00:00.000Z

yes!i really enjoyed myself yesterday....although we cldn't like fellowship with everyone during dinner...it was nice seeing the guys..doing stuff for the gals..some peeled prawns...some went to cut the live crabs and brought it back...some went to get more cooked food to serve us...and some bought us drinks...

but of cos..we gals did nice stuff for em too!we did most of the cooking,we peeled prawns too...and and....we tried to get watermelons for em!haha..

after dinner,which ended at bout 10pm,we were as usual,undecided as to wat's next.this is bad.ypm needs more organisers!!and programme planners!!pls rise up!!haha...

hilarious..some decided tt arcade it will be...and so,we headed to the arcade,den we decided tt arcade's not the place and decided on bowling.the person who suggested bowling,was in fact,not tt keen in bowling after all.haha..we went to the bowling alley,as usual,everyone just stood there and talk...den..someone ask if we were gonna bowl,and we realised,tt only a few wanted to.and so..our last and final consensus! PLAY POOL!!haha...yeah..and tim gladly directed us to this pool place which has in fact closed down,after walking like 5-10mins?ya..den we walked back..and settled for another area where there's pool 24hrs.

as there were like 14 of us after,we booked 3 tables..it was fun.estella and i were the only 2 gals left,we played doubles with doyle and tim..yeah...and well...the person who paired with me always lost!hah..i'm sorry!!!but the playing was fun..tim was entertaining..watever he said was just crappy..and it kinda made me luff the whole time.till i felt really really tired.haha...

this yr,i really thank God.dun envy any couples when i see em...not at all envious of couples celebrating v day.hah!yes!cos..why worry?everything's in God's hands man..letting him take control is the best decision of all!after letting go of it,my burdens were immediately lighter.yes..some of u wld have known eh?cos i shared with a few of u.yup.joanna's a happier person now..and she uses all tt energy to concentrate and focus on other stuff..

well..i do hope u had as enjoyable as i had..v day!

more testimonies to come!!cheers!

Gladys..

2006-02-13T16:42:00.000Z

well...a dedicated post..to dearest gladys..(as requested!!haha)

she's so sweet u know!!posted a post for me on her blog...and i didn't even request for it!thanks sweetie!!i'm honoured!heh..really..so here's one for u too!even tho..it's been some time since i really last talk to u.

Gladys...was once my student(did i ever teach u in sunday sch?haha)
she's in the dance ministry too...
she's..well..taller den me..haha..
she's sweet..
she loves God...and
she loves ypm!whee!tt's good!

alright...as for ya testi...will do tt another day ok?take care and have fun in sch!hugz!

DUN doubt God!

2006-02-13T16:29:00.000Z

yes!DUN doubt God!haha....seriously...i really tot..sunday..confirm no body le...den...after an hr or so...after opening,i was really bored..nothing to do..no one to chat with..and i was just wishing "if only my frens wld visit me today..but well..confirm dun have one la...all of them all got their pwn programmes...nvm..i'll just go up 2nd floor for awhile den..."..so..i asked my neighbours to look after my shop for awhile...and i walked to the pink staircase...den....lo and behold!..haha..

i saw adine and suzanne!!and su's sis and mum!!they actually dropped by my 2nd floor shop and wantedto go off le..cos i wasn't in the shop!wah!!another prayer answered too!!and it was just so nice catching up with them!!God's been sending me angels!!thk u!!...

Monday....tot...enuff..1 week of surprise..today...sure dun have le..haah..boy am i so wrong!melissa hohohohohoh....came!!woohoo!!i really had fun talking to u!!thks for the company.u nv fail to encourage me at times too..and watever we chatted today,it was really edifying.yup..u're a fren..i can really chat bout Godly stuff and feel...alright...one tt's so encouraging..and one i can tell and share bout anything with!heh..

so there....1week exactly...of surprise visitors!isn't God amazing?all planned for me?and these frens didn't even know who was gonna drop by on which day...and their timings didn't clash at all!cool eh?

definitely ain't no coincidence..

2006-02-11T15:34:00.000Z

haha..yes!!!definitely ain't any coincidences for watever happened this week!the visitors....and all..

initially,when i was blogging ytd..i was like..sat and sun..sure dun have pple visit me one la..cos i'm gonna see all of u on sun..and sat..well..u guys are in church...attending ypm service..so..yes!didn't expect any visitors..
and no..i didn't get any visitors...but...here's what happened!

i was really dreading going to work..and brooding over my sales again..tried to sleep and sleep just so i wun think so much bout the finances..but i had to somehow,still get up yeah?i can't sleep forever and escape from it.i'll still have to face anything at the end of the month...and i got up...at like 12+++....den went to wash face..settle a lil of the ppt...den got ready for work..bla bla bla..

and i was really dreading the long journey..."haiz...still need to walk to the bus stop.and i wonder how long i've to wait before 48 comes...den..still must walk before i reach my shop..sian man"...yes..i felt liddat...seriously..it was a dread going to work today..

so...i walked to the lift..and took the lift...den..the lift..stopped at the 3rd floor....den....EUGENE TAN entered the lift...den...he ask "where're ya going?"...i replied.."work lor..bugis.."...den he said..."u're in luck...i'm going to suntec"....WAH WAH WAH!!!!immediately....i cheered up a lil....cos...den..i didn't have to drag myself to the bus stop..and start complaining and stuff...yeah!!God's good..isn't it??

oh..i forgot to add...i didn't take breakfast cos i really wasn't in the mood for anything...but after washing up..and dilly dallying for awhile...i went into my room to pray...cos..i really felt like giving up today..told God tt i cldn't take it anymore..the burden was too heavy to bear...and kept praying and stuff....woah..so..yes!prayers do work wonders!God's always with me!!!and he is with u too!i've learnt so much bout praying ever since i opened this shop..and ever since i atended prayer mtg!so u guys shld go attend too!!haha...

Every friday...7.30 to 9.30!be there and be blessed k!

Overwhelmed!

2006-02-10T16:42:00.000Z

woah!i really am!!
haahha..i can't believe it!!i actually had surprise visitors today!!!

my my....thank you!mandia and estee!!hahaha...and i'm so super glad tt i actually BUMPED into u guys on my way to the 1st floor!ahahha....seriously...i didn't expect any visits.

haha....and i still wanna thk u guys sommore..cos u guys had to help me with my clothes..so paiseh...sorry man!!!thks lots!heh...the company this week really helped me not to think too much and worry too much.

and john for the great verse...haggai 2:1-9... 'The silver is mine and the gold is mine,' declares the LORD Almighty." wiill put the main part here...so..if i ever forget,well..it's here.heh..thk u!

yup....it's been an encouraging week even tho sales hasn't really been okie...sigh..yeah...thks for keeping me company and entertainig me!it's great catching up with every single one of u!i love ya all!!!Muaks!

Thankful...

2006-02-09T14:15:00.000Z

hah!i've so much to blog today!!whee!!

firstly...i really wanna thank God for all the God Sent!he's been sending to visit me at my shop...

victor,calvin,cooper and eeling for the very pleasant surprise!whee!!finally..i get surprises too!hahah....it was nice chilling out with the 3guys...altho..it was a very short time...

and eeling,thanks for taking tt long long long long..hot hot hot walk with me to the shop..made the distnce seem shorter..and the very nice dark chocolate cake!whee!!very nice!really!!

to jasmine,thanks for helping me buy my dinner..and the 2 yoghurt left for me!haha..it was super sweet!!yes..both the yoghurt and the efforts!heh..

to shelby,u're a really sweeet...wonderful fren...SHe'll be very very touched by the efforts and thoughts put into making it!even just seeing wat u've done for her,has mademe touched.i wun be surprised if she cries seeing it man!haha..u're wonderful!and u've grown up alot!!heh..really..very mature and stuff le...thks for buying stuff from me!heh..and for the jollybean pancakes.they're nice!!yum yum!!!

see!!u guys!!just make me fat!haha...but it's okie...i like the love given together with it!!hehe...

alright..and thank you,isaac yeo...and siew ho and siew ho's mum and auntie for dropping by as well!!!thank u!!it was nice seeing all of u!haha..

okie!i've said all my thank yous to my God Sent AnGELS!!i hope i didn't leave out any names tt dropped by. Thanks to those who've been praying and smsing me encouraging stuff too!appreciate it!i feel LOVED!!whee!!thk u!!

okie...let's talk bout today..heh...met up with mandia and jas for lunch...we went to bakerzin(correct spelling right?) and for dessert...we had warm chocolate cake!!wah!!!!!!it's really VERY VERY VERY NICE LEH!!!it's fun sharing too!and trying to stop the chocolate from spilling out.hahaha....whee!!i really enjoyed myself!
den mandia and i decided to head to city hall..haha..but jas only knew the way to suntec...and so...she decided to give us directions...know wat?we were more confised..ahha..this is wat she said(somewhat similar la)"okie..u walk all the way straight..den u see esplanade...den u walk straight sommore..den u'll see an underpass...u go down the underpass...den u walk straight sommore..den u turn right..den u'll see suntec"

haha..i think the both of us gave up trying to remember watever helpful directions she gave and decided to just walk la..haH!and we managed to get to city hall without having to go to suntec.hhaha...

thanks mandia..for accompanying me till i had a surprise meet up with another fren.heh..let's go marks and spencer together someday again..oh..april!!most expire only den.hahaha...whee!!i had fun!

2006-02-07T18:03:00.000Z

thanks michelle dearest!!for the song!most appropriate for a time like this!hugz!love u!!

hmm...wat a day...hahaha

2006-02-07T17:32:00.000Z

oh...yes!i decided to post something not too 'holy'..yeah..i'm sorry..i've been posting as if i was some saint..haha...

let's see...today...i was supposed to go to this place somewhere near farrer park,serangoon road...to get some stuff for my new shop..so...i tot i've got it all figured out.wanted to save some money by not taking a bus to dhoby gaut,den changing to the NEL to farrer park(tt was how my landlord's gf brought me when i first went).

So i 'kay kiang'..haha...assumed tt the bus stop where 48 stops wld have ALL the buses available to go to the specific place as i've seen those numbers appear somewhere along the area.But when i reached the bus stop...i was...haha..shocked!to see only 2 available buses - 66 and 67.hahaha..den i assumed i was in the right direction..so..after a few mins,66 came.and i happily boarded the bus.feeling so proud of myself.

after like a few mins passed,the bus passed by little india..and den..i was suddenly going towards bukit timah!!darn!!where was i headed?i tot..farrer park was near bugis?haha..so i tot..nvm..confirm correct one..continue...sit..go with the flow...and den....i passed Hwa Chong Institution..and i was like.."uh oh...."...in my mind..i still tot i was going the right way..because there were many indians in the bus..and i assumed they were gonna go shopping at tt place(cos it's very near little india)..it nv occurred to me tt they cld be on their WAY HOME instead.haha..silly joanna.

den..i reached 6th avenue..haha...i decided tt i better get down,and cross opposite to take the bus back man.it was way too far le.i read the bus 'directory' or something?haha...i was way way too far from my destination man.this time,i made sure the bus was heading towards where i was supposed to head.and yes!after i think 30mins?i reached..whee!and after buying the stuff i needed,i went to the bus stop tt i was shown the 2nd time i went.this time,i made sure there was a bus tt went back to bugis.haha..and yes!130 was the nearest!so i waited for 130..

at the end of it,know wat i realised?tt shop..is actually walking distance from bugis.ahhaha..i think 15-20mins,i can reach le...darn..and it took me like 1hr to reach today!!haahha...okie..yes.u may not get the joke..but i sure am luffingat myself.heh..silly me.but i got to know many bus routes today.heh

Thank You Lord!

2006-02-07T16:37:00.000Z

came back from a wedding yesterday...it was...well...okie.The bride's as usual...beautiful...so PRINCESS!ahha..the groom...not at all like prince charming..and we actually mistook him as a waiter...because he served us drink.oh my!how embarrassing!haha...but k la..i can see the charm he somewat has.yup..can understand why the bride chose him.Great guy..i'll say.even tho it was my 1st time seeing him.i wish the bride and groom eternal happiness!!woohoo!!

yes...as my previous post stated..i've been tired.yup..got worst on friday..was drained.really drained...felt very pissed off and frustrated with many things...wanted to give up..many stuff..my faith included.it just wasn't easy pressin on at tt time.but decided tt i needed a word from God.so i told myself,i'm not gonna stop reading the word till i hear something.(i was very tired,and hungry..at tt time..so i decided to go get something to eat first.haha..as i was going to my dining table,i was thiking of how i was determined to hear from God before i sleep)...and yes!he spoke to me,as i was getting a muffin out of the package...God's putting me thru all these to strengthen my faith.yup...the things i've been thru...well..i've passed those tests...but it's just not strong enuff to build me.and hence..this test...is to strengthen my faith..and trust in God..he's BUILDING me up!and altho i really dun wanna go thru it all again...i'm gonna PUSH myself to press on and live by faith and not by sigh.Praise God!a 'nouget of truth!"..heh!!

Press on,my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ..when things seem so wrong..and when times are just so difficult...u just can't move on anymore.The Lord is faithful..He will nv LEAVE you.nor FORSAKE you.

Love ya all!Hugz!

It's like...STARTIN all OVER...again...

2006-02-04T16:44:00.000Z

i'm tired...yes..i am.very tired....tired of worrying bout the sales the nxt day,tired of worrying bout how my biz will grow..tired of wondering how much i'll get at the end of the month and how i'll survive the nxt.It feels as if i'm going thru anoter sort of survivor...and thru it all...i can only survive...with the Strength given from God.supernatural strength.

it's been 4 months since i first started a biz....this month,i opened another one on the 1st floor.so much to do...it simply feels as if...i'm starting all over again...and yes!this time..there're added stress,.i HAD to open AFTER CNY..where sales is REALLY REALLY BAD!!

everyone started closing as early as 8PM on a sat evening(so u can imagine how bad it was)..and while waiting for my dad to come fix the lights for me,i was...very very discouraged,very weary,heavy laden...and STRESSED!with nothing to do,no fren to talked to,i decided to sit at the corner of my new shop and listened to my mp3 player..it was currently playing worship songs..and so,i just sat there,listening and worshipping...and i prayed..poured all my burdens to God..and i cld feel His presence with me.really.it was very very strong..really.i know he was there,comforting me..

wat puzzles me most now..is tt..on 2 occasions - the day i got keys to both my shop,well...very very similar situations i went thru.There's something God's telling me.but wat?

okie..for both shops,the only problem tt made it unoperational was the lights.and both occasion,my dad had to come down on a saturday night to help me fix it.both times..he arrived around 10.30...wat's tt supposed to mean?

1. the LIGHTS got problem (okie..wat bout being a light?)
2. it happens on a saturday (the day before SUNDAY...sabbath)
3.my weekend sales are affected
4. it's in bugis...(very complicated venue)

Let's try summing it up yeah?
To be a light...in BUGIS?i dunno..it seems as if the 2nd floor area,well..the sales there seems to be picking up.yup..i dunno if it has something to do with me(being the Light)...i dunno..

this time round,the area i'm in,happens to be quite "ULU" too...am i to bring LIGHT to this area too?Will sales pick up for everyone there selling clothes soon after?well...i dunno..

But i'm gonna stay POSITIVE!I'm not gonna doubt..and somehow,i really believe tt the sales there is gonna pick up..even though it's after CNY.although i'm really tired of starting all over again,i['m gonna keep praying,i'm gonna press on..and persevere.

pls pray for me..all of u..will u?I really need u guys to pray.I'm tired.really.But i've got a Great,BIG and wonderful God.Dun u agree?say AYE!haha..AMEN!!

Wat more can i ask for.

2006-02-02T17:29:00.000Z

it's 1.30am on my clock...i just reached home like 15mins ago...and why am i so thankful?

well..this post is written in gratitude of my dad.yes!the greatest dad ever.i wun ask for more..or for a better dad.

let's see...my dad's been working the whole day today...but when he knew tt i needed someone to drive me to bugis at night to ferry stuff over for my new shop,he said okie.and my landlord actually worked till like 12.30 before we were done with the drillings and stuff....

know wat?my dad left straight after his service's (if i'm not wrong,) fast and pray...so..straight after,ferried and accompanied me till everything was done.he went there,without having his dinner and is only eating his dinner now.i'm so touched.i owe my dad far too much.the one who's still providing for me financially,and...I"M ALREADY WORKING!!i hope to be giving him money soon..and not the other way round.

yes!i've a dad who loves his children far more den anyone can imagine.even tho he has to dedicate most of his time to his ministry and all,he shows his love in ways we can nv imagine...and it's not direct...it's super indirect.i love my dad!!loads!!

one who nv complains,nv got angry with us,nv vent his anger,always giving,very hardworking..always work till the wee hours,helping us fix stuff..even at my shop no matter how long he's been working the whole day.yup..tt's my dad.a perfect dad.yeah..try suggesting a flaw he may possess,and i'll give ya an example to counter tt flaw.haha...

Do u love ya dad too?

Hols over...it's work again..

2006-02-02T10:49:00.000Z

Time flies extremely faster when it's fun times isn't it?

I can't believe tt the LONG CNY hols...is almost over for me.well...i guess everyone must be blogging bout how the hols went,where they went for visitation...how much goodies they ate,how much they gained..haha...and the many ang baos received eh?

Well..let's see....this CNY hol has been a good break for me.away from the shop,worrying so much bout finances.I'm not gonna be blogging bout wat i did.but rather,i'll like to take this opportunity,to thank God for what He has done!.

yup..it's the first ever CNY where my status has been changed from student to 'lao ban niang'..and i realised tt this status,has indeed drawn me closer to God.As i was attending service on sunday,i cldn't help but thank God for all the blessings he has bestowed me.Yup..have u taken this time to thank God for all tt He has done?

well..if u feel tt there's nothing u can thank God for,here's some reasons WHY u SHLD and CAN THANK HIM for:
1. Thank you God for a Lovely Home tt u can go back to everyday.
2. Thank you God for food. (u dun have to go hungry,or begging)
3. Thank you God for great frens who're there with u...ups.. or downs..
4.Thank you God for the Church.
5. Thank you God for giving you brains. (Without which,u wun be studying..and the future,will definitely be a bleak one.ha)
6.Thank you God for the talents He has blessed you with. (else,how can u serve Him back in return eh?)
7. Thank you God for a country for Singapore (where we're all being sheltered)
8.Thank you God for the nice clothes tt u get to wear.
9.Thank you God for creating you (no you, NO FUN!heh)
10. Lastly, Thank you God for ya parents --- (i wanna elaborate more on this)..yup...there are times when we dun feel tt loved by our parents,when we feel abandoned,or when we feel tt they're being unfair or unreasonable....i used to think this way too..but u know..ur parents love u more den anyone else.yes!many a times,they show their love in ways we cannot see. They work hard to provide for u.(yes!sometimes they work till wee hours,and we dun get to spend much quality time with u.but u know wat?money really isn't easy to earn.esp when u've got a family)
so..when u become a parent one day,or when u start working someday,u'll realise how much ur parents really love u.So start thanking God first!Cos u wun regret it!!

it's the CNY!

2006-01-30T07:33:00.000Z

yeah...it's the Chinese New year...once again...and everyone blogged abt new year...haiyo..must wait until festive season den blog ah?

well...this yr,CNY is once again...boring..yeah...dun really visit much places nowadays..sigh...i know the reasons..but...ah well...time to plan my own itinary soon.

It's been great rest nevertheless.and i took this CNY to thank God once again for all the blessings he has bestowed me.Yup.It's gonna be an exciting new week after CNY.my shop on the 1st floor will be opening on 6th feb.Instead of being able to rest another 2 days before i open,i realised,there's so much stuff i've to do...like...go buy the stuff needed for my shop,bring the stuff over so it's ready for sale on friday..and i've to design the many plain basic tees i brought back to sell.wanted to sell as plain basics...but decided,it can bring in a higher sale if it's designed.heh..so...tt's how my hols is gonna end.

Can't wait for the 3rd day.gonna go visiting with my cell grp,Levi..and meet the other cell...not sure in church or esplanade yet.i Always look forward to grp visitations.whee!

2006-01-25T16:35:00.000Z

wow.God experiencing! Have u ever asked God something...and the nxt thing u know...It's answered in a few hours?

well..i did...i asked him for something not for selfish gain..but for building up His kingdom.Let me tell u wat happened.

Today,on my way to work,in the bus,i saw a 'religious' bldg(u guys will get it yeah?..chinese.....:) )..and i asked God "God,wat can i do,how can i be a disciple for u?" i just wanted to do more for Him,to bring pple to Christ,but sometimes, i just dunno how to.and there just isn't any opportunity. Many of my 'neighbours' are all STAUNCH bud***** and it isn't easy being the only Christian there.

Den...today...one of my neighbour who dun believe in anything asked me and my other fren who's of another faith if our religions have any 'counselling' for 'problematic' pple. Cos she's got a fren who've some probs. because my fren was ard,i didn't say much for fear of offending her. But when i was alone with the other person,i gave her my number and asked her to give me a call if she wants to bring her fren to meet my dad for 'counselling' (i told her my dad was one of those counsellors).

Praise God!He opened the doors for me!i'm really. glad.i guess this is indeed a stepping stone. and i'm continuing to Pray for open doors, tt He'll lead me. Yes!keep praying!! Cos prayer really works.Pray everyday to find out for yaself.

Sales was exceptionally good today!and i actually spent more time,disciplined myself to pray and really read the bible. Not only was i blessed, my entire area was blessed. And i realised tt when i do not spend enuff time with God,my sales is affected,and my whole area is affected too. They'll get slightly better sales den me...but not good too.so i do see the difference.

God uses ALL of us,to make a DIFFERENCE!Prayer...Try it!!there is a Difference!of cos..if God doesn't answer ya prayers,reflect upon ya character,attitude, why u asked for tt...and many many more..to find out more,can always ask me.I'll be more den happy to share with u guys, My PRAYER ENCOUNTERS with God! Smilez! More posts to come!! :) :) :)

2006-01-21T16:05:00.000Z

it's been a tiring but great week!thank God for all tt has happened.the good and the bad...yeah...

went for ypm today...almost cldn't make it cos las min my part timer had food poisoning and i didn't wan her to come down specially.she's such a blessing.Thank God for someone responsible and sweet and does more den the lil i'm giving her. while one's responsible..i had one who was a complete opposite.thought thru it the whole night before deciding to 'fire' her.cannot afford to employ someone who's not trustable.It's like friendship...if u can't trust a fren,will u leave ya entire allowance to her?no eh?

yeah...so i'm glad i made tt decision and i managed to employ another one.thank God.found a part timer and a Full time.i hope they're good.yeah!

oh well...ypm svc was not too bad.think matt's sermon was rather entertaining with him self praising at times..yet it added some humour la...cldn't really worship God...dunno why.i guess at tt time,i was still rather distracted and worried bout some stuff.ah well...Committed it to God.

Someone kinda like 'criticised' me after svc...bout the 'costume' i put on for the skit and commented how i was an 'auntie'..i was kinda put off by tt bcos i nv expected such UNEDIFYING comment.especially when it doesn't come from a good fren.if a good fren..say jas,estee or mel were to comment..i'll be fine by it.but somehow..this person nv seems to make good comments everytime i talk to this person.and it Stings.

This person even commented on how i was talking bout not gossipping bout pple and backstabing and all...but he/she doesn't really knows how to differentiate all these.When i comment on a gd fren,i do it..in front of em.and they jolly well know why i said tt.i live to do wat i say.when i say i wun gossip,i try not to.afterall,i'm human.so who are u to judge me?or even to criticise me?i guess this person is still somewhat growing up.ah well..loads to learn.i definitely wun really to to him/her bcos i know tt i cannot converse well with this person,knowing jolly well tt whatever he/she says will sting.

I pray tt God will help me not to get hurt...and yes..i dun bear any grudges.just tt if i know i cannot take it,why go thru it yeah?and end up saying wrong stuff.if i were to be nasty..i think this person wld be crying.Thank God tt my temper has simmered down..and i'm trying to remain cool.yup...so pple..If ever someone tries to criticise u...or hurl insults and stuff...just walk away ya?i think tt tt always helps.just give tt person a smile..and walk away.and if someone is talking bout unpleasing stuff..or whining away..and it irritates u...walk away...slowly..not abruptly.so it doesn't..well..affect anyone.just pray for tt person.

yup.i'm hurt...by the person who commented.but i know..this person is still growing up..trying to be cool..i've been thru tt age.shan't 'dou' with someone so much younger den me.i hope u guys have a blessed week!

2006-01-16T18:22:00.000Z

oh..i just felt i shld blog this out....have u ever had any frens...who feels tt he/she has gotta be on guard of 'frens' for fear tt they "tend to change their opinions of you, they will like you one moment and dislike you the next, blowing hot and cold."....well...i have.this fren...somehow i feel..is talking bout me...what have i got to say?

i've actually treated this fren like a fren.a great actually.but at times...i do give him/her a black face...know why?this person's attitude himself/herself sucks!one min happy..the other black..now...speak of the pot calling the kettle black eh?why wld i den show this person attitude? cos i simply hate it when pple have mood swings,act like a kid eg:in a big grp,and still cover hands and whisper into BEST fren's ear (like some little kid)...ooh...and dis person...enjoys...taking credits.yeah..

okie..why am i blogging this?in a way...i feel somewhat insulted...affected..i'm not supposed to know...but well..in another way..i dun really care?yeah...haha...
anyway..to whoever's reading this..keep me in prayers ya?tt things will be resolved..else...i dunno how the future will be like man...sigh...

jas:i really had fun catching up with u...on the way back to church on sat...and when we went shopping.Let's shop someday again..ok?

Melissa hohohhohoho:as my personal message says it all..haha...i miss ya!we'll meet up soon!

i'm flattered!

2006-01-16T16:31:00.000Z

yay!!so many pple tagged!!yippie!tag more k??and yes..i promise!!no more complaining from joanna....no more talking bad bout pple...no more nasty stuff...

my blog will be mainly for pple needing encouragement...pple who feels tt God isn't ard at times..yup..i pray and hope tt my life will be a testimony and an encouragement to anyone who needs it. May u always remember tt u're not going thru things and situations alone..and trials are there to test ya faith and endurance. read James chapter 1!!

and the many books in the new testament.yup.i enjoy reading the new testament. it really helped me thru many situations in my life. Everyday...the chapters i read are bound to speak to me somehow or rather.so...READ A CHAPTER at least EVERYDAY!!strongly ENCOURAGED!

okok...now.let's talk bout my life!haha...tt's secondary of cos!but everyday's a testimony.let's see...i woke up feeling dizzy.it was already 12..but i just cldn't get up.but i still woke up.tot it'll be okie soon.but when i went to work,i was still feeling dizzy...it was horrible.

i cldn't even serve my customers.so for like 4,4 hrs,i hadn't a SINGLE sale.However,the amazing thing is,i felt peace and for once..i just wasn't worried.somehow..i just know tt God's in control.why shld i worry?yup...so when i was abt to close for the day...i managed to cover 'rental' for the day!!praise God!!cos it was really really quiet.everyone's sales was affected. Praise God!!at least rent was covered!

Now,let's talk bou tthe part where i cldn't serve my customers.know why i felt horrible?not cos i was sick..but i've found a new reason to serve my customers with patience and joy!i used to show attitude when customers try to bargain..or try something and dun buy.not very good customer svc eh?initially,my 1st month,i was a super cheery,happy go lucky person.well well..okok..cut the story short...here's the reason why i shld be happy and serve with joy...COS I'M a CHILD of GOD!!and whatever actions,characters or attitude i do,show,watever..I'm Portraying Jesus.i'm a christian.i shld be different!If i'm an attitude salesgal,wldn't tt make me like any of those gals customers always complain abt?yup...so..I shld shine brighter.one reason i'm sure why God has placed me there.and tt makes me..well..kinda look forward to work everyday!

even if u aren't working,as a student,always ask God to help u be a better person each day.A fren tt ur frens can count on,a fren tt everyone will like,a fren who wun gossip.May ur Light shine bright bright!

okie...end of testimony for today!more to come!!are u encouraged?i hope u are!

Sunday...

2006-01-15T14:20:00.000Z

well..it was another surprise job well done!this yr...last min planned surprises seem to work very well...hahah.."laissez faire",pronounced "leze fair" as matt calls it.hahaha....

yupyup..i guess wat made aaron the happiest is not our presents....but the fact tt jesslyn remembered and asked me to get a cake on behalf and a message from her made it sweeter.haha..

but i'm really glad tt my good fren,a great bro in christ,someone i know i can count on for practical solutions,great advice is happy on his bday.He's someone who's generous with giving presents and yet...just felt it wasn't fair tt he nv got a surprise.yup.i always feel tt pple who always gives and gives generously yr after yr deserve the best.so i'm glad..i finally got to do one for him!a job well done! yes!i'm not ashamed to praise myself...cos not everyone is gifted in planning surprises. so..i deserve a *pat on my back*.not easy k.so bz with my biz..still need to plan all these.and yes!not everyone takes the initiative to plan it.not fair eh?
so yes.Happy Birthday aaron!!!

so i guess...this post's kinda dedicated to aaron.ohh...some of us went shopping today..tiring man.the guys' patience were tested.okie..pass!definitely pass!it was fun..yet tiring....guess cos the place was too packed,we were tired and it was stuffy and humid.but well...it was alright..i guess.i wanna shop more!i learnt quite some stuff today.heh..

my week..

2006-01-15T14:08:00.000Z

it was a week full of ups and downs...a week of trial...and perseverance,a heart of thanksgiving,a heart of worship tt my Lord was looking for. I almost failed this test. Phew! it was an enduring week.yeah...heavy rain just made my sales worse den before,i cldn't even cover any cost with those money...initially,it was easy thanking Him..but it got harder on the 2nd day..and on the 3rd,i broke down cos of..some problems...yup...started questioning God bout alot of things,started to feel upset abt some stuff...but the Lord answered me within a day.Very encouraged!

A dance exchange tt wasn't just like any dance exchange i've ever went.Although it isn't as well planned as the many other exchanges i've attended,this was one,where God worked,His presence was felt,and many hearts restored and renewed. It simply started with just a word of prayer,sharing..some basic ballet techniques,den some swing dance steps..followed by something we weren't expecting. God used agnes to touch the many hearts.yup..agnes taught a sorta mime with a mandarin song entitled "I Pray" and before she taught the actions,she did some sharing,explained and went thru the lyrcis first.we went thru the steps with music a couple of times,before asking us to just worship Him.it was den tt everything started.the dance head of CCR started going round praying for her dance mates...and yes...some started crying,sobbing and all.as Agnes prayed for me,i cld feel the presence!it was so...good!after a time of praying and restoring,some of em shared bout how this has helped em and how God has put into place many many doubts and all tt had happened.

Praise God for a God experiencing xchange!!God uses only those who allows Him to be used. tt's post for mon..till sat.

thoughts...

2006-01-12T17:32:00.000Z

yeah....many thoughts ran thru my mind this whole evening...from the time i came back till.....now....

read a few blogs..before i went to take a shower...tt was when all these thoughts flooded my mind...good ones..negative one...brainless one...everything la...

ever wondered why u started blogging?why do u blog?for whom is the blog for?when we type not so good feelings out...issit to tell tt person or let tt person know?or for our frens to read thru all the not serious..just for fun blog?(if so,abit nothing better to do right?)however,when we type bout those daily events (eg...today..after sch..i went to..bla bla bla..and den..my fren did this and that...den..i went home..and all tt *********)

wat's the point?to let pple know..tt u do not have a routine,dull,monotonous life?haha....or to let others know tt u've been spending so much time with so and so and how ya friendship is blossoming while the person reading it has been all left out,no invitations or being asked along(yes!i'm feeling sour bout this.sorry..)
okie..i dunno...

but i started asking myself why do i blog?to vent my anger?(den why let my frens know of the existence of my blog)....for wat do i blog?i'll get back to u on tt.

k..den i went to watch tv...and started chatting on msn with a few frens..and we were talking bout relationships..yeah...many have started to get together..while some...sadly..broke off.it's sad to hear break ups...and sometimes good news to hear of pple getting together?am i glad tt a certain couple got together?i wld somewat say...nope.but wat to do...who cares bout ya feelings so long as the couple's happy.just tt...i really dun like the gal..yeah....a *****...but...who am i to judge yeah?still praying and asking God to accept this person...well..i'm glad...God's been blessing me with loads of patience and love..and taking away all my bitterness and hurts whenever i feel left out.

yup...den it came to the topic of 'friendship'..wat does friendship mean to u?for me..it means alot alot alot alot...i cherish every freidnship tt i have.but can i say the same to the frens i cherish?

sadly..NAH!!!...yeah..why do i say tt? let me tell u a story..long ago(like a yr..or 2 maybe?)...i got to know this grp of frens..it was sweet!we had fun,luffter and everything...but slowly...but surely..the rest of em..started hanging out without me..going places w/o asking me along..yup..i had to find out thru blogs..and conversations(see!blogs does more harm den gd!)...and soon enuff..i was completely left out of the pic...how sad...being joanna...she nv show pple her disappointment..she just smile..and listen to every detail of their 'outings'...and slowly,she just started to drift apart(did it matter to em?nah.....they're gd frens ma)..

but thankfully,God blessed her with more gd frens.(although it's sad...but i'm glad..and thankful for the new found frens..they just came in when they left...amazing how God blesses even tho it hurts eh?)...and i still remember how their bdays..were always wonderful,memorable surprises...
wat did joanna get?oh..just nice cards..and present.(we didn't know how to surprise u..we ran out of ideas..oh...the surprise just didn't work out.)and joanna's yearly reply? "oh..it's okie..it's the thoughts tt counts.*smile brightly*...it's true.i do appreciate the card and the present..but every yr,i anticipate a wonderful surprise only to go home crying...disappointed.why?for all the effort put in into their bdays..all i get is some ****** and ****** thing.

so...my conclusion for this yr?NO MORE SURPRISES for frens..not worth my plan..and effort..in other words...no one gets surprises from me..anymore..anytime.i'm sorry.pple expects surprises..but do they even try and do one for someone?i always believe tt if i want something special..i've gotta be one myself first.gee..lesson learnt.tt is so not true..frens dun cherish u as much as u cherish em.so...here goes.yay!managed to get unhappy feelings out of me.finally.i guess i've to thank someone who was super unappreciative bout the person's bday presents...

this person actualy blogged it all out with names mentioned whatsoever...ain't it horrible?yup..because of what he/she typed,i salute the person's frankness and can understand the disappointment.unlike her,no matter wat,i'm still grateful and appreciative of wat my frens give to me on my bday...and i definitely wun give anything away.even if it's of no use to me..even if it's a disappointment.they do put effort into it.however,it really is difficult to exclaim with happinness..when u're truly disappointment.it felt...fake.BUT well...my acting passed i guess..noone has seen it..after these years...i guess..those frens...really truly..didn't understand me enuff...

and i wun expect anything surprising this yr definitely.since this friendship has drifted into a x-1=x-1 friendship.it's fine.i'll move on.i will.even tho i did try again for someone's bday this yr.well...nvm...thank God for a shop..which..allows me to get distracted..somewhere when i can put my energy into...to get away..escape from real life..well..problems.yeah...the shop's all tt i wanna concentrate on.who cares bout friendships gone sour yeah?when old ones die away..there'll always be new ones!yay!Praise God!

i've learnt nv to mention names in blogs.to protect the pple involved,and mine too.so i can't be accused of backstabbing or hurting anyone. :)

thoughts..all blogged out..well..almost!some...to be kept confidential.very.

Public Holiday??

2006-01-10T15:50:00.000Z

haha..yeah....halfway thru the day...i suddenly forgot wat day it was...friday?sat?why so many pple?den i had to slowly count back and den realised..it's a tuesday,a PUBLIC holiday...yes...while most of my frens,family and relatives are taking a break,resting,enjoying their hols...work still goes on for joanna..and mandia was nice enuff to bring her cousin to my shop!!!!whee!!!thk u!!for visiting me!!and for helping me 'po dan'...or 'kai dan'...yeah..1st customer,1st sale for the day...and she'll do the same on sunday yeah??haha..

i've another new found good fren in Bugis street!!!it's so nice to have frens who are really sincere,not competitive,not jealous,helpful when u're at work.she's really nice!heh....and she's the boss of the slipper shop..den i was like telling her...wah..when she's not around..i'm gonna be bored and all..and she said the same thing!!how cool right??really like her and the other lady boss selling those beauty accessories and stuff..she's the one who always paint my nails for free!!and the one who looks out for me too.u guys can learn from this k?i realised...u've to be sincere and to be honest first..before pple soften and get to know u better.but do watch out..some will take ya 'innocence' for granted and try and make u dislike someone they dislike too..cos u still haven gotten to know tt other person.so when u step into the working world,look innocent on the outside...but sharp on the inside.u've to be sly at times...BUT still show the Light of God.He'll lead u...

worked turned out quite fun today.heh...although i still am disgusted at the pple always asking for discounts...i guess..this kinda 'thinking' wun change.but it definitely wun make me be like em.once i find tt the price is reasonable,i'll just buy.sometimes..i get so pissed off with my customers,i'll get angry..serious..and den..i end up not selling em the clothes.heh..

alright...it's been...good...everything's good.a frenship just turned sour today...and i guess...this is an end to a friendship...really disgusted with this fren's attitude...used the frens for personal gain.how selfish.i pray tt tt person wakes up someday.still tot this person was mature for the person's age.well..i'm so WRONG...and i'm nv gonna meet up with this person.it's just too scary..ah well..

God has closed all doors...tt i tried to break...i tried to enter...but one by one..he closed it..w/o giving me a chance to enter.thank you daddy!!for making the right choices for me.

Great SUNDAY!!

2006-01-08T12:56:00.000Z

yup...i finally get to do many many many things besides going to work on a sunday...initially...i really wasn't used to it.i kept looking at my time..and had those 'worrying' feelings tt i had to rush to work and stuff...before getting used to it and relaxing my mind and all.yupyup...

well...after svc today,nothing much..we all went to Treats for lunch..but everyone seemed to be in a very 'pissing' mood.realised it only after estella mentioned it.dunno why also...must be the rain.yup..i was one of those who got super irritated...okie la..cos i was irritated at some pple.really.cldn't stand it.but yup.shan't mention names...or wat event occurred to piss me off.after all,we're one family.i learn to forgive..and let it be.sometimes..gotta learn to give in even if tt person has so many pple giving in to tt person.yupyup...at times..i still abit buay tahan the character and attitude.but we're all made differently...and i just gotta learn to accept lor.who knows..there may be pple who're irritated by me too...yet giving in to me.there's always the good and bad side of everyone.
SO WE'VE ALL GOTTA ACCEPT AND LOVE PPLE FOR WHO THEY ARE YA? just remind yaself of the Father's love. :)

okie..enuff bout tt...after lunch..went to buy estee tang's cake and card!!haha...funky card she got ok!only joanna erhem..can think of such stuff..heh...okie...yup..after hanging ard in church for awhile,went up for dance prac!so glad to be able to join them again after 3months of 'leave' due to work.it's nice doing basic ballet again.haha...realised tt after stopping for so long,stretched become so hard to do again.heh...it's fun!after doing basic ballet,we did some short funky dance steps which agnes took from chicken little..haha..and we danced to the song..er....i forgot the title..but it's by hillsongs.initially,it felt weird..but after orientating myself to the steps,it's actually quite easy and fun to dance to.hahaha...not so 'cutesy' but funky le!!haha
den after doing the funky dance,we did some sorta mime to the song 'dao gao'...very prayful.i hope i remember the steps.heh...

den more stuff to come.dance ended at like 2.30 - 3pm liddat?yeah...den jas and i stayed back awhile to write estee's bday card..haha...after tt we went down to attend the baptism svc for awhile....den went back to the classrom to get ready estee's BIG BIG surprise...i'm glad it worked out.it was sorta hilarious..

first,jas and i were waiting,den we went down to baptism svc,den mandia came and join me with the guys...once again,wait wa a lil wasted...so told the guys to get ready,den we went down to join jas and estee..haha..den...when estee decided tt we can go up le,mandia and i went back first only to realise the classroom celebration was supposed to be was empty.den...we tried the nxt classroom..hahaha..they tried to surprise us..but we already saw those candle burning..hahaha...so all of us continue to hide in silence...after a super long wait..cara managed to drag estee into the classroom...and when we all shouted "SURPRISE!!"...she got a big shock..haha..i'm glad she did...heh....another surprise well done..(this time..it was impromptu too)..estee dear,i'm so sorry everything was so last minute.but yeah!!we did put in loads of effort.really. love ya dearie!

okie..yup..after celebration..had some reception food..den went down to ypm office for our first ever COS 1985 batch gathering...there were 7 of us..but it was fun nevertheless...initially,we were just crapping and chatting...and trying to help joshua go after a girl.haha..hilarious..all of us joining 'forces'..heh...den soon after, we had a game of guessture...it wasfunny,entertaining especially when the words chosen to be guessed were chosen on purpose to make tt person try to act out those funny words.it was especially hilarious when john tried to act out 'fairy' using really weird..erm..expressions and actions..haha...alethea was quite funny too.hahaha...given those words tt cldn't be acted out like 'intelligent'..heh...ya....chris was helpful to be the fair person giving us difficult cards and all..yup yup...definitely hilarious!and he's nice to me!special privileges for being Samson's sister.hahaha....gave me not tt difficult stuff to act.hahahah...
yeah..after like..an hr or half an hr of it,we decided tt we were hungry...haha...it's cool.we had 2 cars,so we like drove to siglap...decided on cafe cartel..and had wonderful food,fellowship and dessert!yeah...okie...so this is abt how my day went.i had fun!did u?

i'm so looking forward to our next gathering.it's really nice...tlaking bout the past and luffing at ourselves doing silly things when we were young..heh...more to come and more joining us soon!
i hope u had a great day as i did! :)

It set me thinking..

2006-01-06T17:07:00.000Z

decided tt it was time to go thru some of my frens' blogs and as i was reading almost all the blogs..gosh!i realised....i've been so out of touch with this world..with wat's going on...and i've not been catching up with em to know wat's been going on in their lives...

gee...jo...u're horrible!time to do some catching..yes!i'll try to squeeze in some time...i'll try...sigh...yes...it got me thinking bout loads of stuff...

wat does it mean to be blessed by God?some pple just have it all...great job...good pay...even with just a diploma...while some..slog hard all their lives..and their pay remains the same?do they have equal blessings?gee...dunno wat got into me...just really curious..some things..i really dun understand..will have to check with my cell leaders..

like opening a shop...blessings come in many forms...u cannot expect God to send the pple to buy from ya shop...God helps u in many other ways..and u still have to work hard for it.Just like studying...if u dun put in some effort,if u dun revise,u'll nv get good grades...

many think tt being a boss is good stuff..sounds good eh?"BOSS!"...wow..but the pressure and stress behind it..yeah...it sounds good with many years of slogging,toiling hard and perseverance...BOSS will sound good in time to go.yup..jo's trying to press on for now.it ain't nice having to worry bout money,and many many things at this age...sometimes..i still CANNOT believe tt it's my shop.YES!opening this shop has made me a lil more absent minded,blur,quiet...and....dunno..hahaha...

but opening this shop has DRAWN me CLOSER to God,has been God experiencing,made me a lil more mature,wiser,and..i dunno..any comments?good or bad?tell me k??i'll LOVE to be ENCOURAGED!

i've NO TIME for dates and commitments!!how how how???haha...pray hard hard for me k?heh...alright..i'm almost done bitching..but PRAISE GOD.yup..He's led me thru many many things..k..i dunno wat i'm typing le..so i think i better end here..

P/S:i'm so happy!i just became God's lil messenger.Spoke something to my fren.and He finally realised why he shld do QT> :D

SMILE...yes...SMILE...

2006-01-06T14:12:00.000Z

i feel.....i dunno...mixed feelings....stunned...shocked at something...it's shocking news...but ah well...some things are better not said.hahaha...

and i think i just found a 'rival in love'..hehehehe....ooh la la..he's got charm man..heh....whee...but i'm so not scared.haha...cos...dunno la..

heh...i've got a good part timer..who makes sure my shop's neat and tidy.haahha..thank God for someone who can't stand 'untidyness'..hehehe...my cute lil part timer..who's like my fren.

Finally!!

2006-01-05T17:28:00.000Z

yeah!!joanna finally got herself a new blogskin..well...it'll be changed every now and den..haha..found so many skins tt i'll love to use.so shld be changing it every month la...every week too fast le.haha...

whee...why this skin?cos..i'm not an adult yet!!haha..better use it before i'm considered an adult.so scary...i dun wanna turn 21 for some particular reasons...and yet..i can't wait to turn 21 so i get to sign cheques!!(no need to keep troubling my dad le!!yay!!!!),register my own company(not under my bro!!whee!!!!) and just be legally 21!!do anything i want..MORE FREEDOM!!woohoo!!!appropriate song to play eh?heh..

y am i SO not looking forward to turning 21??cos...CONFIRM plus gurantee cannot get married by 22 le..haha..but it's okie..i get to attend 3 or more weddings this yr!!so exciting right??can't wait to be part of those weddings!!haha..

right...those who've tagged me..i'm sorry...u'll have to tag again..and tag more k??my tagboard LOVES to get tagged!tag,so dat i know..u were here.wld love to have u 'send ya regards to me'...whee!!

okie..i'm tired..just took a test(wah...cldn't believe tt i was taking a test!haha)...and i'm gonna miss the many pple..heh..okie...sleep now..nitez!

Estee tang..Happy birthday!this entry's late..but happy birthday!love u dear!!

2005-11-26T14:18:00.000Z

this week has been very very bad...yup...i can't believe tt i can break down at least once a week...when before....tears just cldn't roll down.yup..not the sort of gal who'll cry over the smallest matter...or even the worst...but the shop has made me cry...for the good,for the bad and even missing pple..or losing someone..haha....but crying's good.makes one feel better..

monday was the worse sales day..argh!!dun talk bout it le..anyway..my thailand trip has once again been postponed.good and bad...but i guess in a way,i'm glad it's been postponed cos this means i wun been financially tight and more pple can go!!yay!!

sales gradually improved!yup..today...last min,got harry potter late night show..and i really wanted to go...took tt big bold of faith and agreed to go.which means,i've to close shop alot earlier and well...'lose' some money.so i prayed...if i can hit this certain target before 9pm,i'll be able to close earlier and enjoy the movie.ard 7pm..or 8pm...i was still alot away from my target...was beginning to lose faith..haha...but told myself cannot lose faith....wah wah wah.....before the clock striked 9...woohoo!!right on the dot!!!i passed my target with a lil more...praise God!!i was also able to enjoy my dinner with mel!!heh..thks for having late dinner with me!muacks!all in all,it has been an enjoyable evening.

Praise God for the week...the ups and the downs...taught me so much...and still learning alot!

2005-11-21T01:14:00.000Z

wow!!!i can't believe tt there are pple who're still reading my blog..so i've decided tt my blog shld be a place where i can edify,and encourage my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ who'll go thru the similar experiences and find tt they have someone they can relate to whenever they face a similar situation.
Especially to the younger ones,there're realy alot of things u guys have yet to see.

yup....rightz...let me thank God for the wonderful sales tt He has blessed me with....this week and last week's sales have been very unpredictable. It hasn't been as good as the many weeks since my shop opened. But PRAISE GOD i have a prayer answering God, if we asked, we believed and we pray, God will answer our prayers and we just gotta cast our worries upon him.

on Thursday(17 Nov), my sales was super good and i really believe tt God was at work because everyone around me didn't have much sales at all and the day before, my sales could only cover my rent. So........i just wanna thank God for blessing me and for guiding me and for everything he has done for me ever since my shop opened! :)”
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him and he will make your paths straight.” Prov 3:5-6

i've learnt also tt they're pple u really have to be wary of no matter how good they were to u in the first place.always mix with the younger ones.cos our generation still believes in Trust.whereas it's no use trying to win the trust of the older ones.they really GOSSIP,and are super competitive...and....they're the pple u have to really stay away from.take watever they say with a pinch of salt.they're there to sow discord between u and other colleagues.

Being put to the Test..

2005-11-06T22:52:00.000Z

haha....i think i was being put to the test today.yes!sales was so darn horrible...at 7pm..my sales was like only....$6!!!!can u believe it???i've nv done so BADLY before!!!but i continued to trust God,felt it was a test..so prayed...and committed everything to him.

in just 30mins...after 7pm,i was close to the 100 border.and by 9pm,i passed the 100 border a lil bit!!woohoo!!!isn't God amazing??all it took was 2 pairs of gal frens.ya!!hallejuah!!!All Glory to God!!closed the shop at 9pm tho.cos it was too damn sian..and i wasn't feeling too good at tt time le.but still a lil happy la..at least got cross the 100 border..

this weekend,God has really taught me how to really take care of myself..and how my body,being a temple of God's,has to be taken care of.yeah..it's true.i used to wanna fall sick...but now tt i've my own shop..i simply can't afford to fall sick even for an hr.so it's shown me so much.thk u God.today..i feel very happy..dunno why also..haha....heh...okie...

Faithfulness...

2005-11-03T03:05:00.000Z

God's been good.it's been a trying week...but i've learnt and tasted so much of his goodness.thks for all the trials tt's taught me to be stronger..tt's taught me to rely on ya strength...tt's shownme so much and experienced true friendships..pple who're there when u truly needed em to be.

God...thanks for the many visitors u've impressed upon to visit me these few days.greatly encouraged.u're there when i'm happy,there when i'm sad,there when everything just dun seem to be right.but there's still so much more tt i've to learn.

ur plans are always right and...it helped me not to be impulsive.thk u!

my nights have been fun.hanging out....supping....chilling out...woohoo!!!and the great frens i've made in bugis.hahaha....dem listening to me talk bout guys...acting their age and mine put together.hahaha..so fun.let's take cabs together more often again!!whee!!looking forward to another brand new day!

HAPPY BIRHDAY MIAH!!Love ya!!

Leading astray..

2005-11-02T01:39:00.000Z

yup...almost did.supposed to go clubbing with frens...but they decided to go singing instead.so off i went with 2 ladies who're like a decade older den me..and spent the night singing...trying to forget the frens i've gotten to know for years....you dun and wun wanna know wat happened to me.nothing too bad tho.thks for being there for me!!

i guess...we're all in the same boat and it has drawn us closer.past few days have been fun hanging out with my 'neighbours',luffing,chilling out,joking,lazing...talking....all these....only they can be there.they're the ones who can chill out with me..and BOTHERS asking me out.thk u!!den again..u shld say thk u to me too yeah??haha...

and thks for visiting me..pple....altho..i dun seem any much gratful anymore.thks for smsing too!i dunno if u read my blog.but yeah..thks for smsing.i appreciate tt.really.

guess...frens mean alot to me..but yet...i dun mean much to em.call it self seeking...call it self centred...aren't u one yaself?well....it's time i let go...of the many things i once held so dearly.God's still with me..he still loves me...and he has still blessed me with frens who cares!!

Yeo ming!!muahahah...i can't wait to meet up with u for lunch.thks for asking me out!!love catching up with frens.good ol times eh??like nv before.

almost a month...

2005-10-31T01:52:00.000Z

it's been almost a month since i blogged
almost a month since i last attended a ypm service
almost a month since i last hang out with my frens
almost a month since my shop opened
almost a month since i lost touch with everyone...
almost a month since i last did the things i did
almost a month since i last sat in front of my tv
almost a month since i last watched a movie
almost a month since i got to know him...

and i'm so glad tt cos it's almost a month...pple hardly read my blog now.so i can really..truly type out feelings tt suddenly just feel like bursting out.

realised tt ever since i started my biz,i've lost touch with everyone.and i realised now why i'm always so happy whenever frens pop by my shop.cos if they dun pop by,i'll nv be able to meet em up for a chat.it gets pretty lonely at times...knowing ya frens are all out there having fun...and here u are working hard.and the least tt u hope for is to be a social outcast..or to feel left out whenever they talk abt something.yup.tt's how i'm feeling now.left out,alone,emotionally in a pretty bad state,a lil depressed and kinda discouraged.why am i suddenly feeling this way??

i dunno..it's been only a month...and living such mundane lifestyle is a total no no for me.frens simply talk abt everything and anything under the sun,and they just stop asking u out just cos they ASSUME tt u'll be busy at the shop.issit tt difficult to just ask?it's hurtful....and frens seems like...a foreign word to me now.the frens i have now..are the pple i see everyday...frens tt i can joke and luff with,to talk abt sales,help me buy dinner and look out when i need to go to the toilet and to listen to me when i'm down.I'm so glad for em.w/o em...i dunno how i'll ever survive.a 20yr old with the mentality of a 24-30yr old?yeah....being thrown out there in the working world means being forced to grow up in order to clique with pple of a higher mentality.it's difficult.why can't i just be a 20yr old leading a good life?why do i have to persevere?why isn't anyone out there to encourage me?what a re frens for??shldn't they encourage u?pray for u?or send a text occasionally to let u know tt u're being missed?they can talk bout going out,travelling overseas together and not even bother adding u into their conversation.
Why am i always the one giving in?why do i have to agree to give in to pple all the time?the older ones demand their ways,the younger ones just whine their way ahead...i'm 20.i wan attention too.i'm 20yr old...and i want pple to give in to me too.the customers are always right....frens always have other pple to give in to em.landlord's gf has landlord to give in to.shldn't this be a give and take?why am i always giving in?i'm so tired of it.and i guess tt's what sparked all tt i've been controlling for goodness knows how long.and it started all becos of colour gone wrong.i can't believe tt i got pissed and upset just cos i didn't get the one i wanted.yes!it sounds childish and i sounded petty.but why does everyone gives in to her?who is she tt deserves such a great bf?who is she tt deserves such attention which makes her even more detestable!who is she tt deserves everything she wants?yes..i sound jealous,i sound envious.but why shldn't i?
nv in my life has my frens given in to me...cos they really wanna give in.yes...they gave in..for the fear of me getting pissed.sad isn't it?nv in my life have i received a shocking surprise to know tt i'm being appreciated.nv in my life have i truly gotten something i really like by my frens(whom i tot wld know wat i'll love).yes..the things i get,the things i want....they were all given to me by myself.sad.wat are frens?i'm truly beginning to question this again.who exactly are my true frens?who're the frens who'll truly be there when u need em to be?who're the ones who knows when u need a shoulder to cry on?have i start to let the scar open again?

yup...i know..i shldn't let all these affect me spiritually.but it does hurt to know tt u've been left out in so many things....so many events.

Thks jon and ka mun!!for remembering me and asking me along in the ice cream party even tho i cldn't make it.i really appreciate tt both of u always remember me even when u're busy with so many stuff.thk u!i'm really touched.mel tham...thks for remembering tt i went to bangkok,and asked abt me even tho u've been busy with work and performances.thks for always visiting me despite ya busy schedules.days when u were ard made me happier,didn't feel so lonely and very encouraged by ya presence.it has indeed brought us closer.thk u!!cos when u're there,i truly have someone to talk to and to listen to me.thk u!

it's been a trying time...and i'm at this point where i'm so tempted to be led astray...hang out with guys who shower me with so much attention and just simply date anyone tt comes by.and i guess God knows what i'm going thru.and he's put a stop to a lot of things which has made me even more pissed.i'm hanging in there..and i'm trying to press on.i'm trying to hold on to my faith.i'm trying not to let go.i'm praying hard alot.

phew...feel better now.yippie!!all out!!i've 'puked' em out.no mopre rubbish! :)

2005-10-04T00:00:00.000Z

jo's been too lazy to update her blog.hahaha....so..wassup??well...joanna's been busy last week with shop preparations..now..it's up and open!!woohoo!!!i'm so excited!!can't wait to print out my namecard!!haha..it's BEAUTIFUL!!erhEm...and PINKY!!heh...God's been good!yup..have experienced so much of Him when the shop's just 3days old!All Glory to Him man!!
last week..ypm had an outreach..initially...i was quite hesistant to do the dance....Questions tt popped into my mind: why are we dancing??issit cos they have no programmes den ask us to dance?WHy so last min??issit a last resort??wat were we dancing for??i just cldn't bring myself to look forward to dancing..it just felt as if i was just gonna go up stage and do a performance.
so..i kept reflecting on the song's lyrics...tried to link it to the outreach's theme...tried to get myself focused..and excited bout evangelising thru tt dance...but cldn't do it..nope..till sat itself..during rehearsal..yup.and as i did the dance..i was actually..smiling..very excited.Cos God brought me thru alot tt day itself..and tt song actually linked to the theme and stuff!!so...when it was time to dance...i did it with a smile..very grateful for such a wonderful God tt i have..who's brought me thus far..woohoo!!yes!!TESTIMONY!!hehehe..alright...come visit me soon!!

Happily Tired...

2005-09-18T23:03:00.000Z

yup..this week's been rather relaxing...yet tiring especially during my weekend.
friday was spent going to my travel agency early in the morning..to collect my air ticket..den..i went for my facial (tt made me more refreshed and relaxed)..and after i went for lunch,shopped ard a lil...and headed home for a short nap and shower before going for prayer mtg.supper...did it end late??i dunno leh..but i think i was too tired i slept at 1am when i was supposed to be packing my room.haha..

den on SATURDAY..it was the MID AUTUMN OUTREACH!!i felt really excited albeit a lil weary...but this outreach has blessed me so much..i just wanted to bless others in return.i felt so relaxed thruout everything..from the first day i started rehearsing with the old folks..till the very last performance.This grp of old pple..didn't know who i was..who my family members were(except a few) and thus..i didn't feel as if i had to live up to a certain expectation.i was given the freedom to just be the way i am..not feel as if i'm being judged..and these old folks are way too friendly..it just makes u happy even tho language was a slight barrier..just a smile towards each other and the sincerity can be felt.even working with those who knew my dad pretty well..i didn't feel any pressure..neither did i felt like there was some sorta generation gap.it's just so cool...being able to communicate to these adults like as if they're ard ya age.yup..we had fun terasing each other..making a fool out of ourselves..haha..i'm nv gonna forget all these enjoyable moments.
i'm gonna miss co-working with all these pple..well..more opportunities to come i'm sure!!

pple like keith aka Kok leong and auntie lucy whom i had a misconception of in the past...are actually fun loving pple...very open to alot of ideas and discussion...and i'm glad i gave em a 'chance'..haha...and so many of my misconceptions were replaced by good impressions.it's made me a happier person simply just by not judging pple...and be quick to change my mind when ever i've a bad impression of someone.Thank God for giving me this love tt's been changing...and helping me accept pple who's been irritating me...or i simply can't get along with.i'm happy everytime i'm able to talk to someone i NV cld have talked to.

yup..okie..going to china in a few hres time..so i better go pack..and watch tv!!see ya on friday!!hehe..miss all of ya!!

work free..sch free...

2005-09-12T21:58:00.001Z

heh..had my pedicure today..so fun....not as relaxing as when i did it in marine parade..think i'll go back to em again...they're better and friendlier.but nevertheless it's always fun when done together with a fren.hehehe....yay!!!love going for mani and pedicure sessions!!they're always so relaxing.will go for my facial on thursday.heh....cool!!!

soon..i think i'll prob dye my hair.haha...it's been black for awhile..hmm..shld i cut it???nah..think i'll leave it long for awhile longer.

i miss my AGENT!!!!heh..lam thinks he's not bad la..so yay!!i'm not the only one who think he's attractive.he's got nice eyes,sharp nose..lips...not too thick.i concluded..today..hahaha..and good sense of dressing.very presentable.not too guai looking also.abit 'pai' kinda look.not bad.i like.heh....but well....not christian.so i dun like.but i miss him!!hahaha...i wanan see him again!!okie.full stop.not gonna talk bout him le.

this is a great start...love this week.loads of clothes to wash!!hahaha....okie la...still get to relax also.realised tt i'm not one who can work for someone.cos of many reasons.wah!!!i really love my pedicure.hahahaha.....okok..i shall not sound so bitchy and arrogant.sorry pple!!
but i'm just really happy tt i finally get to spend a lil more on myself..to be pampered...u guys will get a chance one day too.when u start working.love ya!!

lam and i decided: NO MORE MARCHE hahah.....

see see.....shu and moses..better decide who was at fault ah..heh..but den again..it's not ALL abt the food.it's abt the fellowship.going STarbucks after tt was cool too.love chilling out!!let's chill out again.like at cheesecake cafe.long long no do tt le..sat was great too!!yay!!see ya all soon!!!chill out pals!!

work free..sch free...

2005-09-12T21:58:00.000Z

Weekend!!!!!

2005-09-10T09:57:00.000Z

yeah...had a great start yesterday night!!was blessed again!!!
yupyup...it wa my last day at work yesterday....but the start of a brand new business soon!!and yes..daddy says i've to sacrifice 1 month and go work there on my own first.so...joanna's gonna be busy for the 1st month.well..tt's alright.as compared to the many free time i'm gonna have.yippie!!!
and yes..God's been directing me thru it all.Prayed tt if the rent is lowered,tt's like a sign. I got the rent lowered to what i asked for...however,even after rent was lowered,i was still short of cash.i prayed tt if it's God's will,God will send the person whom my dad had in mind to spare me some.and YES!!!!!!IT WAS ANSWERED!!!!!!!when dad knew of my intentions to set up my own biz,he said he had someone in mind who can spare me some cash...but he's know gonna ask and if it's God's will,God will speak to the person personally.I wa about to lose hope..and rebuked myself a couple of times to have faith.haha...yup!thank God!!Prayer answered!!God's been faithful..always has,always is and always will be.i believe tt since he has opened the doors,he'll bless my business too.which means u guys are gonna patronise my stall!!hahaha....thk God!!

yesterday's prayer mtg was good also.very encouraged.haven been joining em for prayer for quite some time.so i felt very happy!!haha..yeah..and went for supper twice with 2 grps of pple.woohoo..and dad and mum didn't say anything.yay!!but i wun abuse the freedom i've been given.yupyup..know my limits.too often and my curfew confirm set again..muahahha..den again...when i start the biz,i'm gonna be reaching home late.haha...alright....great sat..gotta prepare to head towards fairfield methodist.yippie!!!

I'm So Loved..

2005-09-07T01:02:00.000Z

as Shu said..."u're so loved"...yup..i nv realised it until she said it..and when i reflect back on all the blessings i've received...indeed...i'm loved.how much more can i ask for.It's really "so blessed..i can't contain it..so MUCH i gotta give it away"...

just like these past few days...when the new goods arrived,jas was there to help me unpack...when i had to remove all the old clothes and tag,restock,come up with SKUS for the new batch..andrea came to drop me a visit.thanks ladies!!u guys were 'suay'..haha...but the help is very MUCH APPRECIATED!!andrea,w/o ya help today ah...i think i'll definitely have gone home later le.thks alot!!!now..u're a certified WIFE,Mother who knows how to fold clothes!!hahaha

time flew really quick with all the work..it's been fun,very experiencing working with Brise De Joie...
ooh..guess wat blessings i had today??

The organic cafe treated me to some pork ribs..haha..cos my fren there kept telling em wat i'm very hungry,and i'm all alone in the shop with so much to do.(i dunno wat exactly she said la)..but yeah..they treated me.i'm so touched!!den in the morning,when the yoghurt wasn't ready,the chef treated me to their expensive,nice biscuits.wah!!and i had 2 yoghurt today!!hehe..too nice la..today's!heh...

so blessed.I've such a supportive family..who're all behind me...in watever i do....frens who cares so much for me....thk u all who's been to the shop to drop by..despite ya busy,tiring schedules and even those who cldn't visit me but made sure their fam members drop by to ask if i'm alright alone in the shop..and even regular customers who're concerned and offered to buy my meals for me!!

yeah..i actually built up a customer base liao leh..it's gonna be sad to not be able to serve them when they visit again..and i'm sure they'll be disappointed not to see me too.but i hope tt they'll still buy from the shop.heh...it's cool..having customers who remember u..and want only u to serve em..or ask for u when they visit the shop.really..u guys..shld try working retail someday..tho working hrs are tiring...the achievements are fulfiling. SmileS!!

Monday blues???Stay Cool!

2005-09-06T00:05:00.000Z

hahaha..someone sent me an sms a week or two back to stay cool when having the Monday blues.so sweet hor??

heh....yeah..almost got the Monday blues due to a lack of rest...and because there was insufficient sleep,it caused my memory to suffer from oxygen..therefore..i became forgetful..and because i was forgetful...i forgot my HP...and because i forgot my HP....i cldn't contact Jasmine or find out wat time she'll be 'visiting' me...and because i forgot my HP..i didn't know if Christina was gonna turn up(thankfully,she did).haha..Jasmine's arrival..is also God Sent man!!haha..sorry Jas...u had to work on ya off day...yeah..so why was she God Sent?cos half the batch of new arrivals arrived today..muahahahha.....and we both concluded tt....the clothes are...hahahahaha....NO COMMENTS. right jas?heh...thanks man!!if she didn't come..i dunno how long i wld've taken to unpack.haha..not bad hor??u got to see wat's gonna sell in the shop soon.hahahahahaha....i'm DEFITNITELY NOT gonna buy anymore...heh...wait til we go and shop together ok??yay!!i can't wait leh!!first time going abroad..my FIRST OWN buying trip...and yes!!my dearest Jas may most probably be going with me.haha..not bad right??just pay for air ticket,shopping expenses and maybe abit of the food.cool ah??hehe...i'm excited!!the breakfast buffet at the hotel ah..although it's the same everyday..it's very nice.gotta try it!!

alright...no yoghurt today..(thank u mandia,ONCE AGAIN,for buying for me..if not..it'll be 4days no yoghurt!!haha..had the soup tho..i still prefer the brocolli soup out of all the many i've tried and tasted.hahaha...)but the promised me yoghurt tom!!yippie!!working full most prob tom..long day...okie..back to chatting.ciaoz!!

*p/s: Mel,i still wanna eat peanut paste.my fren's gonna jio me le..hahaha..but i dun wanna meet him.so let's quickly eat it soon k??heheCiaoz!

Sundays....weekends??

2005-09-04T22:53:00.000Z

weekends have once again..become really busy..and tiring....all thanks to the mid autumn outreach tt's coming up in 2 weeks time.
Gonna be asking my grandparents to watch the outreach.Really praying tt they'll just take tt first step to saying yes.i dun care even if they do not accept Christ tt day..den again..i may feel disappointed but well..it's good at least tt they come and watch yeah?

i nv seem to have nothing to learn from the folks from cantonese service.wearing those opera costumes...sitting quietly,waiting patiently for tt few mins of 'fame',applying horrible,thick,ugly makeup...these folks nv seem to complain tt they look ugly,fat,or tt the costume's heavy or making them super hot.all they do..is to wait for their turn.
Whereas a young gal like me..is constantly complaining tt the costume makes me look fat and ugly.(well..thankfully my makeup's pretty much alright).yup...but..really..they've an attitude tt serves w/o complaining.every time i see these old folks,i just feel very happy..and whenever i see they need help or anything...i'll just volunteer my services.haha..they're so nice..so giving..and they rehearse and rehearse again and again w/o complaining lor...den every week..sure got pple sponsor something for tea break one.so sweet hor??

was looking at the two old men cleaning their makeup...ain't an easy task..but they just did it w/o even complaining how yucky those stuff were.i'm gonna learn to nv complain everytime i've any rehearsal.
Although i'm beginning to feel tired le...i'm just relying on Daddy to give me supernatural strength.Started dancing months before sonicfest...den came busy June with camps and mission trips....followed by actual Sonic Fest..den came rehearsals and practices for Celebration SUnday..which again,took up my weekends...nxt came Celebration Sunday..and now,when i thought all's almost over..with the mid autumn festival outreach nearing,joanna and jasmin..just took up another dance performance.haha..for Christmas.another chinese dance..but this time,it's gonna be choreographed by some professional.woah...confirm not easy one.cos posture,movements all these sure need to be more accurate.haha..i'm scared...but excited too!!and definitely tired.man!!...
and i just realised,gotta help estee with thanksgiving dance.estee,better give me the song soon!!if not..u know..i'm really bad at choreographing...but i'll really like to try and learn..so..tell me soon ok??

alright..back to chatting with frens!!

my thoughts....

2005-09-03T22:33:00.000Z

hmmm.....will i ever be like shannon in Boy meets gal and cry everytime the guy doesn't notice me??
i also dunno leh...but nvm....i'm happy..single.
we all are..aren't we???hahaha...

while most pple are happily getting attached...or getting all sad,broken cos of problems arising in their r/s...or just broke up..sometimes,we just gotta give thanks for being yakid.
den again..dun worry...fret not..cos ur time will come..and u'll wish u;re single all over again..so stay happy single for now ya?

i also dunno why im posting this...but i'm just really happy.haha....happy over alot alot alot of things la....so..just write rubbish...okie..bye..

Count Ya BLEsSings...

2005-09-03T01:03:00.000Z

there's so many things to be thankful for...got my pay today..after deducting CPF...i didn't get much in the end...disappointing...dunno how long it'll last me...but i'm just gonna thank God..and live by faith.it wun be for long.heh...

yeah..so..shu came on wed....den my cousin RUTH came to visit me today..so nice!!!yup..it's been some time since the 2 of us spent some time alone together le...but we didn't really get to talk much tho.nvm..more opportunities to come!!haha...just glad to see u today. :)

i'm tired...i am..but yet..excited..happy...

cos it was supper again today!!hahaha....with doreen,matt,shu and TOBY (who scared me most of the time..haha..)..wah...dad's been really good to me this week...i've been going out for sups too often this week..but he nv like nag at me...yay!!!freedom is HERE...i guess it's cos i'm responsible enuff to let him know i'll be home later also..so i guess he's fine so long as he knows where i am.thanks for trusting me!!i'll definitely not break tt trust u guys have in me.yupyup..wun lie to u all le.too old for tt!haha..

was talking to matt on our way home...hmm..and i realised how amazing growing up can be.Lil things in life,the part and parcels of growing up...weird stuff and being an older sis gave me so much opportunities to bond with my parents.not easy especially when one knows it's a step mother,step daughter kinda relationship.Our r/s definitely wasn't a smooth sailing one.God,thanks for all the ups and downs tt have brought us closer..her sharing stuff with me..and both of us simply just buying clothes for each other.yupyup...but am i ready to call her mum?i dunno..I'm just trusting in u oh God.some scars have been left behind..but i know.tt u're gonna heal them.take those scars away from me.

heh...i'm just super happy today la...lalaalalallala....shan't say why....cos work was good...haha..nono..i'm excited bout a new project coming up!woohoo!!watch out..for more UPDATES!!heh

Midweek

2005-09-01T00:54:00.000Z

wow...i seem to have loads of time to blog nowadays..haha..and i nv seem tired at all..hmmm....Thanks God!for the supernatural strength tt u always give to me!!

today's been good.i'm so touched lor!!i was supposed to work full shift today....but last min,only need to work 6pm onwards.haha...had i started work at 11,i wld have met jane low,sharon,eeling and shu!!wah...so many pple leh!!so sorry to the 1st 3 tt i didn't get to meet but i really appreciate the fact tt u guys came down specially (not sure bout Jane haha)to see me.i'm really touched and ya efforts are really appreciated.
Eeling: thanks for the cake!!wah!!it's very VERY VERY nice leh....super dark chocs!!mmm....i think i better go jogging tom.haha...

yes!!my tudi,Amandia TEH likes the ORGANIC yoghurt too!!hehe..i'm such good influence..when it comes to health food!!haha...hmm...i had tt yoghurt again today.heh....but i sure still gain wt one..cos after closing the shop, Shu (btw,she came to visit me after work..haha..she has so much favour!!more of tt later on) and i went to meet sean,cal and matt for supper!!we went to newton..hehe....had so much fun chatting,laughing and fellowshipping with Shu when we were in the train.heh...u're so cool ya know gal?love ya!!

and i realised...tt nowadays...everyone seems to be talking bout relationships and singles seem to be getting all worried and stuff..but ya know wat?i'm not worried at all.Yakid!enjoy singlehood!!yes..pastor prince's "choosing a life partner" sermon has blessed me so much..i really can learn to trust God and smile when talking to attached pple.yayness!!so singles out there,dun worry k??it will come to u eventually...nono...Guys..u've to look ok?heh...yeahknow wat's the coolest thing??haha..joanna..being quite inexperienced in r/s seems to be a love adviser,listener and 'counsellor' this week.it seems as if God wants me to practice wat i've read and heard into practice.yes..it so happens tt 3 guys called to chat and tell me bout the r/s probs.haha...yes..i listened..and of cos..i cldn't give em much advise,just well..tell em what i've read,listened and feel lor.guys,dun worry k?things will eventually work out one.smiles!!

yes...now..let's talk bout shu's favour.heheh...wah...she came only,i closed 3 HIGH sales lor...woohoo!!yes!!today,sales hit ROCKET high for once in a MIDWEEK.ever since BRISE DE JOIE took over,our weekday sales has nv hit very high before.today was...UNBELIVEABLE!!praise God.favour of God.yes..things are taking a change..(er..sorry...eng quite bad)...i'm super happy!!cos so far,i've nv closed any good sales before.but i did today...3 sommore!so praise God!!yay!!okie...stop blogging!!or the post will be too long!!heh...ciaoz pple!!

Always Praise God.
i've learnt to pick myself up with every fall i have.yup..falling downs are times when u need God to pick u up!!

Monday...

2005-08-29T23:52:00.000Z

eh...actually...i got like alot of things to type one leh...but stm..hhaa...

well..estella very cute ah!!haha...she's concerned for my 'bladder'..how sweet...so...she made sure tt her mum drop by to visit me whenever she's in Century Square in case i need to rush to the toilet.haha...Thanks estella!!lubs lubs!!haha..den aunty mei kuen also..super cute..the first thing she asked me when she saw me was "do u need to go to the toilet?"..haha...thk u!!for remembering to drop by!!appreciate it!!she even left her number with me so in case i'm super urgent and need someone to look after the store,i can give her a call.wah!!i tell u..i wanna be a tai tai like her!!so cool leh...can meet up with frens..have a cuppa KOPI..haha....cool!!nxt time,we'll all be liddat k??in like..hmm...10-20yrs time.hehe...

cool cool..dad shared with me today..told me to pray bout the biz thingy.those who know bout my plans,keep me in prayers k?really hope things work out.I'm just gonna trust in God.if i have to work full time,i'll do it!so far...i've not stuck to a job for more den a yr..yet God's been leading me and showing me alot of opportunities.yeah!!Praise God for his blessings and directions!!and praise God for frens who cares!!yippie!!i Have so much LUBS in my Life..haha..it's time i share this LUBS with pple who wants some of it!!hehehe....Love ya pple!!!

2005-08-27T22:43:00.000Z

oh man!!!God's too good to me!!hahaha....besides the internship..i've got another job offer!!!one tt's PR,and comes with an Ibook for work..as well..as training!!!and for some 'prestigious' company!!wah!!!!how??pls pray tt i'll make the right decision k??
God..thanks!!for always giving me so many job opportunities.it's like..i nv need to find it..thk u daddy!!

oh..and to my parents who'll nv read my blog..haha....thks for being so supportive of watever i've been doing the past year,even tho i haven been able to give ya guys any allowance..i know u all are always praying for me...and i know i've always made u all worried..esp academically.but thks for nv condeming me..or...forcing me to further my studies!!thk u!!
i promise u guys tt u'll lead a way too comfortable life soon!!if God permits!!love ya dad...and mum...and mummy up there!!

Tired...happy?guess so...

2005-08-27T22:25:00.000Z

okie....for those whom i've asked to go read my blog..it's the entry below this ok??in case u haven read it.pls tag if u've read it k??so i know u've read!heh...

okie...ya..i'm feeling very tired..haven been getting enuff sleep.argh!!!went for supper with lam and tan last night..haha...it was quite cool la...one of the few times i went out late w/o my bro!!it's time i became independent.dad's quite relaxed with me going out late nowadays too.yupyup...yay!!thank God for a dad who understands.as i was reading Boy meets gal...it's really cool.yupyup...i guess there're many aspects to dating,courtship tt i really learnt from it.Like how the guy shld ask permission from the gal's dad before he court her.i guess....tt's something i hope my future whoever will do too.so cool.i wld definitely love my parents to be part of everything even if i'm not tt close to em.yup.wld really wan my dad to approve before i start courtship.heh..i'm praying,dad!!
Joseph prince's sermon is very good also.another aspect of choosing a life partner is covered.i've learnt so much and yeah!!i'm really enjoying my singlehood.even tho i still hope to get marry at 22 or 23,i WILL NOT jump into any r/s just to get married(it's quite dumb...isn't it?)..haha..yupyup....in His time. :)

yeah...talk halfway..haha..after supper(which was abt 115 when i reached home)..i went online...happened to chat with him....den when he said he was to go to sleep,he called me.dotz...yup....it's different this time.i'm talking to him as a fren..no more...other feelings.not interested in him and i know it's not possible.but i'm really glad tt we can still be frens.

had to work the morning shift today...almost cldn't wake up ah!!!thank God yan ling was up and abt..and she reached super early!heh...got to know her even better today.she's so sweet.i love her!hah....i've so many sweet,gentle frens.hahaha...now..why am i not liddat??ah...tt's cos i'm joanna.I'm UNIQUE!hahaha....okok...ya...i'm tired.

cell was quite..well...quite little members turned up.but i'm glad it went well today.the cake was super easy to divide..and everyone took part,enjoyed the games.i do hope tt they learnt something despite the fun.haha...God,thanks for the creativity.W/o u,i'll nv be able to incorporate fun with the word.thk u!!

dinner was fun..i still wanna eat my peanut paste!!(oh man!!i sound so jasmine!haha)...yeah.....who wants to go chinatown??tell me ok???oh..u can always drop by the shop with peanut paste!!haha...i'll appreciate!!heh...yeah...chinatown's got better peanut paste.alright..i'm off to take a shower,wash my clothes..and go to bed. *yaWnz*

Happiness Day 3!!!

2005-08-27T01:40:00.000Z

maybe i shld term it as..."am i still dreaming?"...haha...ya....last week...was a week of heartache,bitterness and loads of raindrops.haha....was horribly bad.cldn't be worse...
but i guess God has taken all tt pain..

this week...felt more like....i'm in dreamland..(somebody pinch me...although Shu has already pinched me.hahah)YA!!everything seemed to happened this week.haha...after i dreamt of guy A...the very next day..he actually called...den i was talking bout guy B to someone...the next day..well...he added me to friendster...haha..it's like..woah....watever can turn out right...just went well...till now...i'm still trying to accept alot of facts.haha...

and this week...God sent me 2 SWEET,WONDERFUL,BEAUTIFUL,PATIENT angels.haha..yes.just when i needed company,needed someone to get my dinner for me...suddenly,Andrea...appeared...and den...estee came and visit me.wah!!my 2 dearies...i really thank God for the 2 of u.seriously.those days when u gals visited me,there i was hoping tt someone i know wld drop by (cos my neighbouring frens either went home already or was off for tt day and i wasn't tt close to any other neighbouring frens)..u guys..just popped by last min.haha...thank God man..if not,i'll probably just suffer more gastric pains,and control my bladder.hahaha...i'm amazed at how God sent the 2 of u down lor.haha....the company given to me was sweet..memorable.

Andrea:u're like a lil sis to me now.haha..realy...this week has brought me closer to u.heh..and i guess..tt ur post..cld prob be talking bout me.well..in a way..thk u,for tt reminder.needed it...in another way...u still have alot to learn,see or hear before u know wat i really went thru.but u're a sweetie!!i love u!!

Estee:thks for tt wonderful evening man.i really really really enjoyed tt night.i mean...we've nv really talked bout such serious stuff before right??yeah..and u still smsed me today...sowing ya concern after i knock off and all.thanks dear!!Get well soon k??

Sean:haha..dunno why suddenly this week like keep talking tou.but thanks for well..consoling me..the chocs..and just being there and showing ya concern,smsing me...and all!thk u!!i'm praying..for ya future!! ;)

Shu:Thks for ur encouragement..even tho i think u dunno what happened to me..and know not wat's going on.thk u!!for ya sms as well..and also for chatting,crapping and talking to me on MSN.today was fun!wasn't it??haha...yeah...let's catch up again soon!!i think what we discussed today..i felt was really cool.being able to open up and share all the worries and fears.haha..more such nights to come k??whee!!!..

Matt:thks for clearing some stuff up with me in person.thks for always looking at joanna from another angle.u've nv judged me...nor 'despised' me despite my rebellious nature.thk u!!for ya patience,ur guidance and always praying and listening and sharing.u've truly brought me closer to God.U're indeed a servant of God.thk u!!continue to Shine for Him!!

Doreen:haha..dunno if u prayed..but if u did,thk u!!

Calvin Low:haha...the ever sensitive guy..who seems to know when i'm pissed.thks for sharing verses with me.u're really patient and u've truly grown alot ever since ignite.i'm so glad to see u so IGNITED!!keep tt fire!!!u're a great leader to be!!!woohoo!!!

okie..did i miss out anyone?if i did...i'm sorry...have too many who were there for me le.
and i really wanna appreciate the many who've been ever so patient with me..especially thru my down periods.i'm still learning...still pressing on.Something tt marrissa taught me:Never Give Up and Never Give In.
thk u everyone...for loving me!!i'm indeed loved and i wanna share this love in return.i'm always here for u guys!!love ya all!!!

HAPPINESS DAY 2!!!

2005-08-25T23:35:00.000Z

yeah...i'm still over da moon...

prob cos ESTEE TANG came to visit me today!!!yay!!thanks for 'pei-ing' me today.i'm so glad u came.it's been such a long time since we cld just have such chats eh???wah....really thank God for the opportunity.really feel closer to u again!!heh....yupyup...and we had so much to share with each other..haha..nxt time..if u 3 come together,all can go try clothes for fun!!haha..but really,i'm so glad u came!!heh...when u left the cab,i suddenly felt..very quiet..it was weird having to stop talking and listening all of a sudden!!hahaha....more to come!!yayness!!

yes.i think tt's what kept me happy.haha...

yeah...and i prayed to God just now.yay!!i feel so close to Him again.yup...i'm beginning to stop bearing any grudges,any disappointments...and just give glory..give thanks...have a heart of a servant,to worship Him.loads of things tt i'm still learning,i'm still growing...just like anyone else.God's taking away all my bitterness,He's healing all the pain tt noone knew..noone cld understand...and He's making me a cheerier person...someone more bubbly.he's teaching me how to let go of all the things i once held so close to.yupyup...

welll..i had yoghurt today...i guess it made me happy too!!haha..their soup and biscuit also not bad leh!!die..now i'm an ardent fan of the organic cafe selling ORGANIC(if u didn't know) food opposite my shop.ahha...i buy the soup and yoghurt like almost everyday.hehhe..

and someone...i let go of 2months back....cos of religion..well...called me today...just cos i send him some forward sms last night.but i'm happy..and i really hope tt we can still remain just frens.i hope he's not harbouring any hope.although we get along well...i know..i'll nv say yes.yupyup...i'm glad he called.cos we really click so well.so..another happy 'event' today!!hehe...
oh...and a big THANK YOU to all who was there for me when i was down...sad,crying.thanks for well...listening and just taking watever i said into consideration!have a great retreat although i'm still 'sore' bout it!!haha...see ya all on sat!!

2005-08-25T00:37:00.000Z

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Over da moon!!!

2005-08-25T00:02:00.000Z

wat makes joanna happy??for now...it's YOGHURT!!!hahaha...and it's gotta be organic.yeah..i hated the taste the first time i ate it...haha..but i dunno why..i ordered it again..and den again and den again..and before i know it....i'm addicted!! tu Di!!!u must go try okie????it's healthy and definitely not fattenin!!and it's NICE!!!!!hmm....i wanna eat it now!!haha..

yeah yeah...besides this...wat makes joanna happy??of cos!!it's my heavenly father!!although there're many pple..who upsets me now...although i've been hurt and stuff...my God remains ever faithful..he's been speaking to me...thru many pple who dunno what i'm going thru.He knows my name..he knows my every thought,he sees each tear tt falls...and he hears me when i call.
How ttrue...are these words...crying...hurts...definitely!!and it makes me ugly..but at the same time,after crying,it makes me feel better...and cheerier...yeah!!so now..i'm up and bouncing!!i'm not gonna be affected by the many 'politics' i hear bout ldrship every where...i'm not gonna care if i'm never appreciated.i'm gonna shine for Jesus.it's not gonna be easy..alot of things tt i see...i know will hurt me..it's definitely gonna be painful...disappointed.yeah...still am...but..God takes em all away..

i spoke to levita just now.was so encouraged!!it's amazing how 2 very diffferent in 2 very far country can click..and encourage one another although we aren't able to update each other often.God really uses us..in amazing ways!!she'll encourage me..while i encourage her..haha..
i miss L-Mar....dea:J.R...called me on sat!!hah!!but den.....i didn't call him back..jealous jealous??k la..i know u're not..u got ya jet jet le..hahaha...poor J.R...

I'm happy

2005-08-23T00:19:00.000Z

yeah...i'm totally happy

work's been tiring...really really praise God....felt tt it's meaningless for me to be working there when i can always go look for an office job and have my weekends free..and guess wat??my fren's telling me bout this good job offer!!!but u know wat??joanna's nv written any cover letter or resume before.haha..oops oops!!nvm..if this job's for me,God will open doors.pray for me k??it sounds good.my fren's worknig there as well.

Happy BiRthDay Jas!!

2005-08-21T23:24:00.000Z

hahahaa...another year of surprises for u eh??u very lucky hor!!dun care ah..nxt yr..on my 21st u better plan a BIG surprise for me ah...
haha..glad u like ya presents.....alot of ya surprises were super last min planned one la...haha...so...here's to another yr of our friendship as wel!! *hUgz*

well..today's been a hectic day...after svc....went for teochew 'mui'...very nice..and i think we were blessed.they charged us cheaper den expected i assumed.then we went to parkway..walk ard for awhile before heading to uncle daw ching's hse for another round of food..and jas and i had to rush back for practice.hmmm..it was super..amzing man!!i mean..auntie dolly,jas and i were kinda slack dancing today..since 'bo cheng hu'..haha...but it actually turned out quite nice and quite organized amidst the many missing parts tt cldn't be filled up...and all the laughing when the steps were different.Praise God.i'm sure it'll definitely be nicer the next time the whole team comes together.

yeah..after the prac..i still had to rush down to work..was a total waste of my time man..haiz..shan't elaborate much.had a talk with matt over some stuff..still unsolved,unclear..but...cool...

haha...jas....ur night ended super well right??hahaha...okok...shall go on chatting with my frens now le...ciaoz!!Happy Birthday once again!!!

2005-08-20T00:16:00.000Z

we came...we left...disappointed.
issit time for me to move on??
my tears seemed free for the week.anyone want some??i've too much to spare.

Is this a time of breakthrough?
wat's gonna happen after this period?
is this my BIGGEST obstacle of all??
or issit an attack from the evil one??
wat's wrong??
wat's going on?
why does everything seem to go wrong?
why do i seem so sensitive all of a sudden??
am i looking for this 'love' tt's gone?
wat am i searching for??
I want to move on...butthe road ahead...it seems so hurting...

Girly??tt's not me!!!

2005-08-19T01:14:00.000Z

why am i feeling this way?
why am i doing all these??
what do i gain from doing it?

oh no...why am i crying?
why have i suddenly gone all so girly?
no..it can't be..
i can't cry..
i've to be strong...

i'm doing it all for the Lord's glory..
i won't get affected.
i wanna praise His name...
i'm trying...
i'm not gonna cry....
no...no...stop..joanna...stop!!!

Wed or Thurs?

2005-08-17T23:39:00.000Z

oh man!!!i keep thinking today's thursday....yeahs....work's getting me all confused...the 'sianest' part is i've to work on sat and sun after pracs and stuff!!can u believe??sundays are like my most tiring days la...all those rehearsals...den still gotta work.when i was promised weekends are off.argh!!wat's most sad is tt i wun get to spend quality and fun fun times with my crazy pals this weekend le!!nvm babes!u guys..make sure u all luff and be siao siao ah!!!so sad..can't be there to join u all.i always look forward to my weekends one u know.ah well..this is only temporary.till we find a PT.hehe...
heh..can't wait to upload the pics.yes...Shu,dun worry..i'll upload it and change my blogskin soon ok??

hehe..i miss the BREAD with a capital B.haha..really very nice hor??maybe i shld buy it to work and eat.oh man!!so fattening!!haha...

okie..work..well..it's been rather quiet these few days..we concluded tt pple are 'pantang'...cos it's the 7th month!!bleah!!as if bad things will happen.if so,Public Holidays le!!dots....these pple ah...really lor...come know God la..yup...but we've been busy with our stock taking,skuing and tagging and stuff...wah...seriously..not as easy as days when i was working in Robinsons.When tagging is done in Robinsons,it's so u can 'jia zhua' and waste time..but in ya own shop,it's totally a 'no time' to do thing cos u've to serve the customers or lose the sales.oh..and i found out..nearby..sells VERY NICE HAR KOW!!!!oh man!!i'm gonna eat it again!!hehe..u pple who stay nearby..drop by to say hi to me k?i'll give ya all discounts too!!hehe...
alright...time for me to..idunno..relax??hehe

Updates..

2005-08-13T23:24:00.000Z

After tuesday..i didn't get high anymore...a lil..on sat evening...haha...hm.let's see..
Brise De Joie opened on thursday...biz tt day was horrible..but thankfully..it picked up on Friday.yay!!yup..was pretty much tired...darn..now i have to like make sure i look presentable enuff before i set off.seriously,i HATE dressing up.i wished..i was born with the looks and all..ah well...no one's perfect..i shld be thankful for everything..in everything give thanks,for this is the will of God.(yeah right!)...somethings..i feel...definitely isn't the will of God.many things i'm pretty much upset with with the ldrship in COS..now..is tt the will of God too?well....once u offend someone up there....u've blown everything man.
badminton was...initially boring...yupyup...but the Crazy gals has done it once again!!hahaha....made life crazier!!!Yes..matt has called us the crazy gals cos everytime we're together,we nv seem to be soft...we're always loud,crazy and AS!!tt's what made us unique.so happy to know em.heh!!

Wanted to scream out and complain abt alot of stuff during CS rehearsal today...but ever since we started CS rehearsal,many pple have been unhappy,many pple have been complianing,me included.but i was sick of hearing the complains..so sick of hearing upset pple just getting pissed.and what spoke to me..is tt God loves a cheerful giver.giving doesn't mean just monetary terms...it also means serving God.i've chosen to serve him thru dance.if i wanna dance for Him,i shld give it my best..even if i was pissed or even if it's just a rehearsal..cos every dance is a dance for God.and everytime i get pissed with the com,i'm reminded of the cheerful giver.hence,it helped me to smile better.i mean..the committee has enuff problems of their own,they've so many things to oversee,cannot expect em to make sure everyone's happy.Kudos to the lighting and sound crew for coming earlier and going back later den many of us - dancers,choir singers,worship ldrs.You guys do all the back end jobs,no center stage,do more den us and yet...u nv complain.Thk u!!God loves humble pple!!!Even the musicians deserve a pat on their backs..having to play for sooo many songs,they've to remember the chords,listen to every single musician and make sure they're blending..and they even have to remember for which song comes a repeat,which song has a transpose,and which ones got to repeat verse den chorus,chorus den verse etc..well done!!Let's all give our best not for the audience but for our Father who's pleased with our work!!!God bless!!

National Day!!

2005-08-09T22:37:00.000Z

National day started out realy early for me....had to be up by 8.40 for the mid autumn outreach rehearsal...yes!!and i only had a few hrs of sleep..so after lunch,jas and i just found watever opportunity we had to sleep..and guess where we slept??haha..a super comfortable place in the sanctuary...the 'kneeling' sofa..,carpeted stage..wah..super comfortable man!!!haha...

after tt...we were craving for desserts..didn't get to eat the peanut paste i wanted to eat..so settled for peanut ice kachang..not too bad la...quite nice..since we still had time,we went to CCHS and wanted to just support the pple..haha.but ended up playing floorball cos there was a need/shortage of female players.it was fun.yeah!!i managed to score a last goal for the team.it's all team work man.if estee had missed tt ball,and i missed tt,i wldn't have scored too.was fun!!played bare footed..and now,i'm suffering the consequences...floorball was fun.plaed it when i was in secondary sch.back den,we called it street bandy.haha...and i was super ons den cos of the cute bb boys...really brought back memories.well..it was fun!

boy was i high today...super super high...dunno why also..maybe cos i saw him..den very happy!!hahah..oops oops!!i've nv acted high in front of my parents but today..they saw the other side.haha...luffed the whole night..had great fellowship,was a great walk back from the sch to the church.yupyup...it was so fun..i hope such opportunities arise again!!now...i've to go to bed...pimples are popping out...and i'm gettinbg darker eye rings by the day...it's time to get low..and rest for the day!!..

p/s:my new blogskin nice??hehe..

CHOCOLATE OVERLOAD!!!!

2005-08-09T01:39:00.000Z

ahhhhhh!!yes yes!!altho we didn't buy tt much chocs...still felt overloaded..haha...true leh...dunno why watch the movie...not really craving for chocs leh..but when i was reading the book..wah.....u definitely crave for it!!hahaha....

but well..the movie was funny!!yes...i love it!!!i dun mind watching it again man!!haha....

hmmm...tom's x-games..wah..really dunno who from my grp will be coming..haiz..i seriously hope my grp will be closer soon.pls pray ok??

haha...hmm...suddenly miss him..quite alot..i dunno why..it's coming back...yeah..i miss..2 of em in fact...why am i suddenly feeling this way again??i dunno...

anyway..like my new blogskin??heh..i designed it one hor!!of cos..someone helped me with the codes!!heh..and this song..i really love it..made me very toucehd..very encouraged.do tag more kk??Hugz!!!

Tired....

2005-08-07T22:59:00.000Z

i'm tired....yeah....literally tired..and dying....realised...tt there's dance from (when did we start dpreparing for SF?) till spet...there's gonna be like performances..all the way till Mid Autumn...it's fun..yes...dancing's something i love...a passion..but i'm not so gifted..can't pick up fast enuf..but trying..really hard...and i assume..in december,there's definitely goona be another performance....well...God's my strength..wat's gonna make me even more tired is the fact tt the shop will be opening anytime this week...which scares me.i'm not prepared.not at all...i'll have to give up the luxury of waking up late..and slping late and exercising as and when i want..

and why am i so considering slimming centres??well..why not??if it's gonna boost my self esteem when i've lost the wt?there's no harm giving it a try...if it doesn't work..well..it was worth the investment..at least i tried.why do i so desperately wanna lose wt??cos it so sucks to be one of the fattest dancer...and someone accidentally.(this person wasn't trying to be mean...but unknowingly,the remark made,made me feel worse,hurt alot)...said something..when we were doing the fan dance.God..i dun blame tt person...but it does hurt...to be fat...it wasn't a choice...so..yes!slimming centres....2 opposite the shop!!hahaha....spoilt for choice.let's see if they do work ok???

well..i'm really tired....i saw him just now...been seeing him often...dunno why suddenly like...just have a thing for him all over again..i know i'm so not ready for a r/s cos No. 1,i'm still a very fickle minded gal...i really dunno who i like.No 2,it's due to insecurity tt i'm just looking out for my other half. No. 3....there're no guys going after me..tt i'll definitely say yes to!!haha...No. 4...i've not been able to put God 1st..it'll be worse if i'm attached.wldn't it?
yeah..i guess they are good enuff reasons to say no to commitments now!!woohoo..single's fun la..at times...but seriously..when i saw him with another gal today..haha..my heart sank.yes..i was so afraid tt he'll say it's his gf...or even his gal fren.thankfully...she isn't!!so kinda relief.hehehe....alright..gonna watch tv now..before 'hittin' the bed.

Charlie and the Choc Factory tom!!yaya!!all the chocs i'm gonna consume!!hahaa...TUDI!!i promise u..i wun gain wt!!haha..i wun..really.i wun.heh..

SATURDAY...

2005-08-07T01:52:00.000Z

woah!!!i didn't know dance prac was gonna take up so much time....so hectic...after dance prac..had to quickly bathe...go drop some clothes for auntie jie hua at her house,den rush off for Hew Wing's party...sorry..my dear,i cldn't stay for long.i'll make up for it someday ok??happy birthday babe once again!!!
and after hanging out there for awhile...had to quickly take a cab down to Indoor stadium.thank God,i made it in time!!(thank God for the blessings too!someone blessed with the cab fare!!)....

But i was rather disappointed.FOP is no longer the FOP tt i always looked forward too.somehow,i felt super distracted today..why??cld it be cos i had so much on my mind??i dunno...it just was so difficult trying to draw near to God.nevertheless,i gave it all tt i cld worshipping him.Colin DYE? will be in church today!yay!!...
and gals..i hope u like the earrings!!will bring more back every time i go back to china!!haha...den really can open my very own...DING DANG jewellery.haha..if u dunno why i named it ding dang..come ask me k??hehe...nitez to all!!

China...and frens

2005-08-05T16:43:00.000Z

it's back to safe crossing,buses everywhere...and healthy food...good environment...english and everything nice.

yup..although it's been fun..and tiring having to shop for hours everyday, the most exciting moment wld be seeing happy customers buying what u chose.yup.Grace and i both agreed.

was lying on my bed the whole night yesterday...thinking bout loads of stuff..the trip..the store...and even frens...pretty much upset bout some stuff...but shan't let it affect me...but what i realised tt ever since my best fren and i got into different classes in pri sch..the relationship was nv the same as before..but the most amazing thing is tt after we graduated from secondary...and a few yrs later...God brought this friendship back together..i can't believe how thru one's bday..a friendship can be so different.and just by being there for her...is all tt matters..even if we've not seen each other for yrs..or we dun meet up as often...friendship...there's so much more to it...and i've always been yearning for a best fren...(yes..i have)..yet..i've nv found one..until yesterday..while lying on my bed..did i realise...tt best frens..need not be of the same age or ard the age at all.My bestest fren...i realise....is married,has a child...and yet..we get along so well..yup..she's grace!!i can't believe how we can get along so well..even tho we do have our differences and at times...our thinkings,our tastes clash..yet...thru USANA,COFFEENEWS,EXMEG and now BRISE DE JOIE, this friendship has been thru alot.she's frank with me(tt's wat i really appreciate) and we luff at the same kinda joke...i can share everything to her..yeah..she and peter's like my mentor,advisor..and the bestest fren i can ever have.Peter's funny..and his integrity is something really worth learning from.yeah..dunno why i'm typing all these..but i realised..good frens do realise ur good points even when the bad points sometimes seem more obvious,more hurting den the good.she's seen both sides of me,she's stood by me,and she's been honest with me.i guess tt's what brought this friendship to a higher level. Grace,thks for always being there for me!!haha..and i'll nv forget how u and Peter will go 'shopping' with me (an impromptu decision) everytime u guys know i'll be going alone.it's been funny!Perry's been our CEO..and he's such a blessing!!yay!!!

yes yes..back to china...fun..HK...crowded,,hot but fashionable...well..shld be going HK as well the next time we shop for clothes..woah!!i can't wait.things there are like..super cheap..esp in China.....can't wait for the opening of Brise De joie...it's our Joy...will tell ya guys more of my shopping expereiences if u guys ask me..

to my tudi!!:hahaha...i didn't gain wt..thank God thank God..cos really walked alot..and i didn't eat so much.hehehe....see ya soon!!

to estee tang!! : hey gal!u better speak more cantonese to me okok!!no more english!!hahaha.....see ya too!!

Gone in 8 Hours' Time

2005-07-31T22:37:00.001Z

just came back from Manhatten Fish bla bla bla....wah!!!super super fun...laughed the whole night..until even the waiters tried not to luff.haha....luffed till tears rolled down my eyes...woah!!i'm so excited.the nxt one..8aug!!charlie and the choc fac..and most prob..stayover!!!so fun so fun!!can finally play 7-up!!...haha..oh man..thinking of wat happened just now in the restuarant..really super funny ah..hahaha....okok....yes...night's over....thank u caleb and serene,for driving my bro,me and matt home.saved me so much time!!

yes..will be leaving my hse at 3.45..and guess wat???wohohohoh...i've not packed my bag...amazing eh??heh..well..think shld not have much to pack also la...so...can't be bothered.hehehe...okie...u pple..dun miss me k??i'll try and buy stuff back..but no gurantees...cos i didn't change any money..hahaha..using whatever my dad lent first.see ya guys soon!!!

well...cal...Blessed birthday!!we sang 4 times for ya today!!hahaha...i'm glad u enjoyed urself!! *GrIns*

SONICFESTIVAL'05

2005-07-30T23:22:00.000Z

yeah....it's over.i can't believe...the most awaited event of the year...is finally over...yes..3days...went for 2nights....
i felt as if...i just went for a camp...and wished..it nv ended.today was good.i had fun...noon till night....

our dance went pretty well.really really thank God.although we practiced lesser den last yr,this yr..we were more focused,more calm..and i dunno..closer?yeah...i really miss the dance.let's hope we can dance it sometime again.many thanks to those who went to support us..and those who tried to make it...but ended up late.we appreciate tt u've tried to reach on time...but thks to the stupid jam...ah well...we understand.thks for coming.

worship jam...woah...seriously taught me alot alot.when it was abt to begin,crystal was up there,i suddenly just wanted to back out..i suddenly became so scared..like i was some sorta 3yr old kid who just didn't wanna do it.but i told myself..no,i've said i'll do it and i'm gonna finish it till the end.I'm so glad i did it.when i was up there,i really wasn't thinking of the steps anymore..i wasn't conscious of how i looked..i wasn't comparin myself to anyone..i was totally focused on God..worshipping in spirit(really,just concentrating on his goodness)..and i nv knew..there were so many steps...tt i cld do.no..they weren't hip hop..they were all so contemp.i wanna do it again!it just felt so good...now..tt's wat i call dance in worship.and i think we were all radiant after it.seriously.when i looked at the pic i took with kel and crys.God,thk u!!thk u for guiding me!i miss worship jam already!!

Saw hosea,rayvin..ahhh...didn't see joel!!so sad..but tt's alright..hosea said our dance was good.heh..thk God!!he's so encouraging.like u can nv hear any unedifying stuff out of his mouth.yes!!i miss phileo already!!but i know...there's definitely more to come...and no..i'm not idolising em.they're just pple we can really learn from.humble,cool and pple after God's heart.

okie..i'll load up the pics when mandia's passed me hers.it's cool!yes..i miss everything.had so much fun today!!F4..has once again..played ard with camera.haha..can't wait to see how we all looked man!!woohoo!!..

alright...i've gotta go wash my laundry now.see ya guys tom!!

focus...focus...

2005-07-28T00:55:00.000Z

as sonicfest draws nearer....my heart sinks deeper.yes..no doubt...our rehearsal was screwed.we all knew our steps...but why did we still screwed up our one and only opportunity up on the stage??i really regretted.shld have gotten everyone to do the steps without the music first.i shldn't just go thru the positions.we were under attack.there was no doubt abt it.all of us were nervous...we were anxious..and tt caused us all to screw up.felt really really discouraged.as a leader,i think i did a really bad job.i cld have done more.i shld have drawn closer to God..i shld have trusted Him more.i shld have been more firm.i'm sorry Lord,i failed..once again.we shld have started praying every time we had our practice.but i was just not firm enuff to get everyone to pray.I guess it's just nv easy leading pple tt are ur frens.and many a times...i just feel tt it's my inadequate dance background tt has caused pple not to respect me,caused me to have low self esteem when it comes to dance..and caused me to not have the confidence to lead.i was utterly disappointed with myself.Seeing the way the other leaders encouraging,spurring their members on..what have i done?all i did was look at the negative side.was my expectations too high?i guess..i became the leader by accident.because noone appointed me.i just became the liason between my grp and the committee.Thanks to jesher..someone i just got to know,who happened to talk to me bout soonicfest...who encouraged me.why worry bout the mess?God loves messess!!the messier,the better!!only den...can we see the glory of God..only den will we draw strength from him,only den will we trust Him..it's only den..dat our attitudes are made right with God.

hey jesher!thanks man!i still can't stop thanking u!!Many questions are left unanswered now.but i'm gonna trust in the Lord.

was actually a lil pissed just now...because everyone was just so moody.another attack!yup..so i just decided to ignore the moodiness and maintain my cheerfulness.Just gotta be strong at this point of time.sigh..i wish i cld have done more for the grp.well..i guess i'm still learning.every event is a stepping stone.

Got my mp3 player today!yippie!!!too bad..it's not pink!!

tuesday..

2005-07-27T01:08:00.000Z

work was good!!i'm on time..meeting my deadlines earlier den expected!!which means...i get to go home earlier.yay!!so proud of myself.woohoo!!!it's the run thrus tom...i'm excited!!haha..can see phileo again!!oh man..wat's wrong with us huh huh huh???but great to see old frens too.time flies...SonicFest is here once again..woah..super overwhelmed..super nervous.

supposed to get my Mp3 player today one..sigh...but cldn't get it..cos the staff who cld offer discount not ard...so can only get it tom or thursday.am so happy and proud of a daddy like mine!haha...it's like...he's gonna pay for it first..and i can pay him back when i get the money.one thing i learnt from my parents..or one thing my parents taught me..is tt if i wanna get something,they wun spoil us but instead,we'll have to fork out the money to get it.they taught me not to be materialistic...and i'm glad tt i need not feel guilty if i ever spend on anything expensive..afterall..i'm paying for it.so it kinda eases the guilt.like going shopping..i feel happier shopping w/o my mum.cos i'll feel so bad seeing her spend the money on me(i guess tt's what happens when u start working)..haha..and i just spent 128 on my new pair of specs.die man!!going HK and shenzhen sommore.sure spend sommore money one.woohoo..let's see how i'm gonna survive.

saw u online...suddenly realised how much i really miss ya..and how much i enjoyed talking to ya on the phone..will u ever call me again??or even say a hi when u see me online??or are u gonna forever just leave me alone??sigh...hope to hear from u soon!!and i miss ya!!i do!!*hUgz*

Busy Weekend..

2005-07-26T01:04:00.000Z

weekends...are as usual..busy.
yup.sat's dance prac was better...but i felt tt alot more effprt cld have been put in.ah well..i seriously hope we dun screw up on wed and esp sat man!!hohohoh...so much still unsure.i hope everyone's practising hard at home.i am. *GRiNs*
yeah..after tt..it was ypm svc..den TLC...had fun!!luffing...fellowshipping once again with my good frens..am always happy whenever we have gatherings.den went for dinner with the Benjamites..they seem to have become my 3rd cell grp!!hahaha....with melissa ho ard..i nv seem to be down...or not luffing and all.hehe...hey roommate!!i didn't know..u cld be so encouraging...such a fren!we make a great team!!hehe..and i've to say a BIG THANK YOU!!for ur letter and choc.the letter was a really great encouragement..thks for ya honesty!!it's glad to know pple are inspired by my strength.i'm really encouraged..it's always nice to hear i've made an impact in their lives..and spurring em on unknowingly.and the choc's good!haha..

alright..let's move on to sunday...went to fel's birthday chalet!!!i was initially dreading it.scared dunno anyone...den scared they think i put on wt(tt's like..my greatest fear man!!)....but thankfully..i felt so comfortable..i stayed longer den expected.and ended up having to take a cab home..mama...fel..ur bday's expensive man!!haha..
going for the chalet..suddenly just made me feel.....like getting attached.(okie...i'm not desperate here ok)..seeing fel and marshul(i dunno how to spell ya name..sorry!)so loving..(btw..they've the same bday..born in the same yr too).and seeing tammi with his cute gym instructor bf(yes!fel & i both agreed tt he's cute..haha)..and seeing all their frens coming with their other half..just made me feel like...well..yes..getting all lovey dovey...awwww...but i know..tt i shld trust in the Lord.and somehow,i'm really afraid of commitments.it just scares the shit out of me.haha.."jo,how can u get married at 22 den?"..yeah..i know...well..Trust in the Lord..and he'll make ya paths straight.in the mean time,i'll just enjoy the privileages of a single,enjoying the numerous attn tt i still can get from guys(muahahah)..and go on dating(it's fun!)..and knowing more frens.*GrInz*..and i'll give my full attn to serving the Lord,my biz..and my cell grp..sigh..i've a feeling alot of responsibilities are gonna be on me...plus...there's so much follow up to do.sigh..feel tt we've lost alot of members.but God blessed us with 3more.so i'm not gonna wait till the ldr gives instructions.am mtg evelyn on thurs..and i'm gonna discuss my commitments and responsibilities with her and how i feel towards the grp.i'm not there as a member,i'm there becos i dun wanna see the younger ones stray away.alright..i'm praying things will go well..Barnabas will be blessed!

so many times...i felt like giving up serving in the YPM min..but so many times,God just keep drawing me back.so many times..i just feel like changing church..but He always seem to have something for me to do there.i'm fated to stick to COS..or maybe..i dun have the heart to leave?after all,i grew up here.*wiNks*

just received sms from kellyn and crystal..wah..i tot no need to dance for dancejam already.man!!now it's still on.i'm feeling very nervous,self esteem is back..just hope to maintain and keep tummy flat till sat.God,help me to focus on u.i'm doing it cos i wanna worship u.Get my attitude right o Lord.

alright alright..shall stop typing here.Hk trip..maybe be postponed to a later date in Aug.will see how mtg goes tom.but it's still on!!*WhEe*..can't wait!!

AtTaCked!!!!!

2005-07-20T23:51:00.000Z

yeahs...devil's good.knows exactly where to attack me.and he sure knows how to get me all discouraged and depressed.but thank God...when i needed someone to be there for me,Melissa Ho...she was online...after sharing with her,i just felt a lil better.Thanks Mel,for sacrificing a lil of ya sleep just to listen to me!!appreciate it!!!...and after speaking to sean bout loads and loads of rubbish..and bout bgr..i went to sleep..w/o those burdens.haha..it was fun..talking to sean.yeah...we've still to continue our topic eh??haha...

hmm...band concert..well..we all concluded tt the sec schs had no substance.JCs were better....esp SAJC!!woohoo!!!they rawk since yeah dunno wat man!!!i was so engrossed in their com pc..i didn't realise..it ended.tt's how power they are.their sound is very rounded..very sharp...superb!!'ve always enjoyed sa's concerts...an ardent fan of theirs since aaron started inviting me to thier concerts..and i must commend..tt they're getting better every yr.kudos to a wonderful conductor--DAVID Gloz...(however u spell it)..yesterday's concert..just made me nostalgic-those days when i was performing with my sch band,the SHSS spirit,the family,luffter...everyone was just so united,laughed together,helped one another..just super encouraging.sigh...i wish i had taken band seriously..ah well...band rawks!!SAJC--continue to improve!!i'm always cheering u guys on..altho i'm not frm SA.they're the coolest jc man!!woohoo!!love their shorts!!wahahahah...

hmm...loving my work more and more each day.gonna be the sales supervisor overseeing my store when it opens in Aug!!yay!!ahha..and i'm the one tt's gonna be planning those HK trips..and store layout and all.work's been more productive each day,we're all working hard towards the opening...and we celebrated Perry's bday today!!hehe..had oishi!pizza...wonderful..super unique and we were the 1st customers who dined there.haha...hmm...den in the evening..supposed to go spotlight alone..but Peter & Grace,ever so spontaneous went with me!yay...thank u God..for sending me company.i'm so glad for it.not 1 companion..but 3!+1 (kamun joined us for awhile)haha..while at spotlight,J.R called..so i spoke to him..woah..almost cldn't recognise his voice..he sounds...so different!!haha..was great catching up with him..still going to church.am glad to hear tt.gee...philippines...haha..hmm...HK!!here i come!!alright..gonna check out ticket and accomadtion prices now!!muahahaha...

broken

2005-07-19T23:58:00.000Z

broken.depressed.disappointed.bitter.angry.insecure.lonely.regrets.resentment.
i need to see a counsellor soon.or better...a Christian who's been thru exactly the same as i've been thru.tt wld help alot!God,send me one soon!!i need SOS FAST!!!!

i'm excited,overwhelmed,broke,anxious,nervous...dunno wat to expect.

2005-07-18T21:01:00.000Z

yeah!!why am i feeling liddat??let me tell u why...because i've so many presents to buy!!!!!!!woah....suddenly so many bdays,and birthday parties.woohoo!!

tt explains why i'm excited..and broke.haha....jas!!i already know what to get for u!!hehehe.....and my good fren_FELICIA LAI!!is celebrating her bday this sunday!!i definitely wun say no..cos i wanna keep this friendshiop..why am i anxious??scared??nervous??cos the others i haven been keeping in touch with em..so i scared i feel very left out..and well..seem to be having low self esteem now.all of dem...slim and chio one lor!!nvm....i shldn't be affected..
yupyup...den just received an invitation from my junior!!wah!!!so long nv see her le..and she's invited me to her bday party...at a country club sommore..and again...i've lost touch with every single one of em..so scared i feel left out..aiya..maybe i shld take the opportunity to make more new frens.hehe....can la...joanna...be FRIENDLY ok??

woo..wat else??oh..crystal called just now..and say wat..they actually submitted my name for dance jam for sonicfest.but i guess i'm still trying to get over this self esteem thingy..not confident of myself..so told em i may feel paiseh...so..i suggested jasmine's name.hehe...feel super honoured tt i was asked.but just can't do it...jas....call me back soon k??i need to get back to crystal.maybe i'll do with u??dunno why..i always feel more confident when jas is with me..hehe...yay!!jas just called back while i typed this.hahaha...cool!we're gonna do it together.if they allow us to not go for briefing this friday.wahaha...so excited..scary..but Lord,i'm doing this for u!!!help me to feel confident!!

okie...wat's nxt??hmm...calvin's bday..wah..another present to buy.hiak hiak hiak...

okie...yay..tom going band concert.so exciting..at esplanade..and pay so cheap sommore...

ooh..and why am i gonna be even more broke??cos my company's going HK...so..wah..confirm shop like dunno wat one...but wat's so exciting??being able to travel to HK!!!and..company's gonna pay for our makeover..tt is we do it ourselves..so tt we can try out the concept we have for the retail shop.wanna know more??come ask me!!hehe....ooh..

and i just received my hp bill...thank God.didn't exceed 100..even tho i was in philippines....it's gonna stay this way until i dunno when man.i confirm call em very often here one.hehe.....okie!!gonna watch tv now!!

oops!i forgot!!

2005-07-18T10:32:00.000Z

yeah!!jas and i went for our manicure and pedicure yesterday.the ladies serving us were really friendly and nice!!!ahha...yay!!now my toenails are so in shape...i'm loving it!!gonna go back to em nxt month!hehee...
ooh...and we just coincidentally chose each other's fav colours for our nails..JAS:PINK, JO:Purple.haha..oops oops!!so cool!!Check out Jas's nails man!!one too pale,the other too bright!!hahaha...jas...first time going for mani and pedi??hehe