Tuesday, July 26, 2005
weekends...are as usual..busy.yup.sat's dance prac was better...but i felt tt alot more effprt cld have been put in.ah well..i seriously hope we dun screw up on wed and esp sat man!!hohohoh...so much still unsure.i hope everyone's practising hard at home.i am. *GRiNs*
yeah..after tt..it was ypm svc..den TLC...had fun!!luffing...fellowshipping once again with my good frens..am always happy whenever we have gatherings.den went for dinner with the Benjamites..they seem to have become my 3rd cell grp!!hahaha....with melissa ho ard..i nv seem to be down...or not luffing and all.hehe...hey roommate!!i didn't know..u cld be so encouraging...such a fren!we make a great team!!hehe..and i've to say a BIG THANK YOU!!for ur letter and choc.the letter was a really great encouragement..thks for ya honesty!!it's glad to know pple are inspired by my strength.i'm really encouraged..it's always nice to hear i've made an impact in their lives..and spurring em on unknowingly.and the choc's good!haha..
alright..let's move on to sunday...went to fel's birthday chalet!!!i was initially dreading it.scared dunno anyone...den scared they think i put on wt(tt's like..my greatest fear man!!)....but thankfully..i felt so comfortable..i stayed longer den expected.and ended up having to take a cab home..mama...fel..ur bday's expensive man!!haha..
going for the chalet..suddenly just made me feel.....like getting attached.(okie...i'm not desperate here ok)..seeing fel and marshul(i dunno how to spell ya name..sorry!)so loving..(btw..they've the same bday..born in the same yr too).and seeing tammi with his cute gym instructor bf(yes!fel & i both agreed tt he's cute..haha)..and seeing all their frens coming with their other half..just made me feel like...well..yes..getting all lovey dovey...awwww...but i know..tt i shld trust in the Lord.and somehow,i'm really afraid of commitments.it just scares the shit out of me.haha.."jo,how can u get married at 22 den?"..yeah..i know...well..Trust in the Lord..and he'll make ya paths straight.in the mean time,i'll just enjoy the privileages of a single,enjoying the numerous attn tt i still can get from guys(muahahah)..and go on dating(it's fun!)..and knowing more frens.*GrInz*..and i'll give my full attn to serving the Lord,my biz..and my cell grp..sigh..i've a feeling alot of responsibilities are gonna be on me...plus...there's so much follow up to do.sigh..feel tt we've lost alot of members.but God blessed us with 3more.so i'm not gonna wait till the ldr gives instructions.am mtg evelyn on thurs..and i'm gonna discuss my commitments and responsibilities with her and how i feel towards the grp.i'm not there as a member,i'm there becos i dun wanna see the younger ones stray away.alright..i'm praying things will go well..Barnabas will be blessed!
so many times...i felt like giving up serving in the YPM min..but so many times,God just keep drawing me back.so many times..i just feel like changing church..but He always seem to have something for me to do there.i'm fated to stick to COS..or maybe..i dun have the heart to leave?after all,i grew up here.*wiNks*
just received sms from kellyn and crystal..wah..i tot no need to dance for dancejam already.man!!now it's still on.i'm feeling very nervous,self esteem is back..just hope to maintain and keep tummy flat till sat.God,help me to focus on u.i'm doing it cos i wanna worship u.Get my attitude right o Lord.
alright alright..shall stop typing here.Hk trip..maybe be postponed to a later date in Aug.will see how mtg goes tom.but it's still on!!*WhEe*..can't wait!!
Jojojoanna
is just simply gorgeous 1:04 AM