Sunday, May 29, 2005
yeah...it's ma birthday..well..since it's past 12,i shld say..it was my birthday.and i'm truly touched,truly speechless.i think tt this yr,my birthday is really no longer just a bday.it's a testimony!now i know the meaning of bdays..and why we celebrate bdays. ----birthdays are opportunities for us to be testimonies for God.heh..before i continue anything on...i shall type out my testimony before i become lazy.heh...
just this week,my cousin called me and i was reminded of the promise i made to her.tt if she does well for her exams,i'll bring her to town.cos she wanted to go to town.she comes from a broken family and lack love.
all sorts of love.the only love she can ever get and can't feel now is from her grandparents who are just too old to really bring her and her brothers up the way they shld be.not wanting to disappoint her,i told her tt i'll call her in a few days to let her know when i'll bring her out.but after hanging up,my heart felt heavy. "where am i gonna find the finances to give her a treat,and bless her with a lil something?"wat made it worse was tt i found out i had 2months of hp bills to settle. "i tot i paid off everything last month??"....darn...it was abt $100 for 2months of hp bill.
and i'm not gonna get the fixed allowance i get every month cos i'll be away for almost the whole month.so...i was like die le die le...but i felt peace.and it's not the first time i went thru such financial crisis.and if i can survive all those crisis,my God will definitely not abandon me at such a time.
how can i survive?borrow money?or wait for a miracle?borrow money..not very nice leh.really dun wanna borrow from pple.but if i really hafta borrow from pple,who can i borrow from?haiz...fren a?no..not a good idea..wat bout fren b?hmm...better not la...fren C?huh??not very nice right....haiya..nvm..dun think bout it le.one step at a time.dun worry joanna.u'll survive. yes!!TT WAS WAT WENT THRU MY MIND FOR A FEW HOURS.
yes,joanna's gonna bring her cousin out,no matter how lil money she has.bro wanted to bless me with some money a few days ago...but i didn't wanan take it because i know tt he needs the money more den i do.but seeing such gesture,i'm really touched.appreciated it.he's living on the edege more den i am,yet he was actually willing to part with tt lil money for his sister who still gets a more fixed allowance.so yes,i didn't take his money and i was like 'ya..altho i need the money this month,i'm not gonna take it from him.i believe tt God will still provide for me.how?i dunno.but i'll trust in Him.' and yes!this time round,i was just super sure tt everything's provided for.no worries.no doubts.NOT AT ALL!!amazing!
so...on May 29,2005,i was blessed with gifts.loads of em.shall upload those pics soon!i seriously wasn't expecting so many blessings.really.den came some frens who felt tt since i was gonna be going for a mission trip in June,i'll need some financial help,in my heart i was like 'woah!!!wat fine timing!!'which fren at this age will actually give u money for a gift?and they're so generous!God bless u guys man!!and the cash gift exceeded wat i needed.isn't God amazing?now,i dun have to worry bout bringing my cousin out,nor worry bout the expenses to philippines.today,the pastor preached bout Human disappointments are divine appointements!amen!!yes.it's true.it's never easy thanking God thru trials but i dare say..i survived a few,managed to thank him thru such circumstances,may 29 just marks the day of celebration.seriously..celebrating the fact tt i passed these tests.and i was just wondering if i shld change more RM for ABC yet worried tt if i change too much,i'll just use up the lil cash i had left for this month and for the nxt.yes!God blessed me once again.i got more den enuff RM now. "Lord,u're more den enuff for me". our God is a giving God.i can't disagree.it's true.i asked,and he gave.my dad always say,he's nv worried.cos the Lord knows and when u ask,he will listen.there are still many things in my life tt i've to commit to God,still tt bad character tt i've to change and the many frens..tt i jsut can't stop asking God to bless!
God is good.remember,tt a bday just isn't the same when u know God.birthdays is not just abt getting presents for the sake of testing ur frens or..for the sake of celebrating the fact tt u're a yr OLDER,but birthdays now speak of a different meaning.u can look at it in many different perspectives
- the frens whom u've impacted in ur lives,
the frens who remember you,
the frens who appreciate u and
most imptly the God who loves u so much so tt he remembers to drop u a lil blessing,a testimony tt u can impact in other pple's life.
Birthdays are days when we can glorify God two times more compared to a normal day.yay!i'm happy,excited and just really touched.i know,i'm nv alone.i know i've so many frens who care for me,love me and are always there for me!!thank u once again for all those gifts and cards.i really really really like em all!!really!!thank u!!!!i love u all really!alot alot!!!*mUaks* and *hUgz* *hugz*..
ooh...to PWG/f4...haha..thks for all tt trouble in getting the present.joanna's gift just isn't easy eh?haha...and it just is so difficult trying to surprise me right??haha..but i like the top.really.altho the shoulders there abit too big.but i like!!thk u!!and i actually like the 'petals' haha...see la.i miss it!!but thks estee,for getting all ur frens to try out those stuff for me!ahha..pls thank ur frens on my behalf too!heh....
thk u pple...once again!!!!thk u!!thk u!!!remember,if u ever need a listening ear,or a hug,or any kinda help tt i can be of help,pls tell me okie?or..call me!!i'm always here!!smilez!!
fel,u remembered!!love ya babe!!and yes!!i definitely hope to find my prince charming soon!haha...but well..let's just say..i'm still waiting for the best!heh...love ya!
Jojojoanna
is just simply gorgeous 12:15 AM