Friday, March 25, 2005
hmm...it's been a long and eventful day..mentioned earlier bout my bro and i arguing bout the slping bag...it happened again..later in the evening..i felt bad..but just tot..we shld stand and stick to the decision..cos tt guy was lazy and not cos he didn't have any slping bag..so i was quite pissed.but after awhile..the guy and i...well..we're back to normal..no hard feelings..still frens..bla bla bla..happy happy happy.haha..
but another issue to settle..my good fren and i..i'm kinda pissed off with her cos on 3 occasions,she actually last min cancel our appts lor...den i very pissed off..cos she actually said she had no mood...so dun feel like going out..and ya know wat??she didn't even have the initiative to tell me.her sorry..went "sorry la"...and i think..she dun realise..why i'm pissed.cos when i saw her today,i didn't even say hi to her..i simply ignored her.den she supposed to stayover tonight with the rest of the pple..last min went home(cld be cos of me also la)...but thing is..she dun get it lor..dunno la..but i know..i'm still mad at her..and she..well..dun get it...ah well..will talk to her soon bout it.after all tt i've done for her..i dun think she actually appreciates it..or even notice it lor.telling my frens to go out without me..cos i wanted to wait for her...asking her along whenever we've got group outings..or going out.if i didn't do tt..she'll just be left out of all these lor.and i even try and find guys to take notice of her hor...knowing..how..well..no guys appreciate her.see how concern i am for her?i know..some gals..have low self esteem cos no guy appreciate..and the best i cld do..was to bring the inner beauty out so guys will not just look at her outer appreance and turn away..
okie..enuff of that..went for supper...argh!!so sinful..but it's okie.in the mood for a jog.so shall jog later.yay!!love joggin!!!woohoo!!!
now..to the more serious side..i think i'm having mixed feelings now..REALLY..i can somehow conclude tt guy A(the one going after me)is just someone..tt i enjoy talking to..and it has somehow..become a habit(i guess..)...i dunno..cos when i saw guy b(the one i like)...my feelings..just all of a sudden....haiz..u get wat i mean??den..like..feelings for guy A...suddenly seem...like it's gone.how??i think tt it's gonna be difficult to get over guy B and after listening to some sermon tapes...i'm even more sure of my decision.like,i really gotta choose someone who's actually on fire for God..and not one..who hasn't been attending service.sommore..today..the way Guy B looked at me..really..wah!!!!i also dunno how to say ah....why??why am i caught in such a dilemma??i'm normally..not a fickle minded person..wat's happen to me??sigh...am i just so afraid to let go of Guy A..cos i scared..tt once i let go,i'll just lose a nice caring guy?am i being selfish?wqat shld i do?God..pls tell me wat i shld do..i need u!!!
Jojojoanna
is just simply gorgeous 2:12 AM