Friday, April 21, 2006

i'm sorry if these past few posts dun sound nice...

not having a good time now...seems like my stress level is increasing...and i'm just so tired to carry on..with a lot of stuff..pressing on..hanging there...no..it's not just abt my shop...

i dun understand why i get so affected when pple dun wanna go.i get so discouraged when pple stop going...i get pissed at em for going for the wrong reason..i hate it when pple go only when they have nothing to do. it may not be a priority...but we go..beacause we wanna see something happen.we go..because we have a heart tt hungry to make an impact...but it's none of my business...so why shld i even get affected?

yes..this is something tt has been affecting me...shan't name where the place is..or wat going stuff...because i do not want to directly say the pple involved.so..i wld say..this post is me just venting it all out.

the nxt prob actually caused me to cry.was so upset over this matter...someone didn't go...to go out with other pple...i've been so honest with these pple telling em how i felt and how i missed em...but i was disappointed when i heard they went out together and they didn't even bother asking me...assumptions...assuming tt i was at work...assuming i had other commitments...but if u truly treated me like someone u truly missed and welcomed back...u wld...have bothered to just ask..even if it's a 'i'm sorry..i can't make it'....why did i still hold on to the hope tt we can bring back to good ol times...it seems...tt i'm the only who cares...because i'm the one who's out and it doesn't matter... it felt like a break up...even tho no guys are involved..haha..i've nv treasured my female frens so much before...but it sure hurts when u start to cherish pple and yet...u get 'rejected'...after trying to hard to trust pple again...the wall crumbled..but is rebuilt within months...ouch!
but well...since the break up..is wat they want...i'll always cherish the good times...smile at the times we luffed...the times we quarrelled...the times when we hung out...the surprises tt is always so well planned for u all...and i'll move on...move on with my life...focus on my biz...and cherish those who cherish me now..i'll keep the good memories..and throw away the bad...

den..i was greatly upsetted me was someone i treated so dear lying to me.for goodness sake..so old...did u still have to lie?u're not accountable to me..it's okie to be honest...i was so upset...so disappointed...yup..not gonna hold on to this...

i remember when we were in primary schs,as lil gals we'll write a poem tt goes "Fridnship is like a china bowl, Once broken,it cannot be made whole. Even if it is put back together, the lines are still in view"..

how true...i just tot of tt as i was crying...it just hurts so much knowing tt i'm still left out..and left behind.yup..told myself not to get affected because i know i have frens out there who asks me out,and who'll say stuff like "u're not going??den i'll be alone again!!" or.."why aren't u gonna be there???i'm gonna miss u!!"....it's nice to know tt pple miss u and cherish ur presence...and even nicer to know tt the lil actions and encouragements have made an impact in their lives...

i'm glad tt there are pple who've been honest with me,and who dares to speak their mind.i truly cherish such frens and i respect em for being honest and encouraging pple when they've done something influential.they've made me realise wat a fren i can be and i'm not 'condemned'. thank u for loving me! I look forward to the fun we're gonna have in ABC...and my beloved frens....keep may 28 or 29 free ya??we'll discuss this further!!!

estella...eeling and melissa...i may need u guys to help me with the organising!!hahah...whee!!

Jojojoanna is just simply gorgeous 5:13 PM

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jojojoanna is Daddy's Gal, God's Lil PrIncess, Mummy's Dearest...LOVABLE GAL!!
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