Sunday, April 24, 2005
leave me alone..or LONELINESS??
wat's wrong with me?i've been feeling very left out,very lonely all of a sudden. good frens..pple i felt will be there for me,encourage me,treat me like a good fren seems more like frens den good frens.they no longer are pple who i tot treated me as a good fren.why am i feeling this way??or issit happening?like jas...always tot she was my closest fren....buti guess to her,our relationship is that of frens,dance partners,dance mates. (FULL STOP,end or r/s)...have i suddenly become too sensitive?
it seems like the pple who bothers asking me out..ain't the gals..but the guys..they're the ones...tt's so much easier to talk to,they make u feel like u're frens...and they nv forget to ask u along whenever they're going out or so.but gals...are selfish...dun understand why.
seems like jas is just making use of me.hanging out with my frens cos she got no other frens to hang out with after service,and she wun even bother telling ya where everyone is when u'll be late.is this the kinda fren tt i deserve? den now...she got grace to eat with,and occasionally mel,she'll just go off liddat lor.wun even say bye.gee....so i realised..yup..the pple tt she truly consider as good frens..is not me..it's mel and grace.ah well...lesson learnt.nv treat anyone too good,because the kindness is nv appreciated. all i ask is for appreciation.not...reciprocation.it sucks!the feeling sucks!and the wall ard me..is building up again..my heart is hardening once again..
denise,thks for being there for me!appreciate it loads! Shu, thanks for the hug! just wat i needed!
Jojojoanna
is just simply gorgeous 4:11 AM