Tuesday, April 25, 2006
haha...after posting tt blog abt how life is fragile...and all tt reflections....God opened alot alot alot of doors for me!!i was spreading the gospel to 2 pple via msn....and 1 almost got saved!!the other??well..she's a catholic...not sure if she'll convert...but praise God..for open doors!i'm excited for more to come!!!..If u wanna know how my shop's been doing...well...still not good...but so much bonding with my neighbours!!i'm having so much fun...luffing and talking and pigging and dieting with em!!haha..it's hilarious...
oh..and they make a fool of themselves all the time...it's been fun....so i thank God for sending funny and helpful neighbours...not competitive at all..super helpful!!
Thank God...he's teaching me perseverance...he's teaching me integrity....he's teaching me to give thanks in all situations whether good or bad...even the 'break up' with frens....it doesn't mean anything to me now...altho whenever i pass by familiar places....the memories do flood back..and i'll just smile.it's nice while it lasted.haha..now i know how pple feel when they go thru a break up with their other halves.tt definitely wun happen to me!!heh...
i realised..it's been so long since i last thank God for something eh??i'm sorry guys..u had to read such nasty posts...i'm human afterall...and i think it's stupid if i blog abt where i went....wat i did for the day...like who cares eh??go out with frens...dun need to tell the whole world..(no offense if tt's the way u blog...but tt's personally how i feel for my OWN blog..)
Mel,thanks for taking the initiative to call me.truly treasure this friendship...u're a model and walking example of wat a BEST FREN is...nv had 1....till i met u.thank u for ur love...and ur honesty...for being my confidante...i'm glad tt no matter how busy we are,u took the initiative to call me...it's been so long since someone last called me to ask how i've been.thanks dear!love ya lots!!and once again...i can't wait for ABC to come!!fun ness!!hmm...maybe we shld look forward to may 29....and the wacky stuff tt we're gonna do and wear 1st eh??heh... *wink* *wink*
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wat if u were to die anytime now??wat will ur regrets be??
was reading the papers just now(i haven really been reading for quite some time)....and i happened to flip to the obituary section..and there i saw a note tt a mum wrote for her daughter who passed away 4yrs ago...if she was still alive,she wld have been 24...she died at the age of 20.and den i read abt the joan chan story.so sad...
wat if i were to die today??wld i leave this place happy?wld my parents be able to take it??wat wld be the one thing tt will keep em worried?
i know for sure tt if i were to die now,i wld have left behind a huge debt for my parents to clear.haha..and i definitely dun want em to be clearing up my mess.
wat's the other regret if i were to die?? tt is...i've not brought many pple to christ.
brought some cousins to Christ...but only 2 are still attending church regularly...and the only accomplishing person i really brought to Christ...was when i was 10,11yrs ago..one of my best frens,Felicia,went to church with me.a few yrs down the road...her whole family's saved...and a few yrs more..i hear of all them actively serving the Lord.1 saved,all saved.Praise God.but when was the last time i truly brought someone to Christ??wat bout u?i pray tt with my shop,i'll be bold and bring pple to know more abt Christ.i'm starting to plant seeds...whereby i dun tell em exactly bout Jesus...but i start by praying and telling lil stuff like "oh..i pray.." and sharing the many testimonies where God has blessed me..and even abt Helu and his demon possessed testimonies.i start lil..and when i get to know em better...i pray tt i'll be bold and share the good news with em.God's been opening doors.Praise God.
But wat if i were to die tom??it'll be too late eh??wat bout u?have u been evangelizing??Well...i thought this is a good reflecting qns..wat if u were to die tom...have u done enuff??any regrets?
not having a good time now...seems like my stress level is increasing...and i'm just so tired to carry on..with a lot of stuff..pressing on..hanging there...no..it's not just abt my shop...
i dun understand why i get so affected when pple dun wanna go.i get so discouraged when pple stop going...i get pissed at em for going for the wrong reason..i hate it when pple go only when they have nothing to do. it may not be a priority...but we go..beacause we wanna see something happen.we go..because we have a heart tt hungry to make an impact...but it's none of my business...so why shld i even get affected?
yes..this is something tt has been affecting me...shan't name where the place is..or wat going stuff...because i do not want to directly say the pple involved.so..i wld say..this post is me just venting it all out.
the nxt prob actually caused me to cry.was so upset over this matter...someone didn't go...to go out with other pple...i've been so honest with these pple telling em how i felt and how i missed em...but i was disappointed when i heard they went out together and they didn't even bother asking me...assumptions...assuming tt i was at work...assuming i had other commitments...but if u truly treated me like someone u truly missed and welcomed back...u wld...have bothered to just ask..even if it's a 'i'm sorry..i can't make it'....why did i still hold on to the hope tt we can bring back to good ol times...it seems...tt i'm the only who cares...because i'm the one who's out and it doesn't matter... it felt like a break up...even tho no guys are involved..haha..i've nv treasured my female frens so much before...but it sure hurts when u start to cherish pple and yet...u get 'rejected'...after trying to hard to trust pple again...the wall crumbled..but is rebuilt within months...ouch!
but well...since the break up..is wat they want...i'll always cherish the good times...smile at the times we luffed...the times we quarrelled...the times when we hung out...the surprises tt is always so well planned for u all...and i'll move on...move on with my life...focus on my biz...and cherish those who cherish me now..i'll keep the good memories..and throw away the bad...
den..i was greatly upsetted me was someone i treated so dear lying to me.for goodness sake..so old...did u still have to lie?u're not accountable to me..it's okie to be honest...i was so upset...so disappointed...yup..not gonna hold on to this...
i remember when we were in primary schs,as lil gals we'll write a poem tt goes "Fridnship is like a china bowl, Once broken,it cannot be made whole. Even if it is put back together, the lines are still in view"..
how true...i just tot of tt as i was crying...it just hurts so much knowing tt i'm still left out..and left behind.yup..told myself not to get affected because i know i have frens out there who asks me out,and who'll say stuff like "u're not going??den i'll be alone again!!" or.."why aren't u gonna be there???i'm gonna miss u!!"....it's nice to know tt pple miss u and cherish ur presence...and even nicer to know tt the lil actions and encouragements have made an impact in their lives...
i'm glad tt there are pple who've been honest with me,and who dares to speak their mind.i truly cherish such frens and i respect em for being honest and encouraging pple when they've done something influential.they've made me realise wat a fren i can be and i'm not 'condemned'. thank u for loving me! I look forward to the fun we're gonna have in ABC...and my beloved frens....keep may 28 or 29 free ya??we'll discuss this further!!!
estella...eeling and melissa...i may need u guys to help me with the organising!!hahah...whee!!
ever since i came back from china...i've had so much stuff to do.came up with a new concept well...structure for my shop so tt i can keep track of the stuff tt my staff sells.it's been tiring but satisfying.i've been slping at 3am almost everyday and getting up at 9.so my eye rings are getting darker.but praise God!i've not been feeling tired...and i managed to just fall asleep the moment i lie on my bed.
yesterday(tuesday),i was feeling rather discouraged after talking to my neighbour bout the area.it got me thinking alot,and made me really worried bout alot of things.i felt helpless...i dunno where and how i'm gonna go abt doing stuff....even while doing my work,this problem was etched in my mind.i knew right there and then,tt i needed to go to God in prayer..but i was really too tired last night to say the usual long prayers i usually do...so i just lied on my bed,resting...in His presence...and i cld feel him 'sayanging' me the way our parents do while we were young. ie Father sitting down,while daughter puts her head on his thighs and he'll stroke the daughter's hair.tt's how i felt.i felt like a young gal all over again.and it felt so good.Knowing tt God loves me and i'm his daughter.and i just layed there on my bed with this in mind..until i fell asleep for awhile..haha...den got up,read the bible,said a lil short prayer and went to sleep.
I did it in the morning again...resting in His presence.everytime i think of a Father up there who's always there for me,i feel really loved. really...really loved..it's as if i dun care if the world cares for me..and it didn't matter if my frens left me..it didn't matter if pple were gossipping or talking bad bout me. to know tt the Father loves me just makes me feel like a true blue PRINCeSS...maybe tt's wat causes me to look and act childish many a time...cos..well..why be serious all the time eh?haha....
in ur times of discouragement,try resting in God's presence yeah?no words needed.he understands....especially when all u need is a Hug.He's the only one who can give u tt kinda hug.dun look for it in a guy or a gal...yupyup...
oh..and know wat??i've been watching korean dramas!!ooh...they're addictive!!haha...but so nice!!BUT!!!i dun watch em without trying to learn something from it.haha..there's always something tt i'll turn it around until i learn something biblical from it.thaks doreen!cos of the many jogging dates where u tell us what u can learn just by looking at something and stuff.i learn from u to see things in a christian perspective.it's fun!cos then...can we give thanks in everything...every circumstance.even the conflict with my bestest fren.i'm glad...she's not the only one who exists.and if she choose to treat me the way she treats me...i know...i'm loved by many many others!heh...
how have u guys been?tell me k?i wanna know!!
wld still love to treasure this special friendship...but since u were the 1 who didn't in the 1st place,why den did i keep trying?u're not the only one who got hurt...so...think whether u treated me like a friend 1st.
haha..and no...i'm not talking bout some guy...such bgr nv bothers me...this is abt a fren i truly cherished..one i really trusted...but treated me..like..a fren....and well..things haven't been going well..i do wish it'll be like good ol times again..but i doubt it'll happen.she's changed so much..ever since she started working.what's wrong with her??...so materialistic now...so worldly...so proud..so rude now..so influenced by a specific person i shan't named who've been a really bad influence to my good frens.sigh..sad.but wat to do?they're still young and growing up.
Just like most of u who reads my blog.hahaha....u're all still growing up too.but it's okie!!u'll grow out of it..just like i did!!i love u all readers!!
well..nevertheless,being the youngest,i was treated like a SMALL kid...i hated it!because...altho it's nice to have so many pple looking out for u, it just makes u SOO pampered, there isn't any space for growing up. I really thank God for my parents who brought me up in a way i cld think for myself.was so glad agnes ,chin kok and richard arrived like on thursday...so it made my nxt few days much better.at least i had company of frens i can speak English with and be who i am...
Now i realise how my frens really mean alot to me....no matter how i talk or act..i know tt they're not judging me..and i can truly be the person i am.haha..
well..still..i thank God...because..it was supposed to be raining when i went there...but the days when i had to go buy my stuff...theweather was good.not hot..not rainy...perfect weather...after everything was bought..the nxt day it was a lil rainy..and my last few days,it was super cold.it's as if the winter season was back.amazing! God provided the BEST weather for the different days!i'm tired..still got so many load to unpack..this month,my total baggage is....70kg!!wow!!pray hard hard ok???tt this batch will bring in the sales i need to profit!yay!!
and to all who's tag,thank u for tagging!!cos at least i know u're reading my posts and i know..u've read it!love ya all!
besides havin fun during supper, i really thank God tt he has sustained me thus far. Last night,i was busy preparing wat i was gonna share today till like 4am.had to wake up today at 8am to jog...so i was deciding whether to sleep or stay up and watch vcds instead.well...i slept..and was SUPER uber tired.guess who i saw??Mandia!!!!know why i'm so happy??Cos i just blogged ytd tt i missed u..and there i see..u at east coast!hehe...so..i'm very glad!it's so God Sent!
Praise God..thank u Ee foo and Shu, for letting me know tt the sharing was good. This yr,thru the biz and reading more christian books,i've learnt to rely on the Lord's strength rather den mine.I've learnt to take up roles in church not for self glorification but God glorified!altho i'm not as confident as i was before in the past, God is still using me and it's thru His strength tt i cld come up with wat i wanted to share today.Praise God!I'm glad i managed to say everything out altho i was really nervous.haha...
yay!yup!prayer mtg was good!Praise God!!
do u ever feel ..sometimes..the pple u treat as really good frens...dun treat u tt way?it kinda hurts eh?i've learnt it the hard way..many many many times...but God gave me a very FORGIVING heart..ahha..and altho i seem to have forgiven...it still hurts inside...
and the pple u nv really treated as good frens...treat u more den tt...and i've learnt to cherish em...one example...heh...ESTEE TANG!i remember how we were always well..the 2 with firm decisions..and sadly,our decisions were too firm..tt they always collided...and both of us...haha..were always on 'not so good' terms.but look at us now??woohoo!!u know..it's been fun telling u so so so so so so so much!!i really enjoy the times we spent with each other alone...there's just so much tt i cld talk to u bout and time just seems to fly without us realising it eh?i miss the KALA chicken chop!!hahaha...visit me soon soon ok??i'm so CRAVING for it!but i dun wanna buy it without u!!hehe...yes!i really seriously enjoy telling u every single bits and pcs of information and my heartfelt feelings with u.u're trustable!i know!heh...let's meet up soon again!!whee!!i love ya loads loads loads!!!
Melissa hohohohohoho....one who's 3 yrs younger? u're God sent!really!thru ABC'05 and the thailand trip together,God has indeed brought us closer eh?u're nice..patient...and bestest bestest fren!!u're someone who can 'withstand' my temper and still love me for the way i am.thk u!cos without this love,i dunno wat i'll do without u!haha..thk u for always listening to me talk...and i'm glad to hear u tell me many many stuff too!!it's been so fun!!i can't wait for ABC'06!!i love ya loads loads loads!!
the diet dunno what biscuits are so nice!!!man...it's super tasty u know!!everytime i eat it..i remember the LOVE given with it!!oh no!!i dun want the biscuit to finish!!but i can't help it!!!it's too LOVELY!!hehe...i'm glad u like the handmade notebook..we'll have to decorate it together soon yeah??
my shi fu/tudi!!!where have u been to??i'm sorry....i nv made any effort to meet up with u and always blaming it on my work.i'll meet u up soon ok???i miss u!!i miss the times when both of us will just look at each other and start luffing..i miss those times when estee dun understand wat're we're luffing abt..haha...and i miss those times when u'll support me in doing stupid stuff, looking silly and luffing it off!!...know wat's may 29 for ?it's a night for history to repeat itself!so i dun care!!tt night...is for me!!ok??and i really miss taking pics together.those were the days eh??and we're gonna bring it back!!i miss u alot!!thk u for taking time down to visit me.i promise u,when sch's started.it's my turn,to take time off to have lunch with u ok?
Estee,i'll take the time to meet up with u too!i promise!!
PWG IGNITED and reUNITED!!haha
as for the many many many frens out there....well..there's just too much i can say for each and every single one of u.however,today's blog...actually shldn't be abt my frens...but i just can't help but write to em because i really missed em.not saying tt i dun miss u guys..but u see...well..it's a long story.but they're most loved!heh...and they're the few who really treat me as good frens...when i once..didn't treat em as good frens.i've learnt to cherish the ones who shld be cherished!thks lovelies!!i love ya all...
now...back to my 1st line...yeah...it always gets to me..i dunno why...and i always have to do something to help me not get disappointed.altho i know it's gonna be disappointing again..i'll prob just cry it off...get on with life...and start thanking God for things tt didn't make me disappointed.haha...yup....thk u God.i really dun wanan expect much.but i guess...the greatest gifts..cannot be bought with money.if only they knew...
May ur heart feel this way too!bless ya all!!